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      Chrístõ looked out over the lovely view of 
        the Bere Peninsula in West Cork, and sighed with pleasure. Not so much 
        for the view. He had seen beautiful views all across the universe. Rather 
        because he was watching it with his father. These past few days were the 
        longest they had spent together for a long time. Too long. He knew it 
        couldn’t last. They both had things to do. But being with him here 
        softened the loneliness now he had left his friends behind in Liverpool 
        as well as giving them this time to renew the bonds between them. Chrístõ 
        felt it was almost as it was when he was a boy, when he had the long summer 
        vacation from the Academy and his father took leave from his own work 
        to spend time like this.  
      
        “So when were you in Ireland before?” Chrístõ 
        asked his father as they walked down the hill towards the village nestled 
        by the bay.  
      
        “Long before you were born,” he admitted. “I spent a 
        lot of time on Earth in the 20th century. I was a sort of ‘undercover’ 
        ambassador. The High Council wanted somebody here to report on the progress 
        of the planet. It is one of the most heavily populated planets in its 
        galaxy, and once Mankind discovered space travel there was no stopping 
        them. The Time Lords wanted to keep an eye on them from the start. So 
        they sent me, disguised as a professor of English literature.” 
      
        “Funny sort of disguise,” Chrístõ laughed, thinking 
        that his father looked nothing like a professor of English literature. 
        And then wondering exactly what he thought one SHOULD look like.  
      
        “I took to it rather well,” his father told him. “I 
        developed a sort of tweedy, bookish air and became part of the scenery 
        around the university. I got a reputation among the students as a good 
        sort who gave interesting lectures.”  
      
        “Which university?” Chrístõ asked. “Oxford?” 
      
        “Liverpool.” 
      
        “Liverpool?” 
      
        “It's in the North-West of England,” The Ambassador explained. 
        “You’ve been there a couple of times yourself.”  
      
        “Yes, I know where Liverpool is,” Chrístõ told 
        him, aware that he was being mildly teased, since they had both just LEFT 
        Liverpool a few days ago. “I didn’t know YOU were familiar 
        with it. It just seems sort of… I don’t know. I mean, you’re 
        a Prydonian. One of the elite. I would have thought you’d have gone 
        to one of the elite universities of Earth. Liverpool is so… ORDINARY.” 
         
      
        “Best kind of disguise. Being ordinary. Besides, I met your mother 
        in those years when I was Professor Kristoph De Leon of Liverpool.” 
         
      
        “On Leeds railway station,” Chrístõ remembered. 
         
      
        “On the way to a literature summer school. Me, the tweedy professor, 
        she a shy young student.”  
      
        “Was it love at first sight?”  
      
        “Not for her. She was a young girl sitting in a railway waiting 
        room late at night with a strange man. But I looked at her and my eyes 
        saw a girl with her hair done the wrong way to suit her face and her make 
        up applied badly and her clothes not quite right for her figure. And my 
        mind saw her radiant in a dress of white, embroidered with diamonds, taking 
        my hand as we were joined in Alliance of Unity.”  
      
        “A premonition?” 
      
        “Oh yes,” he said. “The strongest one I have ever had. 
        And I loved her in that moment and I almost forgot my mission for the 
        Time Lords in my effort to make her fall in love with me.”  
      
        His mission….  
      
        He lied to Chrístõ when he said he was just there as an 
        ambassador. He had actually been sent there to flush out a rogue Time 
        Lord. A clever one who had evaded justice for a long time. That was why 
        they were prepared to take one of their best agents out of retirement 
        and send him on a mission that had taken ten years already - even before 
        that fateful night when the single-minded Executioner had his hearts melted 
        by a girl whose charms nobody else had ever seen before.  
      
        He pushed those thoughts back into the depths of his memory. He was good 
        at blocking his thoughts, and he knew Chrístõ would never 
        deliberately probe his mind anyway. But when a strong telepath thought 
        highly emotional thoughts in the presence of another telepath sometimes 
        things leaked out.  
      
        It was the only secret he kept from his son. And for good reason. He didn’t 
        want him to follow his path. He knew his son was a free spirit. He knew 
        that, like him, he thrived on the adrenaline rush of adventure, the thrill 
        of the chase, the hint of danger. But his ambitions for the future, when 
        these years of travel and adventure were over, were to follow him into 
        the diplomatic corps.  
      
        If Chrístõ ever even hinted that he wanted to follow his 
        other footsteps into the Celestial Intervention Agency, into the dark 
        life of the professional assassin… 
      
        …He would send him to the monks of Mount Lœng and a life of 
        contemplation and meditation. Even if he had to drug him and bind him 
        to get him there. Anything but that dark, soul-destroying life he had 
        given up for love of his Lady Marion.  
      
        Tried to give up. Sometimes – as he found only last week – 
        The Executioner was still needed.  
      
        “She DID fall in love with you in the end…” Chrístõ’s 
        voice broke into his thoughts again, dragging him back to the present. 
         
      
        “Oh yes,” his father said. “She fell in love with her 
        tweedy old professor. And then she had to fall in love all over again 
        to the Ambassador of Gallifrey. I thought I’d lost her then. When 
        I had to reveal who I really was to her. It was a tremendous shock. She 
        was so hurt that I had lied to her.”  
      
