It was still a few days to Christmas according to the approximate calendar
Marion had worked out when she first came to live on Gallifrey. Everything
was prepared for the Christmas Eve dinner at which all the servants of
the Lœngbærrow household would be guests along with as many family
and friends who could be accommodated in the grand dining room. The day
itself was going to be devoted to Rodan, with her presents already wrapped
up to put under the drawing room tree. Kristoph had warned Marion about
lavishing too many expensive presents on her, but when they went shopping
in Liverpool even he couldn’t help being caught up in the excitement
of buying gifts for their fosterling. Many of them were books. Reading
was her passion. She looked books, especially about far off places. And
many of the toys were ‘educational’. But there were also some
unashamed indulgences like the matching velvet dresses for Rodan and the
doll that her grandfather had bought her when he came home from his last
offworld voyage. She was bigger than the doll now and it was still one
of her favourite toys.
Spoiling her with presents would be all right as long as she understood
that she was privileged and that there were many people who did not have
such luck. To that end, Rodan accompanied her foster parents on a trip
to Ventura.
It had to be said that staying in the Gallifreyan Ambassador’s residence
on Ventura wasn’t much of a reminder to Rodan that there were people
with less than she had. After all the Residence was a bigger and more
luxurious mansion than Mount Lœng House and with even more servants.
The bedroom she slept in was next door to baby Remy’s nursery and
was full of toys and books.
But on the afternoon of the second day of their visit Rodan put on a specially
made dress and a warm coat and hat. She came with Marion and Kristoph
and ‘Uncle Remonte and Aunt Rika’ with their own little boy
on a journey by horse drawn sledge through the snow-laden streets of the
Venturan capital. The exciting journey by a kind of transport that was
unknown on Gallifrey brought them to the Royal Hospital, the huge modern
building where free health care was available to all citizens of Ventura,
regardless of their financial circumstances.
They were expected, of course. The director of the Rodan Mielles Mother
and Baby and Orphan Home met them in the bright, airy foyer which had
been decorated for the Venturan winter festival with a charming artificial
snow scene. Part of the arrangement was a small ice rink. Some of the
orphans for whom the hospital was home were enjoying learning to skate.
Rodan watched with interest and was pleased when she was offered a set
of skates to have a go herself. She slipped and slid a few times at first
before getting the hang of it and skating around the rink with the other
youngsters.
“We should have got her some skates for Christmas,” Marion
said to Kristoph.
“There is nowhere she could skate,” Kristoph reminded her.
“There are no sizeable lakes on our estate, and I’m not having
her practice on the ballroom floor.”
Marion giggled at the idea of ice skates cutting the three thousand year
old polished floor of the ballroom to pieces. Kristoph was right, though.
That was one indulgence she would have to forego.
There was much more to do than skating, of course. The orphans were called
to order after a while and changed their skates for shoes before going
to their dayroom. Rodan was reluctant to put her own shoes back on, but
she knew there was another reason for their visit.
Christmas was not celebrated on Ventura, of course, not in the way people
on Earth and the Human colony planets celebrated it. But there was a mid-winter
festival at which gifts were given and the people prepared feasts to give
thanks for the shorter nights and warmer days that were ahead. And that
was why they were here - to bring mid-winter gifts to the orphans.
What Marion called it was her own business. The important thing was that
they were able to be generous to those less fortunate than themselves.
Rodan was playing her own special part in the gift giving. She had been
coached by Kristoph to do it well. She wore a special Mid-Winter festival
bonnet made of stiff white tulle with glittering gold threads shot through
it. She represented the Mid-Winter Elf and she stood beside Kristoph as
he read the names of the children who were receiving presents.
Rodan played her role perfectly, smiling at each slightly nervous child
who stepped up to be given a gift and saying the special Mid-Winter blessing
to each one in a small but clear voice.
When the orphans had all received their gifts they moved on to the mother
and baby home. This was where young women with babies but no homes or
jobs, and in most cases no husbands, lived until they were able to fend
for themselves. They, too, were given gifts, one for the mother, and one
for the baby, along with a blessing from a little girl in a white sparkling
bonnet.
After that were the sick children’s wards. Rodan looked at them
curiously. Although she had been aware of the illness that struck down
so many people on Gallifrey in the past year she and her grandfather in
their cottage had not been affected personally. She had never seen anyone
sick before. Children with broken limbs, burns, children with terminal
diseases like leukaemia were new to her.
But she smiled at them all as she went from bed to bed, accompanied by
her foster parents and gave a brightly wrapped Mid-Winter festival present
to each child. In return she received smiles of gratitude, even from children
almost too sick to hold the gifts they were given.
“It’s only dolls and things,” she said to Marion afterwards
when they sat and watched a choir singing Mid-Winter festival songs to
the children in the sick ward. “Why are they so happy about it?”
“Because it was a present given to them with love and blessings,”
Marion answered. “That’s what Christmas and Mid-Winter are
all about.”
“But they only got one present. I’m getting lots of presents
for Christmas.”
“That’s because….” Marion was slightly at a loss
for words. “We’re rich, Kristoph and I. We have lots of money
to spend on presents just for you, because you’re our foster child
and we want to buy things for you. But the love and blessings are the
same. Everyone has the same amount of those, no matter how many presents
they have.”
