The passengers in the two limousines were divided along gender lines.
There was no particular reason for that. It wasn’t necessary for
the Time Lord ceremony they were travelling to. But Glenda and Julia had
both been deep in conversation with Valena de Lœngbærrow when they
stepped out of Mount Lœng House to the first waiting car and Garrick
insisted that he should sit beside his brother no matter what.
“He talks about you all the time,” Lord de Lœngbærrow
said to his oldest son with an indulgent smile at his youngest child.
“His tutors hear about you from him at least a dozen times a day
and every night at dinner he asks if you will be home soon.”
“We used to worry about him not talking,” Chrístõ
noted. “Now we can’t shut him up.” But he didn’t
mean it. It was satisfying to know that Garrick was over all of the emotional
issues that had held him back for so long. He put his arm around the boy
as he sat close up to him. He thought about the years when he had felt
estranged from home and family and sighed happily. Home and family were
the most important things any man could have.
He glanced at Cal and felt a little guilty about his own satisfaction.
They both lived as exiles from Gallifrey. But while he had a loving family
and a warm and welcoming home to return to when he chose, Cal had a dark,
closed up mansion and an uncle who lived in seclusion at the top of a
forbidding mountain. Of course, he was a welcome guest at Mount Lœng
House, but that wasn’t quite the same.
“It’s all right,” Cal whispered. “I don’t
need a mansion and servants, and limousines. I mean, granted, the limousine
is rather handy tonight, seeing as we’ve got such a long journey
and it’s dark and cold out. But I don’t need it. I do want
to learn how to be a Time Lord. But I don’t want a Time Lord life.
I don’t want to live in a mansion on Gallifrey and command the people
of my demesne. I want to live on Beta Delta IV, where I am old enough
to marry Glenda when she is ready for that, and live a quiet, simple life.”
“Then we’ll find a way for you to do that, boy,” Lord
de Lœngbærrow told him.
“How?” Chrístõ asked. “Surely he has to
go to the Academy if he wants to be a Time Lord? When I was younger than
him, I pleaded with you to let me leave that damn place. I begged Maestro
to let me stay with the Brotherhood and learn what I needed to know with
them… in peace. You both told me the only way to become a Time Lord
was to attend one of the Academies until I was a hundred and ninety…
if they didn’t kill me first. And… you know damn well that
they tried…”
“Chrístõ, please don’t use profanities in front
of Garrick,” his father said calmly. “Maestro and I both lied
to you. It was for your own good. You wanted an easy option. You wanted
to run away and hide from your troubles. If we had let you, do you think
you would be the man you are now? Would you have been the one who saved
Julia’s life on that ship of death? Would you have led the fight
to free Gallifrey from its enemies? Would you have been the son I hoped
you would be? A fitting heir to the ancestors who have gone before you?”
“I… might have had a happier time of it,” he answered,
though he knew his father was right. Learning to face the bullies who
hurt him when he was a boy had made him strong. It was a bitter pill he
had swallowed, though.
“There ARE other ways to become a Time Lord than through the formal
education system. After all, there were Time Lords before there were academies.
It suits our society to make it seem as if there is only the one route
to that goal. But look at what the Sisterhood of Karn have achieved without
our sanction. Their powers are formidable. And who knows what Cal might
be able to achieve with our help. He has already set himself on the path
yesterday when he went with Maestro to the Untempered Schism.”
Cal shuddered.
“That… was the most terrifying experience of my life,”
he said. “I can’t believe you put eight year old children
through that.”
“Nevertheless, you faced it well, and you are ready to take the
next step tonight, when you go with the other young Time Lord candidates
to be dedicated to Rassilon.”
Lord de Lœngbærrow smiled indulgently at Cal. Chrístõ
noted the smile and remembered that his father had smiled at him that
way when he had taken part in his Dedication ceremony on the Winter Solstice
of his 80th year. He had been proud of him as he embarked on the second
great step to becoming a Time Lord.
In a few short years, Garrick would follow in his footsteps. He would
face the Untempered Schism. He would go to the Academy in his turn and
he would be Dedicated when the time came. Eventually, he, too, would Transcend.
His father would have every reason to smile about that. He knew he would
be proud, too, on that day.