        “But not to hurt her,” Chrístõ said. “You 
        lied because you had to. Not to cause her hurt.” 
      
        “No,” he said. “Of course not. And she came to realise 
        that. And she made the hardest choice imaginable. She chose to leave Earth, 
        never to return. Leave everything she knew, everyone she knew, to travel 
        250 million light years from her home to mine. She made that choice for 
        me.”  
      
        His father’s voice seemed to have a catch in it, Chrístõ 
        thought. He knew he ought to change the subject, but he wanted to know 
        more about his mother. His memories of her were so few, and none of them 
        seemed connected. He remembered her voice, her perfume, her arms around 
        him, her kiss on his cheek. But he really knew so little about her except 
        that she was his mother, and she loved him. 
      
        “My Earth Child,” he said. “I loved her so much. I knew 
        I was heading for heartbreak. I was a Time Lord with thousands of years 
        of life to live, she was a fragile Human. More fragile even than I thought. 
        I knew I would have to face the fact that she would grow old before me. 
        I never thought that she wouldn’t live to grow old. We were just 
        twenty-six years together from that day when I met her until the day she 
        died. And I always felt it was my fault.” 
      
        “Why?” Chrístõ asked. Though he knew. “It 
        was giving birth to me,” he said, his eyes filling with the tears 
        his father couldn’t cry. “That’s what made her ill.” 
         
      
        “Chrístõ,” his father sighed. “That makes 
        it seem as if it was YOUR fault. Please don’t ever waste a moment 
        in that kind of grief. It WAS mine. I married an Earth Child, a fragile 
        Human, and then needed her to give me an heir. I needed a son to carry 
        on the line. Our proud House of Lœngbærrow. She knew that. And she 
        put herself through hell to give me what I wanted.” 
      
        “Li Tuo told me…” Chrístõ said. “That 
        she… that you lost babies before I was born.” 
      
        “Six of them. Three sons, three daughters. The first time she conceived 
        she miscarried before either of us really had chance to get used to the 
        idea. The next time, we planned it together and we were so happy. But 
        the girl child was born too soon and never breathed. Her hearts stopped 
        as your mother and I held her. I buried her in the family memorial plot 
        and we grieved for our loss together. We waited a while after that. I 
        was afraid to put her through the grief again. When we did… our 
        son was hardly formed when the pregnancy went wrong and it was all over. 
        But she desperately wanted to give me an heir and she begged me to try 
        again. And again. She gave birth to two more boys that died in our arms. 
        Then the last time, the sixth, it was another little girl. We both had 
        time to hold her, to love her. And then she faded away. Marion was so 
        distraught. I had made up my mind I wouldn’t put her through it 
        again.” 
      
        “But you did…” 
      
        "Not intentionally." The Ambassador saw his son's face and patted 
        him on the back reassuringly. "Yes, I know, it's hard for anyone 
        to be told they were a biological accident. Your conception was not intended. 
        It was a lapse of concentration on my part. And I was horrified. I had 
        put her through that hurt once more. Just when we had both accepted that 
        it wasn't to be. I didn't let myself hope. I didn't let myself love you. 
        I expected another disappointment, another grief, another misshapen body 
        to place in a tiny casket and put upon a funeral pyre. And then you were 
        born. You were strong. You weren't a weak hybrid. You were a perfect, 
        beautiful, Gallifreyan boy with two strong hearts and my blood in your 
        veins. The son I needed. The son I loved from the moment I set eyes on 
        you. The cost was the shortening of her life. She nearly died giving you 
        life. And I knew she would never grow old. But we had six more wonderful 
        years with you, our son, the heir I had so wanted. And we were happy. 
        That much you must never doubt, Chrístõ." 
      
        “I don’t. I remember enough to know that you loved my mother. 
        But… tell me more about when she was young. What was she like?” 
         
      
        The Ambassador smiled. More than two hundred years had passed since that 
        day when he met his future wife for the first time. But he remembered 
        it with joy and he was glad to talk about it with his son as they rambled 
        over the Irish hills towards their evening rest at the village inn.  
      
      The inn gave of its best. A simple meal and locally made whiskey. For 
        The Ambassador at least. Chrístõ requested a glass of milk. 
      
        “He’s young,” The Ambassador said in apology to the 
        landlord for the affront to his trade. “He has yet to learn to appreciate 
        the pleasures of a well made whiskey.”  
      
        “It’d put some colour in his face,” the landlord said 
        as he brought the glass of milk and gave it to Chrístõ with 
        a friendly wink. “You’re the palest lad I ever saw. You look 
        like you’re hardly ever out in the fresh air.” 
      
        “I am OFTEN in the fresh air,” Chrístõ replied 
        indignantly. “I am just naturally pale of complexion.”  
      
        The landlord nodded and turned away to serve other customers. Chrístõ 
        drank his milk. The Ambassador drank his whiskey. He preferred the single 
        malts of the highlands of Scotland, but he would not say that in Ireland! 
         
      
        “You need to acquire the taste,” he told his son with a smile. 
         
      
        “It makes me sick,” he answered. “Besides, I don’t 
        actually think being able to swallow alcohol is a requirement for manhood.” 
         
