It was mid-afternoon of the Day of Liberation. In the
streets of the cities and towns, the people celebrated that they were
still alive, and mourned those who were dead. They thanked the alien strangers
who had come to their rescue. The Allied forces rounded up what was left
of the Mallus still in occupation and brought them to a prison ship in
orbit around Gallifrey.
Chrístõ had not taken part in either the celebrations or
the mopping up operations. He had spent the hours in the Zero Room under
the Junior Senate House. There, his father had been brought on a stretcher.
He would not get any better, but in the quiet calm of that room he would
not get any worse. Chrístõ remained with him, needing the
quiet and the calm himself. He didn’t meditate in the usual way.
But he did sit in the formal, legs crossed, straight backed way of the
Brothers of Mount Lœng and cleared his mind of all distractions for
as long as he could.
He was surprised when the quiet was disturbed by two visitors. Paracell
Hext came in, accompanying Remonte, who still needed help to get around.
Chrístõ embraced his uncle fondly.
“I came to give you this,” Remonte told him, pressing a small
object into his hand. It was a memory wafer that fitted into a TARDIS
guidance system. “You will need it,” he said.
“Thank you,” he answered. “But… Uncle… Are
you all right?”
“I am recovering. I will recover much better when I reach Ventura
IV. One of Penne Dúre’s fast ships has been detailed to take
me there. My wife… by good fortune… was visiting her friend,
the Lady Ambassador on that planet, when the invasion began. She was safe
there, as you were on Beta Delta. But I will go to her now. We will remain
as guests of the Ambassador until I am recovered.”
“I am glad of that,” Chrístõ told him. “But
what of… of my father.”
“The President will explain to you very soon,” Remonte answered
him.
“We don’t have a president,” Chrístõ answered.
“My father has been sworn in by the Inquisitor, by the unanimous
decision of the remaining High Councillors,” Hext told him. “He
was second choice, I might add. YOUR father was the one they would have
wanted. But as he is unwell…”
“Unwell doesn’t begin to describe it. And I still don’t
understand what is wrong with him.”
“Come on, now. He will be looked after here.” As Hext spoke,
a woman came into the Zero Room. She was dressed from head to foot in
the pale coloured silk of one of the Sisters of Contemplation. She knelt
by Lord de Lœngbærrow’s prone figure and began to pass her
hands over him, not touching him at all, but the action looked as if it
was soothing and gentle and good for the patient. Hext took Remonte de
Lœngbærrow by the arm again and Chrístõ walked by his
side back up to the Panopticon.
The Panopticon was a sombre place, still. It now contained the coffins
of several important casualties of the war. Among them, Hext’s uncle,
the murdered president. Chrístõ didn’t like to ask
where his body had been for over a year of the occupation. Another was
Silis Bonnoenfant. Having seen his uncle taken care of by two of Penne’s
personal bodyguards, Chrístõ went to pay his respects by
that coffin. Hext came with him.
“Silis Bonnoenfant…” Hext said to him in a low voice.
“Long before our time, before our fathers were born, he was sentenced
to Shada, for a crime he didn’t commit.” Chrístõ
looked around in shocked surprise but his friend kept speaking. “He
was cryogenically frozen for thousands of years. But unlike most, he didn’t
go mad. The knowledge that he was innocent kept him sane. But he did become
bitter against Gallifreyan society.”
“I can understand that,” Chrístõ said dryly
as he remembered the surprised expressions of the High Councillors when
Silis had been the one who offered himself to save Hext’s life.
If he was so notorious, then no wonder.
“He was released, eventually. He took himself to the property his
family owned by the Calderon, and lived a free man, but a recluse, in
his tower hidden by a chameleon cloak so that few people even knew it
was there. For centuries he was undisturbed and knew peace. Then, one
day, a young woman almost drowned in the Calderon. He rescued her. She
learnt his story. She prevailed upon her husband – the then Magister
of the Southern Continent – to look into his case. He did, and discrepancies
were found. Silis was exonerated. But even Time Lords cannot give back
time. He still had the memories of his years as a prisoner, the knowledge
of what was taken from him. He still shunned society and lived in his
tower. The Magister visited him occasionally, the one man he came to trust…
And when our world was in peril and he asked a favour… Silis granted
it, in memory of the Magister’s wife, who had believed him to be
innocent when nobody else did.”
“The Magister… the young woman. You mean…”
“It was your mother, of course,” Hext said. “She was
the one who believed in him. He was touched by her honesty and kindness.
He painted her picture. She never saw him again, but he remembered her
as a spark of warmth in his cold soul.”
“My mother…”
“He promised to tell you about her,” Hext said. “He
left me the memory to pass on to you.”
“He sacrificed himself in the end. For… you…”
“Yes. He was a brave man. Braver than anyone thought.”
