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       It was mid-afternoon of the Day of Liberation. In the 
        streets of the cities and towns, the people celebrated that they were 
        still alive, and mourned those who were dead. They thanked the alien strangers 
        who had come to their rescue. The Allied forces rounded up what was left 
        of the Mallus still in occupation and brought them to a prison ship in 
        orbit around Gallifrey.  
      
        Chrístõ had not taken part in either the celebrations or 
        the mopping up operations. He had spent the hours in the Zero Room under 
        the Junior Senate House. There, his father had been brought on a stretcher. 
        He would not get any better, but in the quiet calm of that room he would 
        not get any worse. Chrístõ remained with him, needing the 
        quiet and the calm himself. He didn’t meditate in the usual way. 
        But he did sit in the formal, legs crossed, straight backed way of the 
        Brothers of Mount Lœng and cleared his mind of all distractions for 
        as long as he could.  
      
        He was surprised when the quiet was disturbed by two visitors. Paracell 
        Hext came in, accompanying Remonte, who still needed help to get around. 
        Chrístõ embraced his uncle fondly.  
      
        “I came to give you this,” Remonte told him, pressing a small 
        object into his hand. It was a memory wafer that fitted into a TARDIS 
        guidance system. “You will need it,” he said.  
      
        “Thank you,” he answered. “But… Uncle… Are 
        you all right?” 
      
        “I am recovering. I will recover much better when I reach Ventura 
        IV. One of Penne Dúre’s fast ships has been detailed to take 
        me there. My wife… by good fortune… was visiting her friend, 
        the Lady Ambassador on that planet, when the invasion began. She was safe 
        there, as you were on Beta Delta. But I will go to her now. We will remain 
        as guests of the Ambassador until I am recovered.”  
      
        “I am glad of that,” Chrístõ told him. “But 
        what of… of my father.”  
      
        “The President will explain to you very soon,” Remonte answered 
        him.  
      
        “We don’t have a president,” Chrístõ answered. 
         
      
        “My father has been sworn in by the Inquisitor, by the unanimous 
        decision of the remaining High Councillors,” Hext told him. “He 
        was second choice, I might add. YOUR father was the one they would have 
        wanted. But as he is unwell…”  
      
        “Unwell doesn’t begin to describe it. And I still don’t 
        understand what is wrong with him.”  
      
        “Come on, now. He will be looked after here.” As Hext spoke, 
        a woman came into the Zero Room. She was dressed from head to foot in 
        the pale coloured silk of one of the Sisters of Contemplation. She knelt 
        by Lord de Lœngbærrow’s prone figure and began to pass her 
        hands over him, not touching him at all, but the action looked as if it 
        was soothing and gentle and good for the patient. Hext took Remonte de 
        Lœngbærrow by the arm again and Chrístõ walked by his 
        side back up to the Panopticon.  
      
        The Panopticon was a sombre place, still. It now contained the coffins 
        of several important casualties of the war. Among them, Hext’s uncle, 
        the murdered president. Chrístõ didn’t like to ask 
        where his body had been for over a year of the occupation. Another was 
        Silis Bonnoenfant. Having seen his uncle taken care of by two of Penne’s 
        personal bodyguards, Chrístõ went to pay his respects by 
        that coffin. Hext came with him. 
      
        “Silis Bonnoenfant…” Hext said to him in a low voice. 
        “Long before our time, before our fathers were born, he was sentenced 
        to Shada, for a crime he didn’t commit.” Chrístõ 
        looked around in shocked surprise but his friend kept speaking. “He 
        was cryogenically frozen for thousands of years. But unlike most, he didn’t 
        go mad. The knowledge that he was innocent kept him sane. But he did become 
        bitter against Gallifreyan society.” 
      
        “I can understand that,” Chrístõ said dryly 
        as he remembered the surprised expressions of the High Councillors when 
        Silis had been the one who offered himself to save Hext’s life. 
        If he was so notorious, then no wonder. 
      
