The first dreadful days of his exile passed into weeks. Winter became
spring on Beta Delta IV. Julia was right when she told him that the raw,
gnawing pain would ease. But the dull ache never left him. The best he
could do was fill the time with activity as the days lengthened and the
sun warmed the planet more.
Being with Julia WAS the one consolation for him. When she came home from
school and at the weekends, he was able to feel alive. He could actually
say that he enjoyed evenings at the theatre or cinema, or concerts, Saturday
mornings at the bowling alley, afternoons in Earth Park. He was content
playing chess with her in the drawing room and kissing her goodnight on
the landing before going to his own room where he would never put on the
light because Humphrey would be hiding under the bed waiting to greet
him.
But the days when she was at school weighed heavily on him. He spent much
of the time in his powered down TARDIS. He went to the Cloister room and
meditated in the shadow of the Seal of Rassilon or sought the peace of
the zero room, cut off from every part of the universe beyond its soothing
walls. But neither the Cloister Room nor the Zero Room gave him the peace
he sought. When he was alone it was too easy for memories to push their
way into the forefront of his mind and he remembered with awful clarity
that he was an exile from his home, that he didn’t even know for
sure that his loved ones were alive or dead or if his world was still
there.
Marianna was the only one of the family who knew just how unhappy he was.
She did her best to be kind to him. When he emerged from his solitary
time she gave him coffee and tried to draw him into conversation. He tried
his best, but sometimes she knew his responses were only half-hearted.
“Maybe you should get a job,” she suggested as he sat at the
kitchen table and watched the clock turn towards the time when Julia would
be home.
“A job?” he looked at her as if the word was new to him. She
smiled indulgently.
“A job. Like other people who aren’t princes of the universe
have,” she answered him.
“What sort of job could I do?”
“You’ve been to school for nearly 200 years. You’ve
got a degree haven’t you?”
“It’s in Thermodynamics with an elective in Gallifreyan law,”
he answered. “And if Gallifreyan law no longer exists that’s
not a lot of use.”
“A degree is a degree as far as the Board of Governors at the school
are concerned,” she told him. “New Canberra High School,”
she added as he still looked uncharacteristically blank-eyed at her. “Where
Julia and the boys go. There’s a job opening for the summer term.”
“Teaching?”
“Teaching.” Marianna put a sheet of paper in front of him.
It was an application form for a teaching post.
“You got the form?”
“Mr Gallighan suggested it. At the parent-teacher’s night.
The headmaster. The one who took over in the New Year after the trouble
at Christmas. He asked about you. And wondered if you might be interested
in the job. It’s not in the mainstream faculty. It’s a new
special needs class that they want somebody for.”
“Somebody I have never met before knows about what happened at Christmas
and wonders if I would like a job?” Chrístõ thought
about that for a while and realised there was nothing sinister about it,
really. After all, he did make a big impression. Even so…
“You planned this… without even asking me?”
“Somebody has to. You need something to do, something to take your
mind off your troubles. Maybe even in the long term. Have you really thought…
in the worst case, you might NEVER be able to return to your old life.”
“The war will be over one day,” Chrístõ said.
“I’m NOT going to be an exile forever. I WILL marry Julia,
on Gallifrey, in the Panopticon. I WILL.”
That was the hope he held onto. Marianna wouldn’t have robbed him
of that hope for anything.
“But in the meantime, this would be better than moping around in
your TARDIS.”
“I don’t mope,” he protested. “I meditate.”
But he looked at the form and then he picked up a pen and filled it in,
wondering why it was that in a technological age a handwritten form was
still the best way of deciding if somebody was fit for a job. He attached
a celluloid memory wafer. It contained his final examination results from
the Prydonian Academy and the testimonials of his tutors all translated
into English. He noticed that Marianna and Herrick had already signed
the part where he was asked to provide a personal character reference.
And later when he walked in the evening sunshine with Julia he stopped
off to post the application.
He almost expected to be rejected. He was sure the fact that he was an
ALIEN would go against him. Before the end of the spring term, though,
he was interviewed by the new headmaster and a panel of the school managers
and governors and seemed to impress them.