      
        “In Ireland, in 1946, holding your drink was what separated the 
        men from the boys.”  
      
        “Well, I AM only 191,” Chrístõ replied. “Anyway, 
        what’s the point? You are a Time Lord. You can’t feel the 
        effects of the alcohol.”  
      
        “It makes me less noticeable as a stranger among them. I blend in 
        with the crowd. Everyone in this pub now notices you as the boy who doesn’t 
        drink. They’re talking about you. Laughing about you.”  
      
        “Let them laugh,” Chrístõ retorted. “I 
        won’t have a hangover in the morning.”  
      
        “You might have a bad stomach from drinking unpasteurised milk,” 
        his father teased him. But not for long. A man came into the pub and ordered 
        a drink for himself before coming to sit at their table.  
      
        “Good evening, MacKenzie. How is life treating you this day?” 
        The Ambassador greeted the man in a friendly way.  
      
        “Not so bad,” he answered in his American drawl. “I 
        had a good long walk this afternoon. It's a beautiful place.”  
      
        “That it is,” The Ambassador agreed.  
      
        “I’m going out on a boat tomorrow, fishing off Bere Island. 
        Do you and your son want to join me? It’ll be an interesting trip. 
        Might put a bit of colour in the lad’s face.”  
      
        “Why is everyone worried about my face?” Chrístõ 
        asked.  
      
        Somebody struck up a fiddle tune that drowned out conversations. A dance 
        got up, spontaneously. Chrístõ joined in. The Ambassador 
        watched in satisfaction as his son held a young woman by the waist and 
        swung her around to the reel. The half a dozen girls that were there all 
        had eyes for him. There was certainly nothing wrong with his face from 
        THEIR view of him.  
      
        “Regular heartbreaker,” MacKenzie said looking at him.  
      
        “He’s a good boy,” The Ambassador said with a smile. 
         
      
        “You’re proud of him.”  
      
        “More than I can begin to tell you. He’s done the work of 
        a man already, and most would look at him and see no more than a boy. 
        He still has much to learn, though.”  
      
        “Don’t we all.”  
      
        “That is the truth.”  
      
        There was a silence for a while. The Ambassador drank his whiskey. MacKenzie 
        drank his as they watched the young and carefree dance. It might be an 
        illusion of being carefree, The Ambassador thought to himself. This was 
        1946. Those young people had grown up in one of the most difficult and 
        dark periods of Human history. Even in Ireland, a neutral country in the 
        European war, few people had not been changed by those events. But in 
        music and dancing the young people found themselves able to forget the 
        difficulties and be happy.  
      
        And among them, Chrístõ, who more than any of them had burdens 
        a young man shouldn’t have, was enjoying himself just like an ordinary 
        youth with ordinary cares. That was one reason why, when he decided to 
        spend some time with his son he chose to do it on Earth, among the people 
        his mother came from.  
      
      Chrístõ looked the very picture of somebody who hadn’t 
        had enough sleep when he turned out down at the pier in the grey dawn. 
      
        “I warned you about the milk,” his father said. 
      
        “Yes, you did,” he replied with a half smile. And he was probably 
        right. But it was a new morning and he was looking forward to a sea trip. 
        He didn’t let it bother him as he made himself comfortable on a 
        seat near the prow of the fishing boat.  
      
        He was surprised by the boat. Somewhere in his history of Earth he had 
        read about the traditional style of boats used in Ireland, called currachs, 
        which looked to him like rather long canoes. But this was a real boat 
        as he would usually imagine it to be, manned by a capable crew of sea-hardened 
        men who knew how to handle the mysterious ropes and pulleys and sheets 
        of sailing canvas as well as catch fish. The fact that it was all a mystery 
        to him, even the fishing, reminded him that even after nearly two centuries 
        of education he still had SOMETHING to learn.  
      
        His father came and sat next to him and put his arm about his shoulders. 
        He smiled and let his head rest on him. The nicest thing about this trip 
        was being close to his father both physically and mentally.  
      
        “Father,” he said telepathically. “Do you notice the 
        way MacKenzie is watching us. He seems…” 
      
        “He’s sad,” his father told him.  
      
        “You read his mind?” Chrístõ was surprised. 
        Reading someone’s mind without them knowing it was the height of 
        ill manners.  
      
        “His emotions are so strong he is like an open book to a telepath. 
        His wife died in childbirth. The child, too. He is looking at us and thinking 
        of his life that could have been, that should have been. As lonely as 
        I have been since I lost your mother, I have been blessed by your love. 
        MacKenzie has been lost for a long time. He came here from America to 
        try to make a new start in his life. But all he has found so far is beautiful 
        scenery. He has filled his days with sightseeing and his nights with whiskey 
        and conversation in the pub. But neither have filled the lost corner of 
        his soul that being a husband and father would fill.”  
      
        “Poor man,” Chrístõ said. “I wish we could 
        help him.” 
      
        “That’s beyond even our powers. We can’t bring back 
        the dead.”  
      
        “Why can’t we?” Chrístõ asked. “Why 
        do we have so much power, yet that is beyond us? You and I… would 
        be so much happier if mama hadn’t died. And that poor man…” 
         
      
        “We can’t,” his father insisted. “I’ve had 
        those thoughts many times, Chrístõ. Every day since your 
        mother died, I have thought it. But where would it end? My own father 
        and mother have gone to their rest. Should I wish them alive again?” 
      