In the meantime, he was proud of Cal. He had taken on a great deal of
parental responsibility for him. He was helping him to manage the financial
affairs of the Oakdaene estate and introducing him to those sections of
Gallifreyan society that he would need to understand as the patriarch
of one of the Oldblood Houses. He had taken a keen interest in Cal’s
informal education as Chrístõ’s apprentice. He had
arranged for him to make his journey to the Valley of Eternal Night where
he faced the Schism and proved himself worthy of being a Time Lord. His
father had arranged for Cal to join the young Candidates from the Time
Lord Academies in this Winter Solstice ceremony.
It was more than that, though. In his way, Chrístõ knew
that his father had offered Cal a kind of parental love. He let the boy
know that he was there for him if he needed him. Cal had not really needed
him in that way. He was too independent for that. But he respected Lord
de Lœngbærrow and was grateful for his kindness.
And Chrístõ wasn’t jealous. He had made that mistake
before when Garrick was born, believing that his father’s love for
him would diminish now that he had his full-blooded Gallifreyan child
instead. He had let himself imagine all kinds of resentments, and he had
been wrong. His father’s love encompassed him and his half brother.
It had encompassed Penne when he was far less sure of himself than he
was now and needed somebody to advise him.
And now it encompassed Cal.
Chrístõ was aware of another reason for that, of course.
His father had always felt a deep sense of failure about Epsilon. As the
executor of Lord Oakdaene’s will, and trustee for his son, Lord
de Lœngbærrow had tried to reach out to the fatherless boy. He had
wanted to care for him alongside his own son. But Epsilon had rejected
him and become more and more twisted and bitter as the years went by.
Cal was his second chance to do right by the House of Oakdaene.
He understood that motive perfectly well. Epsilon’s fall disturbed
him, too. They had never really been close friends, but he and his cousin
by marriage had both stood apart from their peers. They both resisted
being moulded to the exact model that their tutors at the Academy had
wanted. Strict obedience to tradition and law didn’t sit well with
them. Both had sought the freedom of the stars rather than remaining on
Gallifrey and taking up responsible jobs. They had more in common than
anyone realised, and the fact that one of them was now a shamed and disinherited
prisoner of Shada was a cause of sorrow.
Cal gave him that second chance, too. He could be his friend as he never
could have been Epsilon’s friend.
“We both need to remember one thing, my boy.” Chrístõ
looked at his father’s deep brown eyes as he heard his voice in
his head. “Cal knows his own mind. Neither of us can mould him to
be what he doesn’t want to be, either. And it would be dangerous
to try. But so far, I think we’re on the right track. He is proving
to be a smart young man. We can both take pride in that.”
“Yes,” Chrístõ replied.
“As for you, my first born son… you’ll always have my
love and my pride. You could never disappoint me. And if Garrick grows
up emulating you, as he seems to be trying hard to do, then I won’t
be disappointed in him, either.”
The exchange was a private one, but Chrístõ felt Garrick’s
small hand slip into his and his half brother smiled at him. He squeezed
his hand gently and again counted himself lucky that he had learnt to
appreciate having a younger sibling.
“This is exciting for you because you get to stay up all night,”
he said to his half brother. “Or at least as long as you can manage.
I wasn’t very good at it when I was your age. Maybe you’ll
have more stamina than me.”
Garrick laughed. Cal smiled nervously.
“I wish I was just a spectator, too,” he sighed. “I’m…
a little bit scared. Yesterday at the Schism… at least it was just
me and my uncle, even if it was terrifying. Today… I will be meeting
far more Gallifreyan people than I have ever met before… and a lot
of them will be my age… only they will have gone to those Academies
you set such store by. I wonder how they will receive me.”
“You’ll be all right,” Chrístõ assured
him. “I’m going to be your mentor tonight. All the kids at
the Academies are in awe of me… The one advantage of being a war
hero… I finally got the respect I never had before when I was just
the notorious Prydonian half-blood.”
His father nodded gravely. He knew his son wasn’t being deliberately
flippant about events that had scarred the very soul of Gallifrey. But
he had found his own way of dealing with those memories just as everyone
else who lived through it had.
“Just remember that the sons and daughters of Gallifrey who look
up to you are unaccustomed to being known collectively as ‘kids’,”
he said. “You really should curb your use of Human slang. It doesn’t
really befit a Time Lord of Gallifrey.”
“It befits one who has travelled beyond Gallifrey,” Chrístõ
argued. But the point was taken. Then he nudged Garrick who was drowsing
at his side and drew Cal’s attention to their destination.
It was a splash of light in the featureless, snow covered southern plain.