In the Easter holiday he went with Herrick to look at cars and bought
one for himself that wasn’t too expensive and ostentatious. And
on the first day of the summer term HE drove Julia and her cousins to
school on what was his own first day.
“This is just a BIT embarrassing,” Julia pointed out. “My
boyfriend is one of the teachers.”
“Until the end of the school day I’m not your boyfriend,”
Chrístõ answered. “Anyway, I’m not teaching
you. I’m in charge of the Advanced Needs Students”
“You’re teaching the bookworms,” Cordell pointed out.
“The clever kids who make the rest of us look dumb.”
“Well, at least he’ll never have to teach YOU, then,”
Julia answered him. “I hope you have a nice day, Chrístõ.”
He stopped the car by the main gate and Julia leaned over and kissed him
on the cheek before getting out of the car with her school bag over her
shoulder and waving to one of her friends. The two boys ran off to join
their own crowd. Chrístõ drove on to the teacher’s
entrance and parked his car there. He sat in the driver’s seat for
a long time, looking at the door he was supposed to go through. When he
did, he would be a teacher, not an ambassador for his world, not a prince
of the universe. Not even a Time Lord. For now, that life would be gone.
Even his name would be gone.
Chrístõ de Leon. That was the name he wrote on the virtual
whiteboard with a stylus. It was easier to spell and to pronounce. It
was the surname his father used when he worked as a professor of English
literature on late twentieth century Earth, so in a way it DID belong
to him. But it still felt slightly wrong when he said it out loud to the
group of fifteen students who sat looking up at him. It felt as if he
had betrayed another part of his heritage.
“You’re the one from the Christmas party,” a girl in
a red dress said. “I remember. You broke the window….”
“I won’t be doing anything that spectacular in this classroom,”
he answered. “Glass breaking is definitely not on the curriculum.”
They all laughed a little, but he hadn’t QUITE managed to convince
them that he WAS going to be their teacher.
“You don’t look old enough to teach us,” said a boy
in the front desk. “You DO know that we’re the ADVANCED class?
Are you qualified….”
Chrístõ felt he could answer THAT question, at least. He
smiled and picked up the maths book the boy had open in front of him.
There was a very complicated calculus problem on the page. He gave it
back to the boy and turned to the whiteboard. He erased his name and then
wrote down the problem before proceeding to solve it in a matter of seconds.
Half the class were staring at the whiteboard. The other half were completing
the problem themselves and then looking up at him in astonishment when
their answers matched the one he had already given.
“You’ve got the answer book,” a girl pointed out.
“Do I?” he asked opening out his hands and showing them to
be empty.
“It’s on the shelf over there,” she told him. He turned
and looked at the bookshelf with a selection of textbooks crammed onto
it. It was well out of arms reach..
“And I’m standing over HERE,” he answered her.
“Good point,” she conceded.
“Glad we cleared that up. Apparently I do the register now. I know
that’s WAY below all our intellectual levels, but just wave your
hands and say ‘present’ or something and I’ll know who
you are after that.”
The register was on an interactive screen built into his desk and it actually
showed their names according to where they were sitting, even though two
of them switched seats when he wasn’t looking. But he wanted to
do it the old fashioned way and put the names to their faces.
Benning, Marle,” he read and the girl who had queried his maths
skills raised her hand. She was one of the oldest students, at 17. “Benning,
Laurence.” Beside her a boy who had to be her twin brother raised
his hand. “Dennis, Carlo, Dutea, Rudie… Joyce, Archie…
Keogh, Malcolm… Koetting, Vern… Lee, Damon.. Lovell, Gretta…
Massey, Noreen… Nuttino, Lara… Ross, Glenda… Stein,
Pieter… Walker, Geoffrey…. Wright, Angela…”
He watched their hands shoot up and committed their names to memory. They
were a fair representation of Beta Deltan society. The Benning twins were
brown eyed and black haired, and could have passed for an older brother
and sister to Julia. Glenda Ross and Rudie Dutea were dark skinned. Glenda
had long hair in lots of tight plaits threaded with beads and Rudie had
tight, short curled hair. Malcom, Noreen and Archie were all pale complexioned
but with dark hair, descended somewhere along the line from either Scots
or Irish. Gretta and Pieter were blue eyed, blonde haired and of Swiss
or Austrian descent. Lara must have had an olive skinned Mediterranean
in her ancestry. Carlo had slightly duskier Spanish ancestry. Vern and
Damon had the faintest trace of Afrikaans in their accents despite being
born on this planet. Angela had a North American cadence to her voice.
