Friday afternoon. Kristoph sighed wearily as he stepped
into the stationery cupboard and dematerialised his TARDIS. Working this
double life WAS starting to get to him, he thought.
Double life? If only. Spending the same day at home with Marion and at
the college teaching was the easy part. He looked at the viewscreen. He
sighed again and keyed in the code that connected him with his superior
at the Celestial Intervention Agency. It took less time than he would
have liked to connect.
“I wasn’t expecting a report from you, yet?” his superior
said with a surprised look.
“I’m not making a report. I’m tendering my resignation.”
There was a pause. His superior looked at him.
“Is this a joke?”
“Do you seriously think I would joke about a thing like that? I
left the CIA years ago. I only came back because of the nature of THIS
operation. Because I couldn’t let anyone else do it. But now…
I’m not doing it. It’s over. Case closed.”
“The case is NOT closed. You cannot just walk away.”
“Watch me. I am not your assassin any more.”
“Do you intend to go Renegade, too? Do we have to send a man to
kill YOU?”
“I wouldn’t recommend it. I’m still the best man the
CIA ever had. And you know it.”
For a moment there was a silence that seemed to span the light years between
them.
“Relax. I’m not going Renegade. But I AM taking some time
offworld before I return to Gallifrey.”
“I’m not accepting your resignation. Nor will we put another
man on the case. Take some sick leave. When you’re ready to continue
your work….”
“I’m not sick. There isn’t even a concept of sick leave
in the Celestial Intervention Agency. I am just tired of being the sharp
end of this dirty business. I will be ending this transmission now. Don’t
TRY to contact me again.” He turned off the viewscreen. For a long
time he just stood there, shaking with emotion.
Yes, it WAS Friday afternoon. Marion found that out by switching on the
TV and looking at the Ceefax page. She was SO disorientated. She was a
little shocked to realise a whole week had gone by. The whole second week
of the summer school.
She was a little surprised to find she didn’t MIND that. The first
week had not been as much fun as she had hoped. It just felt like university
with different scenery outside the window. She had still been as lonely
and lost.
She had been happier this strange, confused week, in The Professor’s
bed.
She laughed and mentally rephrased that, wondering idly where he had slept
while she was in his bed. The guest room, she supposed.
He wasn’t in the house at the moment. She hadn’t exactly SEARCHED
it, but it had a quiet, empty feel to it. She had taken a long, lingering
bath and dressed herself in one of those warm robes The Professor had
in his wardrobe. The ones for that religious devotion he had told her
about. She felt cosy in it, and at the same time, strangely connected
to The Professor.
She WANTED to feel connected to him. Her dreams last night were full of
him. Her thoughts all day were of him, his companionship, his friendship.
And yes, a sort of love.
But she couldn’t yet imagine SLEEPING with him.
She laughed at her own euphemisms. She COULD imagine sleeping with him.
That would be nice, cosy, listening to his breathing, his heartbeat, feeling
warm and safe. What she couldn’t DARE to imagine was what happened
in a bed when two people WEREN’T sleeping. And she couldn’t
DARE to imagine it happening between her and The Professor.
Kristoph, she reminded herself. She kept calling him Professor. He kept
trying to make her call him by his first name. He WANTED them to be equals,
to be friends. And she LIKED the idea. But when she looked at him she
saw The Professor.
“Kristoph,” she whispered as she moved around the drawing
room. She put on a CD of Vaughan Williams, his favourite composer, and
ran her hand over the books of poetry and literature on the shelf of the
cupboard. Then she reached and opened the closed section. The books in
there were so beautiful, leather bound, with gilded titles.
She stared at the spines. They all had that same seal on them, the swirling
design. The Seal of… The name of the man who founded his society
eluded her, but she would recognise the seal anywhere now!
The titles….
They were in a foreign language. Not even a language. It wasn’t
letters. It was more like spirograph. But as she looked she realised she
could READ the words.
“A Bestiary of Gallifrey?” She read. Was THAT where he came
from? Where was it? Greece? Turkey? Something like that?
“Poetry of Southern Gallifrey,” she read on the spine of the
next one. That was more like it. She took the book from the shelf and
brought it to the sofa. She opened it reverently. This was a book that
would reveal some of Kristoph’s secrets, that would let her into
his world.
Again, the swirling text resolved into English. It had to be some kind
of optical illusion. But she settled down and read without worrying.
They were beautiful poems. They covered all kinds of subjects. Love, war,
life death. She read a long, long, beautiful one about a man who was so
much in love with a woman that he was prepared to give up his own life-force
for her when she was dying. She begged him not to do it, but he told her
his own life was worthless without her and he performed a ritual that
gave his life to her.
She turned the page and there was a picture that made her gasp. A woodcut
picture, very finely done. It showed a man in that black robe with the
seal on the front, kneeling in the centre of a giant version of the same
seal. There was an aura around him and what must have been his lifeforce
streaming from him.
The poem continued on the other page, telling how he died and she lived
and mourned at his funeral. How she lived a long, long life, spurning
all other men who would have offered her love, never forgetting the sacrifice
of her first love.
A beautiful poem. But what did it mean? How could somebody DO that? Was
it possible?
She thought of the room upstairs where there was a Seal just like that
one. She thought about what The Professor had said about the rituals of
his ‘religion’.
She thought about the kind of love it took to do a thing like that. She
couldn’t imagine it. There hadn’t been enough of that sort
of love in her life.
Of course, it was a poem. It was a myth, a legend.
But to be THAT loved. She wished it WAS possible. She wished somebody
loved HER that much.
She wished somebody loved her HALF that much.
“Marion.”
She nearly died of fright as he spoke her name. She didn’t even
hear him come into the room. She dropped the book with a clatter. He bent
and picked it up.
“I’m sorry,” she said. “I know those books are
private. But I just….”
“It’s all right,” he assured her. “This is one
of my favourite books. Did you read it all the way through?”
“No,” she said. “I got as far as the one about the man
who dies for his love.”
“It’s a very old legend of my culture.”
“Do you think it could be true? They were so much in love. I wish.…”
“You’d like a man to die for you?” Kristoph smiled.
“No, not DIE. But… if somebody cared enough for me to make
any kind of sacrifice….”
“Somebody does, Marion,” Kristoph thought. “Somebody
does.”
“It was all right to read the poems,” he assured her. “Maybe
we can read them together another time. But for now… I’ve
hired a car. I thought… if you want to pop back to your room and
pack a few things, we could be in Whitby by supper time - a quiet weekend
in our favourite literary landscape.”
“Oh.” The idea startled her. “Oh, Kristoph… You
want to spend the weekend with me?”
“Separate hotel rooms,” he added. “This is not a…
a ‘dirty weekend’.”
She laughed at the idea. As she packed a bag in her room that she had
not used for five days, she wondered if she would be upset if he HAD proposed
such a thing.
“Marion?” As she slipped out of her room again she heard a
voice call her.
“Sally?”
“Are you going somewhere?”
“Whitby, for the weekend,” she answered.
“On your own? Nobody has seen you all week. You’ve missed
all your classes. And now you’re going off just like that. What’s
going on?”
“I was sick all week. And now I’m having a weekend away with
a friend. And it is nobody’s business.” She slung her bag
on her shoulder and walked away quickly.
But with a wonderful weekend in the company of Kristoph ahead of her she
didn’t worry as much as she thought she would about whether Sally
was still watching when she climbed into the passenger seat of the car.
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