An arena had been marked out. Chrístõ couldn’t help
mentally measuring it in football pitches, another Human habit he had
picked up. It was as big as two Wembley stadiums, anyway. The boundaries
were marked with flaming torches on high, slender poles. Inside the arena,
the snow had been swept or melted away. A rime of frost was all that covered
the sparse winter grass.
The torchlight spoiled the night vision, so it was difficult to see beyond
it. But Chrístõ was born and raised on the southern continent
and he knew the plain well. He knew, even if he couldn’t see it,
that the mountain called Melchus Bluff rose up only a quarter mile from
this spot. It was one of those unexpected mountains that stood alone in
the middle of the plain, nowhere near any range of hills. Among more fanciful
people than the Time Lords of Gallifrey there would probably be legends
about it being placed there by giants or some such thing. Chrístõ
didn’t know any legends about Melchus Bluff, and the geological
explanation for it was almost as dry as the plain in high summer. But
he knew it well. He had climbed it as a boy, alone and in the company
of friends from the Academy. And it had been the place of his Dedication
to Rassilon, as it would be for Cal tonight.
A double line of torches led from the empty arena to a large marquee set
nearby. Lights from within made the canvas glow invitingly as the chauffer
brought the limousine to a stop beside the car containing the female half
of the family. The ladies pulled their lapin fur coats around themselves
as they found their partners. Glenda was wearing such a coat for the first
time. She had protested at first, until she was assured that lapin, like
the virtual reality one that always gambolled at Garrick’s feet
when he played, were not killed for their fur. They regularly shed their
coats to grow new ones and the discarded fur was collected and treated
and made into the warm coats that were a necessity as well as a fashion
item in a Gallifreyan winter.
Inside the marquee it was warm enough to discard the coats and beneath
them the women were all in fine gowns. Tight waists and wide flaring skirts
were in vogue this winter. Julia didn’t favour the style as she
wasn’t really tall enough to carry it off, but with a pair of silver-trimmed
high heeled shoes she made up for the disadvantage and beamed happily
as the eldest daughter of Lord Patrexian complimented her and Glenda on
their gowns, made, of course, by the chief dressmaker to the Imperial
Court of Adano Ambrado.
The marquee was beautifully decorated for the formal ball that preceded
the Winter Solstice ceremony. There were chandeliers hanging from the
ceiling and the floor was polished wood. Silver and gold streamers were
hung from the supporting pillars and the stage where an orchestra played
soft music was bedecked with winter grown flowers. There was a buffet
feast for those who wanted to eat and liveried waiters served champagne.
“Chrístõ, good to see you,” said a familiar
voice. He turned to see Paracell Hext with his wife at his side. “And
I’m delighted to see you at this event, Lord Oakdaene.”
He bowed formally to Cal, and Savang curtseyed. Cal seemed surprised.
He knew them both as friends. He wasn’t expecting to be addressed
by them in such a way.
“It is your right to be addressed that way, Cal,” Hext told
him. “We are leading by example, lest anyone here forget that you
are, indeed, the lawful and rightful patriarch of that Noble and Ancient
House.”
That was perfectly true, of course. But Cal still wasn’t expecting
it. Chrístõ saved him from the struggle to find something
else to say by asking Hext how things were at The Tower. Valena drew Savang
into the female conversation and the Director of the Celestial Intervention
Agency told his friend as much as he was able to say openly.
“We have the second sons and minor lords of several Gallifreyan
families under lock and key at the moment,” he said. “Those
who were too closely linked with the Demantur affair. Your uncle, Lord
Lessage, isn’t one of them. He turned informant and traded a great
deal of information for his freedom. Personally I would have preferred
to bury him up to his neck in the Red Desert and leave him for a week.
But those kind of punishments just aren’t done in these enlightened
days. Two of those he identified committed suicide before we could interrogate
them.” Hext grinned a cold grin that made Chrístõ
shiver slightly. His father met the young Director’s expression
with one that matched it.
“If anyone questioned your ability to run the reformed Agency effectively,
those two suicides put paid to such doubts. Mere anticipation of arrest
by your men was enough. Don’t be ashamed of it. You are a sharp,
clean knife slicing through the diseased flesh of our society. Never flinch
from the work. But remember, when it is done, and you walk away from it,
your soul is clean, your conscience clear. The corruption does not touch
you. Dance with your lady and hold your head up, Paracell Hext. As you
deserve to do.”