All part of the melting pot of interplanetary colonisation.
For the foreseeable future, he, too, was a colonist. He was a Beta Deltan.
And he was a teacher. Their teacher. They looked at him expectantly. And
he panicked for a moment, wondering what he was supposed to do.
“Calm down,” his inner voice told him. “You’ve
held hundreds of delegates in the palm of your hands at conference. You
can do this.”
“Yes, I can,” he answered himself. He looked back at his students
and smiled. “According to your schedule you’ve got another
twenty of these problems to get through in the first hour of the morning.
So why don’t you get on with that while I sort out where all my
pencils go and plan the rest of your lessons.”
The class went quiet apart from the tapping of styluses on the virtual
keyboards on each of their desks as they worked through the maths problems.
Chrístõ closed the register on his own desktop visual display
and with deft fingers opened and read the lesson plan not only for the
day, but for the whole term. These were unique children who were far advanced
for their age in all of their lessons. They had been put into a separate
class where they would not be held back by the other students or feel
nervous about showing their genius in front of their peers. His objective
was to get them through their advanced curriculum, bypassing the usual
examination levels and taking them straight to the university entrance
examinations while, at the same time, helping them with the social skills
that would allow them to play their part in Beta Deltan society. He therefore
had to take them for sports lessons, music, theatre trips, and various
other educational field work in addition to the hours they would spend
in this room.
“Ok,” he thought. “I can do that.”
He looked at his class. They were quiet, still, engrossed in their work.
At least they appeared to be.
There was something about them….
He picked up a book off the shelf behind him and pretended to be reading
it, but he was actually watching them and concentrating his mind on them
as he did so.
And what he found surprised him.
He stopped reading the book and concentrated very hard on a single image.
Slowly, each of the students looked up from their maths books and looked
around at each other before turning to look at them.
“Mr De Leon….” said the girl who he knew from the register
as Marle Benning. “Sir….”
“Where IS that, sir?” Laurence Benning asked. “It’s
not on Beta Delta IV.”
“You all saw the image in your minds?” he asked. “And
you’ve never seen that mountain before?”
“Why does it make you sad, sir?” asked Angela Wright.
That shook him. He had focussed on the image, but almost all of them had
picked up his feelings about it.
“The mountain is near my home and I may never be able to go there
again,” he answered, truthfully. “You’re all telepathic
as well as smart?”
“Yes,” said Marle. “Are you?”
“We’re in trouble now,” he heard one of the boys say
telepathically. “We’ve never had a teacher who can listen
in on our conversations before.”
“Then this afternoon’s lesson ought to be how to block your
private thoughts,” Chrístõ replied to them, out loud.
“But first, you’re supposed to be doing Earth literature.”
He looked at the bookshelf again and smiled. He picked up a stack of books
and handed them out to the class.
“The Chrysalids, by John Wyndham. A 20th century Earth writer with
a very rich and vivid imagination.” He opened his own copy of the
book on the first page and began to read it aloud. He could read it to
himself in a few minutes. He thought his class would probably finish it
in an hour. But he wanted them to realise what he had realised long ago
- that reading fast was only useful if you wanted to get to grips with
a technical manual. For literature, it was better to savour the words
at a more ordinary speed.
After fifteen minutes of reading aloud, though, he let them get on by
themselves. Again it went quiet in the room except for the turning of
pages as they read. He was aware of their random thoughts as they took
in a story about a small group of young people with powers like their
own, who lived in fear of persecution for not being a ‘norm’
of their society.
By the end of the first hour of their literature lesson they all closed
the books and looked up at him expectantly. He sat on the front of his
desk, more casual, and hopefully a little more friendly than sitting behind
it.