        “He was released, eventually. He took himself to the property his 
        family owned by the Calderon, and lived a free man, but a recluse, in 
        his tower hidden by a chameleon cloak so that few people even knew it 
        was there. For centuries he was undisturbed and knew peace. Then, one 
        day, a young woman almost drowned in the Calderon. He rescued her. She 
        learnt his story. She prevailed upon her husband – the then Magister 
        of the Southern Continent – to look into his case. He did, and discrepancies 
        were found. Silis was exonerated. But even Time Lords cannot give back 
        time. He still had the memories of his years as a prisoner, the knowledge 
        of what was taken from him. He still shunned society and lived in his 
        tower. The Magister visited him occasionally, the one man he came to trust… 
        And when our world was in peril and he asked a favour… Silis granted 
        it, in memory of the Magister’s wife, who had believed him to be 
        innocent when nobody else did.”  
      
        “The Magister… the young woman. You mean…” 
      
        “It was your mother, of course,” Hext said. “She was 
        the one who believed in him. He was touched by her honesty and kindness. 
        He painted her picture. She never saw him again, but he remembered her 
        as a spark of warmth in his cold soul.” 
      
        “My mother…”  
      
        “He promised to tell you about her,” Hext said. “He 
        left me the memory to pass on to you.”  
      
        “He sacrificed himself in the end. For… you…” 
      
        “Yes. He was a brave man. Braver than anyone thought.”  
      
        “Thank you for sharing that with me.” 
      
        “It was my duty to him,” Hext answered. “And to you.” 
         
      
        Chrístõ began to say something else, but his attention was 
        required. The newly sworn President and the Inquisitor waited to have 
        an audience with him.  
      
        “Chrístõ, it is up to you now,” said the Inquisitor. 
      
        “What is up to me?” he answered.  
      
        “Your father’s life,” replied the President. “You 
        don’t yet understand what happened to him?”  
      
        “I know the Mallus tortured him and now he’s…” 
         
      
        “It was not the torture that left him as he is. That was something 
        he did to himself to protect the secrets of Gallifrey and the Matrix.” 
      
        “He… did it to himself…”  
      
        “Chrístõ, you are young. You have not yet regenerated. 
        You perhaps don’t know everything about the process. Have you ever 
        heard the axiom ‘A man is the sum of his memories?’” 
         
      
        “No,” Chrístõ answered. “Though I would 
        accept it as a truism.”  
      
        “It is even more true of a Time Lord. One who has regenerated many 
        times has the memories of each of his lives in his head. He lives with 
        his multiple personalities in balance. And more than that, each of his 
        previous incarnations holds in his brain a portion of the complete memories 
        of the latest incarnation – retrospectively. Even you, as young 
        as you are – in a closed portion of your mind that you are not even 
        aware of, you carry your own future. I believe you have met one or more 
        of your later incarnations. You know that they exist in your future.” 
      
        “Yes… but…” 
      
        “That is what has happened to your father. He knew that the Mallus 
        were going to use mind probes that might break down even the strongest 
        mental walls. He knew he might be forced to reveal the secrets despite 
        all his efforts. So he forced a brainstorm. He wiped his whole memory 
        except for a very small portion that keeps his brain alive now. His memories 
        since his last regeneration – which you remember, I think, Chrístõ. 
        All before then, including the secrets of the Presidency, the key to the 
        Matrix, was erased.” 
      
        Chrístõ said nothing. He could think of nothing to say, 
        and he didn’t want to burble another string of ‘buts’ 
        that were all he felt capable of.  
      
        “That is why it is up to you, now,” the President continued. 
        “You have to take your father… we are arranging for him to 
        be placed into a portable Zero Cabinet. You must travel in time to find 
        each of his previous incarnations and they will return to him the portion 
        of his mind that they hold within them.” 
      
        “Twelve of his incarnations… his previous lives… I have 
        to go to each of them and tell them… that his last incarnation needs 
        something from them?”  
      
        “Yes.” 
      