Hext nodded and bowed his head reverentially towards the man whose name
was well known among the agents he had trained. The Executioner’s
deeds were the stuff of legend.
“And if half of them are true, then there is a security leak somewhere,”
Lord de Lœngbærrow said with a good-natured smile. “Tell your
agents from me to make their own legends.”
“I will, sir,” Hext answered him. “Thank you. I think
we should find our ladies, now. My father is almost ready to make his
entrance.”
The mingling and chatter ceased and the Lords and Ladies of Gallifrey
formed up in front of the stage leaving a processional aisle between them.
Presidential guards in burnished breastplates and helmets took up position
and there was a fanfare from a liveried man with a long traditional instrument.
The official called Gold Usher entered first, followed by the Chancellor
and Premier Cardinal in their finest regalia, and then the Lord High President
himself, Lord Hext, Paracell’s father. He walked proudly, his head
held high. The Lords and Ladies of Gallifrey knelt as he passed. They
rose again as he stood on the stage, flanked by the other great leaders
of their world. The orchestra began to play the Gallifreyan national anthem
and everyone proudly sang, the men placing their right hands over their
left hearts by tradition. Julia knew the words to the anthem, of course.
Glenda had never heard it before. It was relatively new to Cal, too. Loyalty
to Gallifrey was new to him, for that matter. But he stood proudly with
his friends and felt their patriotic fervour overtake him.
“You DO belong to Gallifrey,” Chrístõ told him
telepathically as the last strains of the anthem died away. “And
I am glad of it.”
“Me, too,” Cal admitted. Then they both gave their attention
to the President’s speech. He welcomed them all to this Winter Solstice
celebration, and spoke of the hope for the future that the Candidates
represented. His emphasis was on the future all through his speech. Chrístõ
recalled when he was a Candidate, and several times since when he had
attended the ceremony as a mere observer. He couldn’t recall a speech
that hadn’t spoken of the unbroken line of tradition that they,
the young Candidates, were upholding.
But the line had been broken. The ceremony had not taken place for several
years because of the Mallus invasion. Families had been broken up. The
Academies had been damaged. It had taken a year of peace for them to get
back to this point, where they could hold the Winter Solstice again as
a time of joy and hope. And looking back to the past was no good this
time. They had to look to the future.
The scars would heal, of course. But it would take time. Perhaps as long
as it took these Candidates to complete their education and become Time
Lords. Until then there would be a hollow place in everyone’s souls
and celebrations like this would be tinged with sorrow.
But Lord Hext did not let anyone dwell on the sadness for too long. He
brought his speech to a close with an injunction to eat, drink and dance
until it was nearer to midnight. The orchestra began to play again and
the Lord High President stepped down from the stage and walked towards
his son and daughter in law. He smiled and bowed to his son and then took
Savang’s hand as he led her out onto the floor. Savang, who had
once been the loneliest and most shunned woman on the planet, smiled joyfully
as the most powerful man on Gallifrey danced with her. Of course, she
longed for the dance to be over so that she could have the next one with
her husband who she adored. But she drank in the moment when all eyes
were upon her and all of them admired her.
“She deserves it,” Chrístõ whispered. Julia,
at his side, was the only person who heard him, and she squeezed his hand.
When other couples joined in the dancing, of course he led her out, holding
her in his arms as they moved around the floor. Cal and Glenda made another
pretty pair. He saw his father with Valena, looking happy together. The
year of peace and healing had been good for them, too. He glanced around
and saw his half brother sitting on Paracell Hext’s knee as he waited
without a dance partner for now. This was Garrick’s first Solstice
ceremony and he was determined not to miss a moment of it.
Garrick was still awake at twelve, an hour to the Gallifreyan midnight,
when the orchestra stopped playing and everyone made their way outside
to the arena. In the centre of the wide, cleared area there was a huge
bonfire waiting to be lit, and a grand firework display set up ready to
delight the eyes of all. There was music, too, though not the refined
string orchestra this time. The outdoor music of Winter Solstice was of
a much more primitive kind. Drums were beating out a rhythm that matched
the double heartbeat of a Time Lord. The sound reverberated in their very
souls as they watched the flames of the solstice fire rise up.
“It’s time,” Chrístõ said as the midnight
hour approached. They both hugged and kissed their girlfriends and then
joined the group that was forming up ready for the most important part
of the Winter Solstice. There were twenty young Candidates this year,
all between fifty and eighty. They and their mentors, mostly fathers or
older brothers, formed up in a crocodile ready to begin the journey of
a little over a half mile in mere distance, but far more than that in
their personal journeys of life.