“Sir...” Marle raised her hand and spoke in words. “Do
you think…” she paused. She was unsure how to phrase her question.
“I mean… would that happen to us?”
“Not quite like that,” he answered. “At least, I hope
not. Beta Deltan society is not so fundamentalist as the one described
in that book. Even so… Nobody outside this class knows you can do
telepathy? Your parents don’t know? Brothers or sisters?”
They all shook their heads.
“Why?” he asked them. “Why is it, do you think, that
your instincts all told you to keep this a secret? Why do you hide what
you are?”
“What ARE we?” asked Vern Koetting, a small boy for sixteen
with a timid looking expression.
“You are Human beings who have evolved with a skill that is latent
in ALL Humans but rarely develops into something that they are even aware
of. I’ve met maybe three Humans with strong telepathy and they were
singular people living light years from each other. To find fifteen of
you in one classroom – that’s actually amazing. What you ARE
is very special. And don’t let anyone make you feel otherwise. But…
to return to my first question…”
“We’re freaks enough for being ‘brainy’,”
Laurence answered. “If people knew about this…”
The others nodded in agreement.
“Ok, that’s the answer I more or less expected,” Chrístõ
said. “And, don’t worry, I’m not here to expose any
of you to that sort of hurt. But I will help you. As I said before, you
need to learn to block. But there is a lot more you can learn to do with
your skills. And I can teach you.”
Fifteen pairs of eyes widened expectantly and enthusiastically.
“I also have to get you through an ordinary curriculum,” he
added. “So right now, 1,000 words on the Bildungsroman of Wyndham’s
Chrysalids, with citations.”
There was a collective groan about the fact that they were required to
WORK after having things easy for the past hour. Telepathic geniuses they
may be, but they were still teenagers aged fourteen to seventeen. They
set to work right away, though, and Chrístõ went to sit
down at his desk again. He had a lot to think about before the afternoon
lesson that was not going to follow the set curriculum.
At lunchtime he walked with his students to the refectory. He was expected
to sit at the staff table, of course. And he talked with some of the other
teachers who asked him kindly about how he was enjoying his first day.
While he kept up with the conversation he looked around the room. His
students sat at a table together, separate from the mainstream cohort.
But, actually, as he looked around, he realised there was nothing unusual
about that. All the student body was split along different lines. He noticed
Julia at a table of slim young girls who, despite being in school uniform,
seemed MADE to wear leotards and gym skirts. Another table was exclusively
male and he knew at once they played football. Cordell and Michal sat
with a noisy group of boys their own age. Demarcations and cliques were
a part of school life, and his students were no different in that respect.
He was glad of that. Because he knew what it was to be marked out as unusual.
There was a refectory at the Prydonian Academy. It was a beautiful room
with white walls decorated with bas reliefs of ancient Gallifreyan mythological
figures. There was a cool, peaceful ambience. But for the first ten years
of his school life he had avoided it as often as he could. Almost every
lunch and supper he got food he could put in his pocket and slipped away
to eat it somewhere private, like the roof of the arboretum or the observatory
tower. Eating alone was preferable to being alone surrounded by hundreds
of other people.
As he promised, he set aside the curriculum in the afternoon and started
to teach them to block their private thoughts from each other. He taught
them to build a brick wall in their minds and keep their thoughts behind
it. Ironically, he thought, the idea of a mental wall like that came from
another Wyndham novel. In his classes at the Academy they simply taught
the would-be Time Lords to close the telepathic synapses off from the
rest of their brains. The brick wall was a more comfortable idea, and
easier in a way. It took only an hour for most of his students to do it.
They looked at each other in amazement as they found themselves alone
in their own heads for a rare time.
“You should get used to keeping some of your thoughts private that
way,” Chrístõ told them. “Everyone needs privacy.
But don’t get paranoid and suspicious with each other. Don’t
go thinking somebody is hiding things from you. Respect each other’s
privacy, Don’t try to knock down each other’s walls.”
He took a breath before he continued.
“HOWEVER, the next part of the exercise is to TRY to break down
the walls.”
“Why?”