        “I will do it, of course. But my TARDIS is on Beta Delta IV. And…” 
      
        “Come with us,” said the Inquisitor. It wasn’t an order, 
        rather it was a request. But Chrístõ had no will to refuse. 
        He felt as if he wasn’t even walking on his own two feet as he followed 
        the Inquisitor and the President. Hext walked by his side. He was grateful 
        for his company. He almost felt like reaching out and gripping his hand, 
        but that might be taken the wrong way by everybody concerned.  
      
        He was brought to a place where some semblance of a communications room 
        had been set up. Chrístõ noted that some people, Gallifreyans 
        and Adano-Ambradans, were setting up controls for the Transduction Barrier. 
        Others were co-ordinating the distribution of food and medical supplies 
        to civilians in outlying parts of the planet and ensuring that the same 
        was happening on the other planets of the system. Penne and the Dragon-Loge 
        were there, both talking to the other Allied commanders about the surrender 
        of the Mallus. Penne took time to greet Chrístõ, though. 
         
      
        “You’ve got a mission, I believe,” he said to him. “I 
        had hoped we would have time to talk. But we are both busy. Perhaps there 
        will be time in the near future. It seems a long time since we bathed 
        together and talked of trivialities.”  
      
        Hext blushed as Penne mentioned bathing. Chrístõ recalled 
        that Penne had invited him to share that ritual with him when he had been 
        on Adano-Ambrado.  
      
        “I can think of nothing I would like better,” he said. “When 
        all is done and I have the leisure.”  
      
        Then Penne was called away to attend to an important matter and the President 
        commanded Chrístõ’s attention again. The door to the 
        communications room was held open by two of Penne’s guards, now 
        wearing their powder blue uniforms. What looked like a rectangular coffin 
        was carried in by two more of the same guards, followed by the veiled 
        young woman. Chrístõ saw that the ‘coffin’ had 
        a glass top and his father was within. It was unnerving, even though he 
        knew his father was alive.  
      
        “You need not do this alone,” the Inquisitor said. “Young 
        Hext has said he will accompany you. And this young lady will attend to 
        your father’s needs.”  
      
        “It is my honour,” said the young woman, and Chrístõ 
        looked around at the sound of her voice. He knew it well.  
      
        “Romana…” he cried, stepping close to her. He wanted 
        to hug her, but then he remembered that she was of the Sisterhood. She 
        extended her two hands and took them in his. That was as intimate as he 
        might expect of one who had chosen the cloister. “My dear… 
        I am so glad you are well. What happened… I heard terrible stories 
        about what the Mallus did to women… Are you… the Sisterhood.” 
      
        “We are well. We invoked a chameleon cloak around the House. All 
        of the Sisterhoods did. So did the brothers on the Mountain. Most remained 
        safely cloistered. We took in refugees and protected them as far as we 
        could. A few of us came to render assistance. I have sent word that I 
        have one more mission to do in the outside world before I return to my 
        chosen life. Caring for your father is my solemn duty until he is restored.” 
         
      
        “Thank you,” Chrístõ said. “Thank you, 
        so much.” 
      
        “Your TARDIS,” said the President. “We have sent a recall 
        signal…” Chrístõ turned in surprise as he heard 
        a familiar sound. His TARDIS materialised in the middle of the floor. 
        It was still disguised as the wardrobe in the corner of his bedroom on 
        Beta Delta IV. And the reason for that was soon obvious. The door opened 
        and Julia ran out. Chrístõ caught her in his arms and hugged 
        her tightly.  
      
        “I was in the TARDIS,” she said. “I have been spending 
        time in there… because it is comforting. I’ve missed you. 
        But… suddenly it began to move. I saw on the viewscreen… before 
        it disappeared… Aunt Marianna running into the bedroom, but I couldn’t 
        get out.” 
      
        “Then first things first,” Chrístõ said. “We 
        need urgent access to a videophone.” He looked at the President, 
        who immediately made a terminal available to them. Marianna and Herrick 
        were relieved that Julia was with Chrístõ, but adamant that 
        she should be brought home at once. 
      
        “Please,” Chrístõ answered them. “I have 
        missed her so much. Would you let her stay with me for a few days. There 
        is something I must do. It is not dangerous. But it would be a comfort 
        and a help to me.” 
      