The President himself was leading them. A torchbearer walked at his side
as they set off. The path was dark, but there were beacons set out every
few yards and as they reached each one it was lit. On their way back,
the beacons would lead them down the Bluff and back to their loved ones.
Julia and Glenda were among those who stayed the longest watching the
beacons light up, marking their progress. Both of them were excited and
nervous.
“There are hot drinks inside,” said Lord de Lœngbærrow,
putting his hands on their shoulders in a fatherly way. “It’ll
be a long time until they return. Most people come inside and keep the
vigil quietly.”
“They will be all right, won’t they?” Glenda asked.
“Cal was a bit scared earlier. He tried to pretend he wasn’t,
but I knew he was. I could feel it even though he’s very good at
hiding himself behind mental walls. It isn’t dangerous, is it?”
“Not at all. It’s a bit daunting. But nothing that could harm
any of them. I am so proud that Chrístõ is Cal’s mentor.
He’s young to take on that role. But he’s grown up so much
in the past few years. He’s fully capable of guiding him all the
way through to Transcension. Still, it only seems like a few years ago
that I was walking up the Bluff with my own son. He was eighty when he
was presented as a Candidate. He worried about not being accepted by his
ancestors because he was half Human. But he was ready to stand tall before
them.”
“Cal is half Human, too.”
“And he is as proud and stubborn as Chrístõ.
He will be fine. Don’t either of you fret. Your sweethearts are
having an exciting time. You come and have a warm, comfortable time until
they are with us again.
They were having a cold time of it. And it wasn’t
easy walking in the deep snow. But nobody minded. They were looking forward
to the ritual ahead of them. The procession was not meant to be solemn.
They talked among themselves, both out loud and telepathically. Chrístõ
found himself at the centre of a small group who wanted to ask him questions.
He was relieved to find that they didn’t ask him about the war.
Mostly they wanted to know about his travels. Few of the youngsters had
ever left Gallifrey for anything more than short trips to Karn or Polarfrey.
They wanted to know what it was like to be a Time Lord who had travelled
so widely as he had.
“I’ve not travelled THAT widely,” he pointed out. “I
spend a lot of time on Earth or the Beta Delta system.
But even that sounded glamorous to them and he was glad to talk to them
about life under other skies and other suns. He noted that one youngster
seemed keener than any of the others to hear about other worlds. Chrístõ
asked his name.
“I am Cinnamal Hext, sir,” he replied. Chrístõ
was surprised.
“Paracell’s younger brother?”
“Yes, sir.”
“Why isn’t he your mentor?” He noted that the boy was
walking with a teacher from the Prydonian Academy.
“I didn’t want him to.”
“You don’t get on with your brother?”
“Yes, sir. But… he’s… important. So is my father…”
That was stating the obvious, of course. But Chrístõ wondered
why it bothered Cinnamal.
“I want to be me, not the son of the President or brother of the
Director of the CIA.”
“Ah.” Chrístõ smiled. “I can understand
that. Living up to other people’s expectations is hard work. You
be yourself. Your father and brother will respect you for it.”
“Thank you, sir. I hope I will prove myself worthy. When I am old
enough to be a traveller, like you… I would like to explore the
universe. I would like to make a difference, the way you have.”
Chrístõ was on the point of responding to that when he felt
another voice touching his mind. It was Cinnamal’s father, the President
himself.
“Don’t encourage him, too much, please. Remember, our official
policy is one of non-interference in extra-terrestrial affairs. You have
always been allowed a certain leverage, but we do not foresee a future
in which young Time Lords are running around the galaxy righting perceived
wrongs. It would change, completely, our position as a neutral and peaceful
world.”
Chrístõ was surprised. It was a long time since anyone had
reminded him of that policy of non-interference. It really hadn’t
applied to him since he first set out in his own TARDIS. And he really
thought the Mallus invasion had made it impossible for Time Lords to continue
with such a deliberately neutral position, anyway.
“Besides, we are nearly at the foot of the Bluff,” Lord Hext
added. “As we climb, the thoughts of the Candidates should be on
their Dedications. They should reflect on the heritage Rassilon has given
to us and consider why they deserve the privilege of being on of his Time
Lords.”