“So that you learn to resist it,” he answered. “This
could be dangerous. You could hurt each other. So… be careful. But
work in pairs. One of you concentrate on one single image and put it behind
a wall. The other, try to break through. But if it hurts either of you,
stop.”
At the first attempt nobody got hurt, because it took only a few seconds
to break down the walls. When they tried again it was a bit more effort.
The third time, he could see the concentration on all their faces. One
by one the walls came down, all except Marle and Laurence. All the others
watched as Laurence resisted his sister’s assault on his wall. And
when it finally DID crumble they all laughed out loud.
“He hid a WALL behind his WALL,” Marle protested. “A
second wall.”
“Very good, Laurence,” Chrístõ said. “If
any of us have any BIG secrets, we’ll let you look after them.”
“You have secrets, don’t you, sir?” Marle said.
“Not exactly secrets,” he answered. “Just… things
I don’t really want to talk about, right now.”
He felt them probing. They were teenagers, and curiosity got the better
of them. But he had learnt to block such probes long ago.
“No,” he said gently but insistently. “Don’t do
that. Come on, now. Let’s round off the afternoon with some ordinary
theoretical physics and we’ll pick this up tomorrow afternoon.”
He was cheerful as he drove home after his first day as a teacher. He
was more talkative at the tea table than any of the family had seen him
for a while. And afterwards he sat opposite Julia at the table in the
living room. While she did her homework, he used his laptop computer to
plan out what he wanted to do with his class tomorrow afternoon. He was
still doing it when Julia was finished and she moved her chair around
to sit next to him.
“Teachers aren’t supposed to have more homework than students,”
she told him.
“I know,” he said. “I’m sorry. I’ll be finished
soon. Then we can go out for a walk. It’s a nice evening.”
He smiled brightly. Julia saw the smile and realised that, for the first
time in a long while, his eyes smiled, too. He had gone a whole day without
remembering he was unhappy.
“Yes,” Chrístõ thought as he caught the end
of her thought. “Yes, I have. Marianna was right. I’ve actually
been happy all day.”
“What are they like, your students?” she asked him.
“They’re terrific,” he answered. “Totally fantastic.
And they really need me. There’s so much I can teach them.”
“Did you read this to them?” she asked, looking at a copy
of the Chrysalids that was by the side of the laptop.
“Yes, I did,” he answered.
“It’s an interesting story. I read it with Natalie.”
“Wasn’t it a bit advanced for you?”
“Natalie thought it might interest me. Because it’s about
telepaths. People like you.”
“Not exactly like me. On my planet, telepathy is normal. I don’t
know anyone who can’t do it. Humans… it frightens them. Anything
unusual frightens them.”
“Is that why you read it to them? Because they’re the ‘bookworms’
and people think they’re freaks?”
“Don’t use words like that,” Chrístõ told
her. “Freak… It’s not a nice word. Besides, they’re
NOT. They’re… they’re MY Chrysalids. That’s what
you can call them.”
“Chrístõ’s Chrysalids?” She smiled. “Good
name.”
That name stuck with him, anyway. He thought of them as that when he
planned their lessons in the evenings. He looked forward to spending his
days with them, teaching them their ordinary lessons in the morning, and
the extraordinary ones in the afternoon. In the morning, he would sit
behind the desk, a teacher. In the afternoon, he sat with them, the seats
arranged in a ring. He taught them exercises to strengthen their telepathic
abilities. He taught them the rules of multidimensional chess and created
a board with his own mind. He taught them to move the pieces with the
power of their minds. They all learnt to do it. Some faster than the others.
The Benning twins were the strongest telepaths of the whole group, but
they all tried so hard that there was no question of them failing.
Little by little, over the first weeks of the summer term, he honed their
skills. He moved on from basic telepathy to telekinesis. He admitted that
he was not much good at it himself, then managed to write his name on
the whiteboard without touching the stylus before they all had a go. He
made sure somebody was always watching at the door. They didn’t
need the headmaster or another teacher walking in on them in the middle
of THIS lesson. For the same reason there were always maths books open
in front of them all.
He never forgot he was a proud Gallifreyan, a prince of the universe.
But a teacher was a good thing to be until such time as the universe called
him again.
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