Rodan didn’t say anything to that. The answer seemed to satisfy
her. She reached her arms around Marion’s neck and hugged her. Marion
smiled widely as if she had received the greatest gift in the world.
The singers continued for a good hour, and then there was a party back
in the foyer with the winter wonderland and ice rink. Rodan joined in
enthusiastically, enjoying the party food and the chance to skate again.
Marion watched her carefully at first, in case she fell. But she didn’t.
She skated happily and joined in a game where everyone held hands and
sang as they skated in a ring.
Marion quietly left the noisy scene and returned to the sick children’s
wards. There was a party going on there, too, but a little quieter. These
children couldn’t get out of bed, let alone skate, but they were
having fun watching a man in a costume a little like a pierrot who made
balloon animals and hung them around all of the beds.
There was just one corner of the ward where the Mid-Winter joy was not
being celebrated. Marion quietly moved towards the curtained off bed.
Earlier, the curtains had been open but the little boy had been asleep.
His Mid-Winter present was left on the bedside for him.
Inside the curtains a nurse sat quietly, alternatively watching the monitors
that quietly beeped, and the boy’s face. She was holding his hand
in hers.
“He’s dying?” Marion asked. “Tonight?”
“Yes,” the nurse answered. “We hoped he might get through
the festival… one more chance to smile. But he’s been steadily
worsening by the hour. The worst thing is his parents are offworld. We
tried to contact them, but they’re four days sub-space travel away
from Ventura.”
“They work offworld?” Marion asked. “But surely in the
circumstances they might have compassionate leave?”
The nurse shook her head.
“Remember, the Royal Hospital is for everyone, poor and wealthy.
This child’s parents are the latter. They don’t work. They
play. They’re visiting a planet called Oronia, a luxury holiday
world, with their younger child.”
Marion was startled by that, but utterly stunned by what she heard next.
“This little boy, Hari, was born sick. He had an inoperable brain
tumour that meant he could never do the things other children could. He
couldn’t learn to feed himself, or walk. He couldn’t read
even before his sight failed him.”
“Poor thing,” Marion said. “But if his parents are wealthy,
surely they could get him all the help he needed.”
“They didn’t want to. They didn’t want an imperfect
child. They left him in our care and went away. They had another baby
a year later, another boy, with no medical problems. He is the one they
care about. Hari… They just want him to die and not be a burden
to them. And tonight they will get their wish.”
Marion was utterly lost for words. She thought of her baby, Christian.
He, too, was imperfect. If he had lived, he would have had many of the
same problems Hari had. He could not have been Kristoph’s heir that
he longed for, and perhaps he would have died later. But they would not
have abandoned him to others. They would have gladly accepted the burden
of caring for him.
What parent wouldn’t? What kind of people were Hari’s mother
and father?
“I pity them,” the nurse said, almost as if she had read her
thoughts. “He is a lovely child. His smile… he will probably
never manage it again… but when he could… his smile would
light up the room. And they never saw it, even once.”
“Pity isn’t the word I was thinking of,” Marion said.
“But perhaps you’re right.”
Hari stirred a little in his sleep. The monitors beeped a little louder,
but they just indicated that there was some brain activity.
“He’s dreaming,” the nurse said. “A happy dream,
I hope.”
There was music in the ward. The choir were singing again. It was a beautiful
little song about snow falling with some high notes from the solo soprano
that sounded like bells ringing. Marion looked at the sleeping child’s
face and knew he could hear the music in his dreams.
She saw him smile.
He was still smiling when the monitors sounded a very different note,
telling them that his heart had stopped and he was no longer breathing.
The song came to an end just as the nurse reached to switch off the monitor.
There was a moment of utter silence, as if everyone in the room knew that
they should be silent. Then the choir began another song. Again it was
a pleasant tune about winter snow. Again the soprano sounded her bell
joyfully.
“They have their wish,” the nurse said as she folded the bed
sheet over the little body of the child nobody wanted. Marion glanced
at the brightly wrapped present that had never been unwrapped and tried
not to cry.
“It was a good dream,” she managed to say. “He was happy.”
Marion brought the unopened present with her when she left the curtained
off cubicle. As she did, she noticed the nurses bringing in a new patient,
a little girl whose mother was at her side as she was made comfortable
in a bed by the door. She waited until the nurses were finished with her
then she approached quietly.
“Happy Mid-Winter,” she said and placed the present next to
the little girl who smiled happily and began to tear the paper off a golden-furred
teddy bear.
Marion left the sick ward and made her way back to the foyer where Rodan
was still skating and playing with the orphans. She watched her for a
little while, and thought of eighteen months in which she would be her
own little girl again, to love and to treasure. She felt very lucky.
Finally it was time to leave. Rodan left her skates and put on her shoes.
She held Marion’s hand and waved goodbye to her friends.
In the carriage, she sat between her foster parents, looking at the snow
falling outside the window.
“Marion, am I an orphan?” she asked suddenly.
Marion wondered how to answer that question. Both of her parents were
dead. But she wasn’t alone like the children in the orphanage. She
was better off by far than Hari, who had two living parents who didn’t
want him.
“No, you’re not,” Kristoph said. “You have your
grandfather who loves you very much, and you have us. And… while
you’re living with us, I want you to call us mama and papa. I think
it is right that you should. We will always be that, no matter where your
life takes you, child.”
Marion looked at Kristoph and tried not to burst into tears. That was
the best gift he could have given her for Christmas.
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