He repeated that injunction to them all, and the chatter quietened as
they gave their thoughts to that question. Chrístõ couldn’t
help noticing that Cinnamal Hext’s reasons still had a lot to do
with wanting his own TARDIS to go exploring in. That wasn’t exactly
the right answer to the question. Even though exploration had been his
deepest desire when he was as young as Cinnamal, his reasons for wanting
to be a Time Lord were more than that.
“What is the right answer?” He felt Cal’s question in
his mind and glanced at him in the darkness. “I don’t know
why I want to be one, except that it’s important to people I didn’t
know existed until very recently. You… and your father… and
Maestro… my uncle who I know even less well than I know your father.
You all think this is the most important thing I could possibly do. And
I would be glad to do it because it matters to you. But what is my own
reason for wanting it?”
“I can’t help you with that,” Chrístõ
told him. “It’s different for everyone.”
“What was your reason, then? When you did this?”
“Living up to my ancestors,” Chrístõ replied.
“All the great men whose names are part of my name. I had to succeed
so that their line would not end in failure.”
“So… you did it for other people, not yourself, too?”
“It was always my own ambition to be a Time Lord. I couldn’t
imagine being anything else.”
“Is there anything else TO be on Gallifrey? Anyone who isn’t
a Time Lord doesn’t amount to much from what I’ve seen.”
That much was true. Perhaps that was the real reason he had never imagined
any other future for himself.
“It’s not too late to change your mind, Cal,” he said.
“If you feel you’re not doing this for the right reasons.
Although, if you want the truth, just about everyone else here is doing
it because they think it’s what their father’s want them to
do. It’s not so much different than doing it for Maestro or my father,
or even for me.”
“No,” Cal conceded. “I’m going to do it for myself.
Not for your father… or for my father… or for my ancestors
who were Time Lords. Or even for my mother, who died alone because of
him, afraid of what might happen to me. I’m going to do it for myself.
I think that’s the answer to my question.”
“I think you’ve got it,” Chrístõ
told him. “You’re going to be all right, Cal.”
Lord de Lœngbærrow again sought his Human guests
and found them outside. This time they had at least brought a hot drink
with them. But they still looked vulnerable standing beneath one of the
flaming torches and looking out into the night.
“The line has stopped,” Glenda pointed out. “We could
see them moving by the beacons, but now it’s stopped. Something
must be wrong.”
“That’s because they’ve reached the entrance to the
caves within the Bluff,” his Lordship explained patiently. “They
are all inside now, heading through a tunnel to the great cavern where
we have conducted this Dedication ceremony for countless generations.
There is nothing to fear. And nothing to see for many hours yet. The ceremony
will take some time. Each of them has to offer himself to Rassilon individually.”
“I don’t like that idea,” Julia admitted. “It
sounds like they’re giving themselves as sacrifices or something.”
Lord de Lœngbærrow laughed though not unkindly.
“Nothing could be farther from the truth. They are merely pledging
their hearts and souls to the Creator of our race and promising to live
by his guidance. It is their second great step towards being a Time Lord.
After the presentation at the Untempered Schism, the Dedication comes
next. And after that, when they are old enough, the Transcension, when
their very DNA is changed in the most important ritual of all, and they
become Time Lords, with the whole of the universe within their souls,
all of time in their hearts.”
“That doesn’t happen until they’re nearly two hundred
years old,” Glenda pointed out. “He’s only forty-six.
That means… I won’t see him become a Time Lord. That will
be long after I am dead.”
“Chrístõ’s mother faced that reality, too,”
Lord de Lœngbærrow said with a soft sigh. “Julia will, in her
own time, when she has a child that she won’t see become a man by
our definition. That is the price a Human has to pay for the love of a
Time Lord. It’s difficult for you. It’s difficult for us,
too. My dear Marion and I made the choice, so have Chrístõ
and Julia. It seems that you and Cal intend to follow our lead. But joy
is tempered with sadness for us all.”
“Then how do any of us bear it?” Glenda asked. “I really
do love Cal. We’ve talked about the future together. I know he is
my first proper boyfriend, and some people think I’m too young to
know what I really want. But they’re wrong. I do. I love him. And
I want to be with him. And on Beta Delta is seems easy. There it’s
easy to think of him as an ordinary man. But here on Gallifrey.. .when
I see how different he is… it all gets a little scary.”