        “Only the people who die before their time, who die needlessly.” 
         
      
        “But who decides when that time is? You? Me? The God that most Humans 
        believe in? Mr MacKenzie there has railed against his God, cursed Him 
        for taking the only thing he valued in his life. And he is not alone. 
        Look at the terrible decade that these Humans have lived through. Millions 
        killed before their time. Soldiers, sailors, airmen, civilians in the 
        blitz, on both sides, prisoners of war, those millions of Jews and others 
        exterminated by a madman. Where would we begin? Poor Mr MacKenzie is one 
        of many just on this one planet who has suffered a dreadful loss. But 
        nobody can turn back time and change that, not even a Time Lord. If we 
        did, it would be the doom of all. You cannot do that.” 
      
        “But… I did. When I rescued Bo, and Sammie.”  
      
        “You didn’t find them dead and turn the clock back to change 
        events. You came into Bo’s life at just the right time to prevent 
        her being murdered by that dreadful man. You arrived in the desert just 
        at the crucial moment that Sammie needed. Neither WERE fated to die. YOU 
        were the means by which they escaped the death that seemed inevitable 
        and lived.”  
      
        “But what about mama? Could she not have lived…” 
      
        “No,” The Ambassador sighed. “Chrístõ, 
        I consulted the best medical people in the universe. Nobody could have 
        made your mother live a day longer than she did. Her heart just couldn’t 
        carry on any longer.” He looked at Mr. MacKenzie, who had by now 
        looked away from them. The Ambassador knew that the man was still longing 
        to be the one sitting in the prow of the boat with his arm around his 
        son’s shoulders, but he could not bear to look any longer.  
      
        “The medical knowledge even twenty or thirty years ahead of this 
        period of Earth history might well have saved his wife and child. But 
        in his time, it was one of those things.”  
      
        “It just isn’t fair,” Chrístõ sighed. 
         
      
        “Life isn’t fair. I taught you that years ago.”  
      
        “I know, but...” He paused. He shivered suddenly and pulled 
        his leather jacket closer around him. His father fastened his own coat. 
        They looked up at the sky that had been grey but promising to become fine 
        as the sun got up. Its promise had been false. The clouds had darkened, 
        the sea had turned a dark, iron grey and a swell caught the boat as the 
        wind blew the sails. Chrístõ’s stomach lurched and 
        he wondered if there really WAS something wrong with the milk last night. 
         
      
        “It's getting a bit choppy,” MacKenzie said. “Wasn’t 
        expecting this.” 
      
        “Don’t worry,” The Ambassador said. “There’s 
        a saying in Ireland, ‘if you don’t like the weather, wait 
        around a half hour and it’ll be different.’”  
      
        “That’s the truth, sir,” one of the crew of the fishing 
        trawler said, laughing manfully as he brought in the sail. “You’ll 
        be just fine. And we’ll get some good fishing before the morning 
        is done.” 
      
        “Glad to hear it,” MacKenzie said.  
      
        But the weather didn’t seem to be improving. The dark clouds burst 
        upon them with driving rain that soaked them all through in minutes and 
        then continued to soak and chill to the bone. The swell on the sea became 
        more and more intense and Chrístõ really did fight back 
        nausea as they were tossed up and down. The wind didn’t help either. 
        It just threatened to rip the sails apart. The sound of canvas stretched 
        to its limit of endurance added to the sense of imminent doom.  
      
        More than anything, he felt a sense of powerlessness. Their lives were 
        in danger and there was nothing he could do about it. He knew almost nothing 
        about sailing. He had spent his leisure time on the desert, rather than 
        the sea, racing a hover bike over the dunes and the long, long stretches 
        of sand and rock that made up the less hospitable part of the northern 
        continent of Gallifrey. When he had ventured onto the ocean it had mostly 
        been as a passenger, as now. 
      
        Even so, the need to be doing something that might make a difference to 
        their plight made him ask the crew if he could help.  
      
        “Kind of you, young sir,” they told him. “But we’ve 
        got everything under control.”  
      
        Chrístõ sat down again beside his father and MacKenzie who 
        was looking decidedly worried.  
      
        “Are we going to be all right?” he asked his father telepathically. 
      
        “I don’t know,” The Ambassador answered him. “My 
        precognition is giving me very conflicting messages. But the crew are 
        more worried than they’re letting on. We’ve been driven out 
        past Bere Island into the open sea and they can’t get us turned 
        around while the wind is driving us like this.” 
      
        “We’re in trouble.” 
      
        “Yes, we are.”  
      
        The Ambassador understood his son’s frustration. He, too, was a 
        man who liked to be in control of his own life, his own destiny. To be 
        tossed around by the elements while other men fought for their lives went 
        against the grain. Earth people had a word for it. Control freak. They 
        both needed to feel in control of themselves and their immediate world 
        in order to feel safe. And right now they didn’t.  
      
        “I don’t want to die,” MacKenzie murmured. And yet, 
        Chrístõ and his father both picked up the tail end of his 
        thoughts. If he must die, at least he would be with his Mary in Heaven. 
      
        “I almost wish we believed in something like that,” Chrístõ 
        said to his father.  
      