        “Please, let me stay.” Julia added her plea. “I want 
        to help Chrístõ. And there are still two weeks of the school 
        holidays left…”  
      
        “Those are weeks you should be preparing for the new term. You have 
        exams in the coming school year. And Chrístõ still has a 
        job here…”  
      
        “I know that,” Julia said. “But please… let me 
        do this one thing.”  
      
        “Sir…” Romana stepped forward. She folded back the veil 
        from her face and spoke in a soft, sweet, subtly persuasive voice, assuring 
        Marianna and Herrick that Julia would be chaperoned by her.  
      
        It did the trick.  
      
        “So… where are we going?” Julia asked when she had her 
        guardians’ permission.  
      
        Hext explained. Julia was shocked. She turned and looked at the Zero Cabinet 
        and shuddered.  
      
        “He’s alive? We can make him well again?” 
      
        “Yes,” Chrístõ said.  
      
        “So… what are we waiting for?” Julia asked. “Let’s 
        get on with it.”  
      
        “One more person who wants to wish this mission well,” replied 
        the President. “She will be here shortly. Chrístõ, 
        you have the memory wafer that Chancellor Remonte gave you? That contains 
        a history of your father’s life as far as his brother was able to 
        put it together. It will help you select the times and places where you 
        will encounter his past lives. As far as possible, you should try to find 
        those lives offworld. Travelling back in time on Gallifrey itself is difficult 
        and normally prohibited on pain of death. The danger to us all is too 
        great. If you must do so, the Council will be willing to give you the 
        code which will allow you to breech the protocols. But your father was 
        well travelled in all his lives. It ought to be possible to find him elsewhere.” 
      
        “I will try to do that,” Chrístõ said. “With 
        Hext and Romana both helping, there should be no difficulty in piloting 
        the TARDIS to precise destinations.”  
      
        The door to the communications room was again opened and Chrístõ 
        was glad when Valena rushed in, carrying Garrick. He reached and took 
        his half-brother from her, holding the child in his arms as she knelt 
        beside the Zero Cabinet. The lid was opened for her to reach in and caress 
        her husband’s face and bend to kiss him.  
      
        “He knew me,” she said as she stood and stepped away. “I 
        am sure he knew me.” 
      
        “He will know you again, when we return,” Chrístõ 
        promised her. “I’ll bring him back to you, Valena. To you 
        and Garrick. I won’t let you down.”  
      
        He hugged his half-brother tenderly, then reached and embraced Valena, 
        too.  
      
        “I brought this to you,” Valena said, reaching into a bag 
        she had brought. She gave him his leather jacket. He had left it in the 
        tower when he and Hext set off from there to their mission in the Capitol. 
        He gave Garrick back to her and slipped it on over his battle fatigues. 
        He almost felt himself again in the jacket that was so much a part of 
        his being.  
      
        Then he and Valena both turned and saw a phalanx made up of Penne’s 
        Gardia Real and the Chancellery Guard. They saluted as the Zero Cabinet 
        was taken into the TARDIS. Julia and Romana followed. Hext turned and 
        said a heartsfelt goodbye to his father before stepping inside, too. Chrístõ 
        shook hands with the President and Inquisitor, and hugged Penne, who came 
        from his own work once more to see him off. He hugged his stepmother and 
        half brother one more time and then stepped between the honour guard into 
        his TARDIS.  
      
        As he closed the door, Humphrey greeted him enthusiastically. He, too, 
        had been brought from Beta Delta in the TARDIS. He was glad of that. He 
        stepped up to the console and inserted the memory wafer into the receptacle 
        on the navigation drive. He noted that his uncle had marked the best possible 
        temporal and spatial locations to meet up with his father’s past 
        lives, and he selected the first of them. Then he turned and reached out 
        his hand. Julia came to his side at once. He hugged her around the shoulders 
        as he watched the TARDIS enter the vortex, spinning backwards through 
        time.  
      
        His new mission was begun.  
      
       
        
       
      
       
      
      
      
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