“You answered your own question, Glenda. You love
him. The rest doesn’t matter.” He put his arms around the
two young women reassuringly. He knew exactly how difficult it was for
them to come to terms with being the future wives of Time Lords. He remembered
when Chrístõ’s mother had found out that he was more
than just a professor of English literature who liked to wear tweed jackets
and do the Times crossword. She had asked all the same questions and she
had been plagued with all the same doubts and fears. But love had overcome
all of the obstacles in their way. His Marion had become a Gallifreyan
lady as he knew Julia would in time. She was already halfway there under
Valena’s guidance. Glenda and Cal would live differently. They had
to. Cal was still classed as a minor here on Gallifrey. He couldn’t
get married according to the law here. And having lived as an adult in
the Human colonies, expecting him to spend a century and a half being
treated as a child would be counter-productive. Their life together would
be on Beta Delta IV. But Cal would still be a Time Lord candidate and
the heir to the House of Oakdaene. His heritage and his birthright would
remain intact.
The tunnel was dark ahead, but the torches made it bright.
There was nothing for anyone to fear. They were glad, in any case, to
be out of the cold night. There was less talk now. Their voices sounded
so strange in the confined space and their telepathic thoughts were dampened
by the tonnes of rock above and around them. Besides, the anticipation
of what was to come weighed on them all more and more now.
They came, at last, to the Great Cavern. And it lived up to its name,
fully deserving the capital letters. It was wide and high. It had obviously
been a natural cavern originally, hollowed out by the action of water
inside the Bluff over millennia. As the torchbearers lit the standing
torches set around the cavern the great high roof became visible to the
Candidates. They looked up at a hundred thousand stalactites like glistening
stone daggers pointing down at them. Around the edges of the cavern stalagmites
rose up from the floor, and there was a vast wall of that geological feature
called ‘organ pipes’ where the accretion of thousands of years
had formed a ridged pattern. But some engineering had also been involved,
too. The vast floor of the cavern was smooth and a perfect circle. In
the centre of the circle was a huge carved stone table. It, too, was a
perfect circle and the Seal of Rassilon was embossed in the top of it.
The Candidates and their mentors formed a circle around it, standing a
few feet away from each other. There was a solemn silence for a few minutes
before Lord Hext began to recite the ritual of Candidacy in Ancient Gallifreyan.
All the Candidates but Cal had begun to learn the Ancient form of their
language and had a vague understanding of what was being said, but only
the mentors, who had graduated already, fully knew the meaning.
It didn’t matter if they knew the words or not. They understood
that the Ancient Rite of Dedication was happening. They all felt deep
in their souls that they were in the presence of their ancestors. They
all knew, of course, that when a Time Lord died his body was cremated
in an open pyre. But unless circumstances prevented it, the sum of his
mind was added to the Matrix, the repository of all Time Lord knowledge
and wisdom. The Matrix was both a physical thing, a work of Time Lord
engineering, maintained by a huge server unit in a sealed room beneath
the Panopticon, and a mystical thing that no science could completely
explain. Because what for convenience could be called the soul of the
Time Lord remained and could, with the right form of words in the right
place, at the right time, connect with his living descendants.
Each of the Candidates connected with his or her ancestor in turn. The
first, by random selection, was a girl called Selena Amycus in the short
form of her name. She stepped forward.
“I am SelenaFarahGenessa Amycus, Daughter of Gallifrey. I seek the
wisdom of my ancestors.”
To the rest of the Candidates and Mentors, nothing appeared to happen
except, perhaps, the light in the cavern flickered and changed a little,
as if a presence had disturbed the flaming torches. The expression on
Selena’s face, though, was one that, on worlds where a deity was
believed in, was called religious ecstasy. When she stepped back a few
minutes later and knelt reverently, nobody doubted that she had experienced
something deeply personal.
Another eight Candidates stepped forward and received the same gift of
deep, abiding joy before it was Cal’s turn. He stepped forward and
it seemed as if all eyes were on him, the unknown quantity, the one who
was not a product of the Academies, the one who was a half-blood, and
an illegitimate one, at that, who had arrived from somewhere in the Human
colonies to claim inheritance of an almost defunct Oldblood name.
“I am CallanIlaganAmbisieKragLojaliteitKoschei Lupus de Oakdaene,
Son of Gallifrey. I seek the wisdom of my ancestors.”
Cal’s full Gallifreyan name was not given to him at birth. Indeed,
it had never been heard by anyone before this day except Cal himself.