        “We believe in science and logic,” The Ambassador replied. 
        “Admittedly not a lot of use right now.”  
      
        Chrístõ caught his father’s thoughts as he stopped 
        talking directly to him telepathically. His father was worried for him. 
        He wasn’t old enough to regenerate if his body sustained any serious 
        damage. 
      
        “You’re on your last life, father,” Chrístõ 
        told him. “The risk is the same for you.” 
      
        “For us all. We’re as mortal as these Humans right now.” 
         
      
        “Oh God!” Somebody screamed suddenly and Chrístõ 
        and his father both looked around, wondering what was so terrifying as 
        to cause an experienced fisherman to scream like that.  
      
        They saw what it was. A mine – one of thousands the Atlantic had 
        been seeded with by both sides in the war that had ended only a year before. 
        It was the most sinister thing Chrístõ had ever seen. Gunmetal 
        grey rusting over after being in the sea so long, with those long spikes 
        that detonated the explosives it was packed with if it hit anything.  
      
        And it was being driven towards them by that rising swell of water.  
      
        MacKenzie’s God seemed to have a strange way of answering his prayers, 
        Chrístõ thought.  
      
        He reached for his sonic screwdriver. His father did the same. With so 
        many Humans watching they would normally not resort to their extra-terrestrial 
        technology, but this was an emergency.  
      
        “What is that?” they heard one of the crew ask as they both 
        aimed powerful beams of blue light at the mine. They were emitting a reverse-polarity 
        magnetic field – an anti-magnet that should push the mine away. 
        And for a while it seemed to be succeeding. The mine was held back from 
        the boat.  
      
        But then the boat was caught by a higher wave than they had yet encountered 
        and they both fell forwards. Chrístõ jammed his screwdriver 
        back in his pocket as he hit the water. As he sank beneath the cold, dark, 
        heaving waves he was aware of his father’s voice in his head and 
        he felt a hand grasping at his, pushing him down, not up. He closed off 
        his breathing, as he knew his father had done and tried not to panic. 
         
      
        In his mind’s eye he saw the mine explode in a fireball that reduced 
        the boat to splinters and the crew to charred remains that would barely 
        be identified as human when they eventually washed up on the shore of 
        the island in a day or so. He felt their souls scream in their last moments 
        and his hearts cried out for them, but there was nothing he could do except 
        stop himself from drowning and adding to the death toll.  
      
        He felt himself breaking the surface of the water again, and knew his 
        father was near by. He knew the storm was still raging around him.  
      
        But the boat was gone.  
      
        “Father,” he cried out mentally, but as he turned in the water 
        he failed to see the piece of debris driven by the waves as it smashed 
        into his head. As he slipped into unconsciousness he thought he felt his 
        father’s hand grasp him, thought he heard his voice. But he wasn’t 
        sure.  
      
      Chrístõ opened his eyes and was aware immediately that 
        he was not in the freezing, stormy water any more. He was lying on soft, 
        dry sand and above him was the grey rock roof of a substantial cave. He 
        could hear the hiss of the tide being driven onto sand somewhere near 
        but he was in a dry place. He HAD been wet for a long time. His clothes 
        were stuck to him as if they had dried on him. His leather jacket was 
        encrusted with salt and felt horrible against his skin.  
      
        “Chrístõ, are you awake?” He turned towards 
        the sound of his father’s voice. He was sitting close to him. His 
        clothes, too, looked as if they had dried on him. 
      
        “I’m fine. I should be, of course. Takes a lot to kill us.” 
         
      
        “Killed all the others though, except for him.” His father 
        pointed to where MacKenzie lay, looking even rougher than they did. He 
        had a gash on his forehead that the salt water must be playing hell with 
        and bruising all down the left side of his body. “He’s been 
        drifting in and out of consciousness for half an hour and talking about 
        his dead wife.” 
      
        “Where are we? And how did we get here?” Chrístõ 
        asked.  
      
        “We’re in a cave on Bere Island,” The Ambassador said. 
        “I checked the co-ordinate with my sonic screwdriver. Amazing it 
        still works after the battering we had. But how we got here, I don’t 
        know. Except I have a feeling somebody brought us.”  
      
        “Who?” Chrístõ asked as he took out his own 
        sonic screwdriver and adjusted it. He used it to repair the cut on MacKenzie’s 
        head and ease away the bruising. The Ambassador watched his son tenderly 
        looking after the man and wondered why he, himself, had not thought of 
        that. His own sonic screwdriver had a tissue repair mode. He could have 
        done it. But having ascertained that MacKenzie WAS alive he had been more 
        concerned about his son. 
      
        Chrístõ’s first thought was for the injured Human 
        and doing what he could for him.  
      
        A natural physician, with a compassionate soul. The Ambassador was always 
        proud of his son, but more than ever just then. 
      
        MacKenzie began to come around as Chrístõ stroked his mended 
        forehead, easing the headache that remained.  
      
        “Where am I?” he asked. “I thought… for a moment…” 
        He looked up at Chrístõ. “You’ve got such a 
        gentle touch, lad. I almost thought… My Mary…”  
      
        “Sorry, it's just me. Are you feeling better?”  
      
        “I feel fine. I remember being hit in the head. But that feels fine.” 
         