“Thank you for sharing that with me.”
“It was my duty to him,” Hext answered. “And to you.”
Chrístõ began to say something else, but his attention was
required. The newly sworn President and the Inquisitor waited to have
an audience with him.
“Chrístõ, it is up to you now,” said the Inquisitor.
“What is up to me?” he answered.
“Your father’s life,” replied the President. “You
don’t yet understand what happened to him?”
“I know the Mallus tortured him and now he’s…”
“It was not the torture that left him as he is. That was something
he did to himself to protect the secrets of Gallifrey and the Matrix.”
“He… did it to himself…”
“Chrístõ, you are young. You have not yet regenerated.
You perhaps don’t know everything about the process. Have you ever
heard the axiom ‘A man is the sum of his memories?’”
“No,” Chrístõ answered. “Though I would
accept it as a truism.”
“It is even more true of a Time Lord. One who has regenerated many
times has the memories of each of his lives in his head. He lives with
his multiple personalities in balance. And more than that, each of his
previous incarnations holds in his brain a portion of the complete memories
of the latest incarnation – retrospectively. Even you, as young
as you are – in a closed portion of your mind that you are not even
aware of, you carry your own future. I believe you have met one or more
of your later incarnations. You know that they exist in your future.”
“Yes… but…”
“That is what has happened to your father. He knew that the Mallus
were going to use mind probes that might break down even the strongest
mental walls. He knew he might be forced to reveal the secrets despite
all his efforts. So he forced a brainstorm. He wiped his whole memory
except for a very small portion that keeps his brain alive now. His memories
since his last regeneration – which you remember, I think, Chrístõ.
All before then, including the secrets of the Presidency, the key to the
Matrix, was erased.”
Chrístõ said nothing. He could think of nothing to say,
and he didn’t want to burble another string of ‘buts’
that were all he felt capable of.
“That is why it is up to you, now,” the President continued.
“You have to take your father… we are arranging for him to
be placed into a portable Zero Cabinet. You must travel in time to find
each of his previous incarnations and they will return to him the portion
of his mind that they hold within them.”
“Twelve of his incarnations… his previous lives… I have
to go to each of them and tell them… that his last incarnation needs
something from them?”
“Yes.”
“I will do it, of course. But my TARDIS is on Beta Delta IV. And…”
“Come with us,” said the Inquisitor. It wasn’t an order,
rather it was a request. But Chrístõ had no will to refuse.
He felt as if he wasn’t even walking on his own two feet as he followed
the Inquisitor and the President. Hext walked by his side. He was grateful
for his company. He almost felt like reaching out and gripping his hand,
but that might be taken the wrong way by everybody concerned.
He was brought to a place where some semblance of a communications room
had been set up. Chrístõ noted that some people, Gallifreyans
and Adano-Ambradans, were setting up controls for the Transduction Barrier.
Others were co-ordinating the distribution of food and medical supplies
to civilians in outlying parts of the planet and ensuring that the same
was happening on the other planets of the system. Penne and the Dragon-Loge
were there, both talking to the other Allied commanders about the surrender
of the Mallus. Penne took time to greet Chrístõ, though.
“You’ve got a mission, I believe,” he said to him. “I
had hoped we would have time to talk. But we are both busy. Perhaps there
will be time in the near future. It seems a long time since we bathed
together and talked of trivialities.”
Hext blushed as Penne mentioned bathing. Chrístõ recalled
that Penne had invited him to share that ritual with him when he had been
on Adano-Ambrado.
“I can think of nothing I would like better,” he said. “When
all is done and I have the leisure.”
Then Penne was called away to attend to an important matter and the President
commanded Chrístõ’s attention again. The door to the
communications room was held open by two of Penne’s guards, now
wearing their powder blue uniforms. What looked like a rectangular coffin
was carried in by two more of the same guards, followed by the veiled
young woman. Chrístõ saw that the ‘coffin’ had
a glass top and his father was within. It was unnerving, even though he
knew his father was alive.
“You need not do this alone,” the Inquisitor said. “Young
Hext has said he will accompany you. And this young lady will attend to
your father’s needs.”
“It is my honour,” said the young woman, and Chrístõ
looked around at the sound of her voice. He knew it well.
“Romana…” he cried, stepping close to her. He wanted
to hug her, but then he remembered that she was of the Sisterhood. She
extended her two hands and took them in his. That was as intimate as he
might expect of one who had chosen the cloister. “My dear…
I am so glad you are well. What happened… I heard terrible stories
about what the Mallus did to women… Are you… the Sisterhood.”
“We are well. We invoked a chameleon cloak around the House. All
of the Sisterhoods did. So did the brothers on the Mountain. Most remained
safely cloistered. We took in refugees and protected them as far as we
could. A few of us came to render assistance. I have sent word that I
have one more mission to do in the outside world before I return to my
chosen life. Caring for your father is my solemn duty until he is restored.”