His uncle, the son of the Oakdaene family known as Maestro ever since
he renounced his title and became a Brother of Mount Lœng, had created
the name for him after he had returned from the Valley of Eternal Night.
Ilagan was the name of his great-great grand uncle. Ambisie meant ‘ambition’
in an obscure and rarely used southern dialect of low Gallifreyan. The
same dialect provided Krag, meaning ‘strength’ and Lojaliteit
meaning ‘loyalty’, all of which seemed appropriate characteristics
for him. Koschei was the name of his paternal great grandmother, whose
House was equal to Oakdaene, so her name had been given to all of the
sons and grandsons of the family, since. Lupus, of course, was the Human
surname he inherited from his mother, and he was adamant that nobody was
going to take that from him. And finally, of course, he acknowledged his
biological father’s surname by taking it for himself.
Chrístõ was thinking about the etymology of Cal’s
formal name when he felt the stirring of psychic forces. He was surprised.
This was Cal’s moment to connect with his ancestors. He wasn’t
supposed to know anything about it.
But after all, one of Cal’s ancestors was his other uncle, the man
Chrístõ had known as Mai Li Tuo, but whose birth name was
Lee Koschei Oakdaene. And Li’s soul wasn’t part of the matrix.
It was part of Chrístõ’s being since they were joined
in the Rite of Mori.
He felt Li’s soul reach out to the nervous boy who suddenly wasn’t
sure if he was worthy, after all.
“Yes, dear boy, you are worthy.” He heard Li’s voice
clearly in his own head, but he knew he wasn’t speaking to him.
He felt Cal’s surprised response. “Come with me, now.”
Chrístõ didn’t hear or feel any more. He knew he wasn’t
supposed to. But Li’s spirit had taken Cal by the hand, figuratively
at least, and smoothed the way to the ancestors they shared.
When it was over, Cal’s face was a picture of bliss just like the
others. He knelt and waited until the next candidates stepped forward.
Kneeling for all that length of time wasn’t comfortable, especially
for those who were first. But they were too full of joy to care. Finally,
the last Candidate stepped back and knelt and the mentors joined with
Lord Hext in the closing words of the ritual.
The Candidates stood as the last words faded into a receding echo in the
Great Cavern. Then the torchbearers went before as they formed into their
line again. They walked out of the Cavern. Behind them, the torches went
out by themselves – or perhaps it was the spirits of their ancestors
still moving.
Nobody spoke while they were in the tunnel. They still felt too close
to what had happened to them. When they emerged into the biting cold of
the Solstice night, though, they found their voices. As they descended
the Bluff, putting out the beacons as they went, the Candidates talked
among themselves, and with their mentors, about the ancestors they had
connected with, the messages of goodwill they had received.
The only one who didn’t talk much was Cinnamal Hext. He seemed lost
in thought, still, and his mentor left him to his musings.
Cal was reluctant to share his thoughts with the other Candidates. He
found them all too noisy.
“They’re all much older than me, and yet they seem like kids,”
he complained. “Just a bunch of kids.”
“That’s because here on Gallifrey, they ARE kids. Your life
is different from them. But you still did all right. You made contact,
didn’t you?”
“Yes, I did,” he answered. “With somebody called Ilagan
Oakdaene. He… was kind. He told me I was the hope of my ancestors
– because I would restore the line. He knew I wasn’t happy
about that. All this destiny stuff scares me. He told me a joke. It was
a really silly, stupid joke. It wasn’t even really funny. But…
my ancestor… who has been dead for six thousand years… told
me a joke. Can you believe that?”
“Yes, I can,” Chrístõ answered with a smile.
“After all, our ancestors were once boys who went through this,
too. They’re not meant to scare us. They’re meant to make
us feel worthy and ready to follow in their footsteps to our calling.”
“I’m ready,” Cal told him.
“Good.” Chrístõ looked down the hill. The arena
was a patch of brightness ahead of them. The bonfire would be relit soon
and fireworks would burst in the sky to welcome their return. Then there
would be hot drinks and food and hugs and kisses from their loved ones
and a chance to rest before they went out again to greet the solstice
dawn.
“Glenda is waiting for me down there,” Cal said.
“So is Julia,” Chrístõ added.
“I bet they’ve both been worried about us. You know what they’re
like. The only danger we were ever going to be in tonight is of being
suffocated by two over-enthusiastic women in lapin fur coats who over-estimate
the power of a Time Lord to recycle his breathing.”
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