      
        “Chrístõ has a healing touch,” his father said. 
        “One of his many talents.”  
      
        “We’re the only ones who made it?” MacKenzie asked as 
        he sat up. “I remember seeing the mine hit. I was knocked overboard 
        by the blast. I went down under the water and I think something hit me. 
        And next I’m here.”  
      
        “Wherever here may be,” Chrístõ mused. “My 
        father believes somebody brought us here.” 
      
        “Why? And who?”  
      
        “Both very excellent questions,” The Ambassador said.  
      
        “I think one of them may be answered.” Chrístõ 
        pointed to the woman who appeared from the back of the cave.  
      
        “She couldn’t have brought us into here,” MacKenzie 
        said. “She’s so old and frail. How could she have lifted us?” 
         
      
        They watched as the woman approached. She was about as old and frail as 
        any Human the two Time Lords had ever seen. She must have been tall once, 
        but now she was bent over with age, her spine curved painfully. Her face 
        was lined and her eyes milky with cataracts and her hands were like wizened 
        talons. Chrístõ noticed the sharp, long fingernails.  
      
        Race memories of witches and crones made both Time Lords and Human draw 
        back from her as she came close.  
      
        “Do not fear me,” she said. “I am Eibhlin. I wish you 
        no harm. I have food for you. Come.”  
      
        Chrístõ’s father stood first, reaching to help his 
        son to his feet, then MacKenzie who seemed shaky yet and needed his support. 
        They followed the woman to the back of the cave where a tunnel led into 
        a deeper cave. The way was dimly lit with some rushlights but it was precarious 
        even so. Chrístõ caught up with the woman and put his hand 
        on her arm.  
      
        “Let me help you,” he said. She paused and looked at him, 
        her blind eyes seeing, nonetheless. He had the feeling she could see right 
        into him.  
      
        “Telepathic?” he asked his father telepathically.  
      
        “Perhaps.”  
      
        “You are kind, young man. I do not need help to find my way around 
        my own home. But the comfort of warm, living flesh touching me is welcome. 
        Thank you.”  
      
        Her own flesh was warm enough, Chrístõ noted. She WAS a 
        living creature herself. It seemed incredible to think that she could 
        be Human. But she must be. He could think of no other race that she could 
        come from.  
      
        The inner cave did, indeed, have food. Bread and cheese and wine. She 
        made them sit on rugs spread on the ground and eat. She herself took no 
        food and continued about some work of her own at the back of the cave. 
        Chrístõ watched her as he ate his share of the meal. He 
        found himself fascinated by her. She was, without doubt the strangest 
        and ugliest creature he had ever seen, and his definition of ugly was 
        far more inclusive than most people’s. And yet, as he looked at 
        her, he felt as if he was seeing something else as well. If he watched 
        carefully and didn’t remind himself to blink as often as Humans 
        do, he almost caught it, like a subliminal picture inserted into a reel 
        of film. Every so often it was possible to see the creature called Eibhlin 
        as she was once, as a beautiful young woman. And the fleeting glimpse 
        left the impression on his mind that he was not, in fact, watching a bent 
        old woman, but somebody who was young and beautiful. Stunningly beautiful. 
        The sort of beauty written of in legends as driving young men mad. 
      
        “An Cailleach Beara,” Chrístõ’s father 
        whispered aloud.  
      
        “What?” Chrístõ realised his father had been 
        following his thoughts.  
      
        “It's an old Irish legend,” he went on. “The Cailleach 
        – hag or crone or old woman, depending on how politically correct 
        you want to be – is an ancient creature who can only be made young 
        again by true love. A man who falls in love with her and kisses her looking 
        as she does now, as that… will find her transformed by his love 
        into a beautiful queen and enjoy her love for all of his life and be the 
        sire of her children.”  
      
        “Wow,” Chrístõ said. “That’s…” 
         
      
        “That’s incredible,” MacKenzie said. “Is it really 
        possible… Can she be…” 
      
        “She is,” Chrístõ said. “Look at her closely. 
        You can see her. Oh, she IS beautiful.”  
      
        “I see it,” MacKenzie said breathlessly, his eyes shining 
        with excitement. “But which is the real her? The old crone or the 
        beautiful woman?”  
      
        “In her heart she is young and beautiful still,” Chrístõ’s 
        father said. “She weeps inside for her youth, for love, for a man 
        at her side and children at her feet.”  
      
        “How sad,” Chrístõ said. “How very, very 
        sad. Poor creature. What did she say her name was? Eibhlin?”  
      
        “A variation of Eveleen or Evlin. Derived from Eve – the giver 
        of life.” 
      
        “Did you seek me deliberately?” Eibhlin asked standing over 
        them. The feeling of seeing both versions of her at once seemed to be 
        getting stronger. She seemed to be alternating between the two forms. 
        Her voice, too, alternated between the cracked and aged voice of an old 
        woman and the clear, bell-like one of a girl. “Are you here to torture 
        me in my trouble?” 
      
        “No, Eibhlin,” Chrístõ’s father said. 
        “We came to your shore quite by accident. We are all three of us 
        survivors of a boat accident. But I know of you from legend and repute. 
        I knew you as soon as I saw you.” 
      