“Thank you,” Chrístõ said. “Thank you,
so much.”
“Your TARDIS,” said the President. “We have sent a recall
signal…” Chrístõ turned in surprise as he heard
a familiar sound. His TARDIS materialised in the middle of the floor.
It was still disguised as the wardrobe in the corner of his bedroom on
Beta Delta IV. And the reason for that was soon obvious. The door opened
and Julia ran out. Chrístõ caught her in his arms and hugged
her tightly.
“I was in the TARDIS,” she said. “I have been spending
time in there… because it is comforting. I’ve missed you.
But… suddenly it began to move. I saw on the viewscreen… before
it disappeared… Aunt Marianna running into the bedroom, but I couldn’t
get out.”
“Then first things first,” Chrístõ said. “We
need urgent access to a videophone.” He looked at the President,
who immediately made a terminal available to them. Marianna and Herrick
were relieved that Julia was with Chrístõ, but adamant that
she should be brought home at once.
“Please,” Chrístõ answered them. “I have
missed her so much. Would you let her stay with me for a few days. There
is something I must do. It is not dangerous. But it would be a comfort
and a help to me.”
“Please, let me stay.” Julia added her plea. “I want
to help Chrístõ. And there are still two weeks of the school
holidays left…”
“Those are weeks you should be preparing for the new term. You have
exams in the coming school year. And Chrístõ still has a
job here…”
“I know that,” Julia said. “But please… let me
do this one thing.”
“Sir…” Romana stepped forward. She folded back the veil
from her face and spoke in a soft, sweet, subtly persuasive voice, assuring
Marianna and Herrick that Julia would be chaperoned by her.
It did the trick.
“So… where are we going?” Julia asked when she had her
guardians’ permission.
Hext explained. Julia was shocked. She turned and looked at the Zero Cabinet
and shuddered.
“He’s alive? We can make him well again?”
“Yes,” Chrístõ said.
“So… what are we waiting for?” Julia asked. “Let’s
get on with it.”
“One more person who wants to wish this mission well,” replied
the President. “She will be here shortly. Chrístõ,
you have the memory wafer that Chancellor Remonte gave you? That contains
a history of your father’s life as far as his brother was able to
put it together. It will help you select the times and places where you
will encounter his past lives. As far as possible, you should try to find
those lives offworld. Travelling back in time on Gallifrey itself is difficult
and normally prohibited on pain of death. The danger to us all is too
great. If you must do so, the Council will be willing to give you the
code which will allow you to breech the protocols. But your father was
well travelled in all his lives. It ought to be possible to find him elsewhere.”
“I will try to do that,” Chrístõ said. “With
Hext and Romana both helping, there should be no difficulty in piloting
the TARDIS to precise destinations.”
The door to the communications room was again opened and Chrístõ
was glad when Valena rushed in, carrying Garrick. He reached and took
his half-brother from her, holding the child in his arms as she knelt
beside the Zero Cabinet. The lid was opened for her to reach in and caress
her husband’s face and bend to kiss him.
“He knew me,” she said as she stood and stepped away. “I
am sure he knew me.”
“He will know you again, when we return,” Chrístõ
promised her. “I’ll bring him back to you, Valena. To you
and Garrick. I won’t let you down.”
He hugged his half-brother tenderly, then reached and embraced Valena,
too.
“I brought this to you,” Valena said, reaching into a bag
she had brought. She gave him his leather jacket. He had left it in the
tower when he and Hext set off from there to their mission in the Capitol.
He gave Garrick back to her and slipped it on over his battle fatigues.
He almost felt himself again in the jacket that was so much a part of
his being.
Then he and Valena both turned and saw a phalanx made up of Penne’s
Gardia Real and the Chancellery Guard. They saluted as the Zero Cabinet
was taken into the TARDIS. Julia and Romana followed. Hext turned and
said a heartsfelt goodbye to his father before stepping inside, too. Chrístõ
shook hands with the President and Inquisitor, and hugged Penne, who came
from his own work once more to see him off. He hugged his stepmother and
half brother one more time and then stepped between the honour guard into
his TARDIS.
As he closed the door, Humphrey greeted him enthusiastically. He, too,
had been brought from Beta Delta in the TARDIS. He was glad of that. He
stepped up to the console and inserted the memory wafer into the receptacle
on the navigation drive. He noted that his uncle had marked the best possible
temporal and spatial locations to meet up with his father’s past
lives, and he selected the first of them. Then he turned and reached out
his hand. Julia came to his side at once. He hugged her around the shoulders
as he watched the TARDIS enter the vortex, spinning backwards through
time.
His new mission was begun.
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