        “Then you know that it is impossible for you to leave,” she 
        said. “I live here in peace, even if it is a sorrowful and lamenting 
        peace. I cannot have men going back to their own kind and telling of me.” 
         
      
        “We are ALL of us strangers to Ireland,” Chrístõ’s 
        father said. “My son and I are from so far away that we could not 
        do you the slightest harm. And this other man, I know, would keep your 
        secret.”  
      
        “I would,” MacKenzie said. “I give you my word.” 
         
      
        “I might be generous,” she said. “If one of you would 
        be my true love and stay by my side I would let the others go.” 
         
      
        “That is a cruel bargain, Eibhlin,” Chrístõ’s 
        father told her. “If it were one of us, would you separate us for 
        eternity. I love my son…”  
      
        “It is not I who would choose,” she said. “My lover 
        must choose. He must have true love in his heart for me, and he must make 
        the choice of his own free will. There is no drawing of lots for my heart. 
        I have been two hundred years alone and old, aching in my bones when the 
        wind blows, crying for my children who have all gone to their graves of 
        old age and left me alone once more. ” 
      
        “Your children would be mortal? Human?” It was MacKenzie who 
        asked the question. 
      
        “Yes,” Chrístõ’s father said. “They 
        would take after their father, wouldn’t they, Eibhlin. They would 
        grow old just like any Human.”  
      
        “That is so.” 
      
        “Unless the husband was not Human,” Chrístõ 
        said. He looked at her. He looked at his father and thought of his mother, 
        dying before her time. He stood up.  
      
        “Chrístõ!” his father called to him. “Chrístõ, 
        my son. Don’t….” 
      
        Chrístõ approached the old woman. He was afraid. He was 
        repulsed by her appearance. But he was entranced, too. And he thought, 
        a corner of his hearts thought, perhaps this was what was meant to be. 
        Perhaps this was the woman he should love. He could ease her suffering. 
        She didn’t need to grieve every sixty years or so when her lover 
        died of old age. He could give her thousands of years. Perhaps that was 
        his destiny. The one everyone talked of. To bring comfort to a tortured 
        soul.  
      
        He reached to touch her. The nearly blind eyes, milky white with cataracts 
        tried to focus on him. Her hands reached to touch his face, feeling his 
        features.  
      
        “You are the one who was kind to me before. You are….” 
        She gasped in astonishment. “What ARE you? You are young to the 
        touch, yet you are already older than my oldest husband who reached the 
        great age of 120 before he died in my arms.” 
      
        “Yes, I am,” he said. “I am different.”  
      
        “You are a miracle. You could be the answer to my prayers. A man 
        who will stay by my side for long years.” 
      
        “I would. I promise. I would not let you down.”  
      
        “Kiss me, and let us be husband and wife,” the Cailleach said. 
        And he did so. He put his hands either side of her lined, aged face and 
        pressed his lips against her old, cracked and dry mouth.  
      
        “No!” She screamed, pushing him away with such force that 
        he was bruised by it. He picked himself up from the floor. “No!” 
        She screamed again and her body seemed to glow and shimmer as her emotions 
        overtook her. “No! What have you done to me? The kiss must be a 
        lover’s kiss. That was not….”  
      
        “I tried,” Chrístõ said. “I tried….” 
         
      
        “You don’t love me. You pity me,” she howled. “I 
        feel your pity. It burns in my soul. It… It was given freely and 
        wholeheartedly. But it is not love. You cannot be the one.”  
      
        “I’m sorry,” he told her. “I am sorry. I wanted 
        it…” 
      
        “I WANTED YOU!” she cried. “You WOULD have been the 
        answer to my prayers. I WANTED you to love me.”  
      
        “I’m sorry,” Chrístõ said again, tears 
        flowing down his face. Because she was right. He hadn’t loved her. 
        He had wanted to, tried to. But it hadn’t happened. It never would. 
        She was not the destiny he sought.  
      
        “I’m sorry,” the Cailleach said. “Because you 
        must die. False lover…”  
      
        “No!” Chrístõ’s father stepped between 
        his son and the creature that raised her hand ready to strike him down. 
        He saw the lightning crackle in her fingers. “No, Eibhlin,” 
        he said again. “Please, don’t kill my son. Please… if 
        it's love you want…”  
      
        Chrístõ looked in astonishment as his father stepped up 
        to the Cailleach and embraced her in his arms. His kiss seemed to last 
        for a long time. Chrístõ stared as her shape changed moment 
        by moment from old, bent, wizened crone to a tall, beautiful woman. She 
        was like a flickering old film, or perhaps two films mixed together and 
        played at the wrong speed. The form was trying to stabilise.  
      
        He wondered if it could be possible. His father was a little over four 
        thousand. He could still offer her maybe two thousand years of the happiness 
        she sought. Could it be? 
      
        But his father was already married. Valena had left him and given birth 
        to his son within the House of Arpexia not that of Lœngbærrow. But 
        he was still married to her. And on his honour he would always be as long 
        as they both lived. He could not give Eibhlin, the Cailleach Beara, those 
        years.  
      
        And something in her must have sensed that. Her body reverted at last 
        to its aged form and she pushed him away, though more gently than she 
        had pushed Chrístõ.  
      
        “You would have loved me,” she said. “But your hearts 
        are not yours to give.”  
      
        “In your arms, I almost forgot it,” The Ambassador said. “I 
        forgot my first wife who I loved until her last dying breath and beyond. 
        I forgot my second wife, who I love even though she has rejected me. Eibhlin, 
        I would have loved you. I would have set them aside for you.” 
      
        “But you are an honourable man,” she said. “And that 
        honour binds you to the woman who has broken your hearts. You cannot be 
        the one who loves me alone.”  
      
        “I am sorry,” he whispered. He stepped back from her and reached 
        for his son’s hand. He embraced him in his arms. “We have 
        both tried and failed,” he said to him. “But let me appeal 
        to her. Maybe she will take my life alone in forfeit.”  
      
        “I give you both your lives,” she said in a voice that seemed 
        even more broken and aged than before. “Son of the stars, your pity 
        seared my heart, and your father soothed it like a cooling balm. You both 
        touched me in ways I never thought possible. And I don’t have it 
        in me to harm you. Just go… go now and leave me to my lamentation.” 
        And she buried her face in her hands and began to wail. Chrístõ 
        felt his father’s firm hand on his arm as they turned together and 
        walked quickly away.  
      
        “Come on,” The Ambassador said to MacKenzie, who knelt on 
        the ground still, staring at the Cailleach in astonishment. “Come 
        on while you can.”  
      
        “No,” he answered. “No. I think… I can give her 
        what she needs.” He stood up and began to walk towards her.  
      
        “No,” Chrístõ called out to him. “She 
        spared us, but if she is disappointed again she might rip you apart.” 
      
        “I won’t disappoint her,” MacKenzie said. “I will 
        love her. Because she won’t die on me. She can give me children 
        and live. That’s what I NEED. And for that, I WILL love her.” 
         
      
        “Father, stop him,” Chrístõ insisted.  
      
        “I can’t,” he said. “His mind is made up. Besides… 
        it might…” MacKenzie’s motive was the same as his. He 
        wanted to love her because she wasn’t a fragile mortal thing, and 
        WOULD bear him children. But he couldn’t be the one because he was 
        not free to be her husband.  
      
        But MacKenzie was. His wife was dead and buried. So was his child. He 
        had come to Ireland to find closure.  
      
        And he had found it.  
      
        Chrístõ and his father both watched as MacKenzie reached 
        for the Cailleach’s hand. He held it tenderly.  
      
        “Eibhlin,” he said. “Take me as your husband. I will 
        love you my life long.” And he put his arm around her shoulders 
        and kissed her on the lips. At first there was no change. Then a glow 
        began to envelop them both and within it they saw the Cailleach turn to 
        the beautiful young queen that she was. And this time the form stabilised. 
        When the kiss ended, when they drew back from their embrace and looked 
        at each other it was the look of two young lovers. MacKenzie himself seemed 
        to look ten years younger with the burden of his grief lifted from him. 
      
        Eibhlin took her husband’s hand and they both turned to look at 
        Chrístõ and his father.  
      
        “You must go. You are fortunate. I have spared your lives. But you 
        cannot impose upon my generosity for long.” 
      
        “We are going,” The Ambassador said. “May you live well, 
        both of you.”  
      
        He turned and took his son by his shoulders. They walked quickly but not 
        in an urgent way. They both knew that Eibhlin would keep her word. But 
        it was as well to leave her and her husband in peace now.  
      
        “I almost wish we had your TARDIS here and not mine,” The 
        Ambassador said as they came to the first cave, the one they had awoken 
        in. “The remote autopilot is very handy.”  
      
        “You should have upgraded, father,” Chrístõ 
        told him.  
      
        “I never expected to need to travel again,” he said. “I 
        was content as a Magister of the southern continent, enjoying my retirement, 
        looking forward to being a father again. Life deals some strange cards 
        at times.”  
      
        “It does,” Chrístõ said. “If the Cailleach 
        had accepted you…”  
      
        “I think she would have made a very fine wife.” 
      
        “So do I.” Chrístõ sighed. “I thought 
        she might… For me…” 
      
        “For a moment or two I thought so,” his father said. He sighed 
        and looked back at the entrance to the inner cave. “I feel sorry 
        for her. Even now, she faces grief and loneliness again when MacKenzie 
        dies of old age. Even one of our kind would only give her a few millennia. 
        For her even that is not so very long.”  
      
        “Is she immortal?”  
       “Yes.”  
      
        “I never thought life could be a curse,” Chrístõ 
        said. “Yes, she is to be pitied. But she is happy now. For a short 
        time. That’s something, at least.” 
      
        “Yes,” his father said. “For a short time. My blessings 
        on them both. And meanwhile let us leave them in peace.” 
      
        “How?” Chrístõ looked at the tide that had filled 
        the entrance to the cave. The opening was under water.  
       “We can close off our breathing long enough to swim 
        out underwater. After that… it's seven miles to the mainland. Another 
        swim, I think. Nothing you and I could not manage. And we’ll find 
        the TARDIS and leave, quietly. There will be a tragedy at sea reported. 
        All lives lost. It saves explanations.”  
      Chrístõ nodded. He wasn’t looking forward 
        to the swim, but it made sense. 
        
        
      
      
      
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