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        The passengers in the two limousines were divided along gender lines. 
        There was no particular reason for that. It wasn’t necessary for 
        the Time Lord ceremony they were travelling to. But Glenda and Julia had 
        both been deep in conversation with Valena de Lœngbærrow when they 
        stepped out of Mount Lœng House to the first waiting car and Garrick 
        insisted that he should sit beside his brother no matter what.  
      
        “He talks about you all the time,” Lord de Lœngbærrow 
        said to his oldest son with an indulgent smile at his youngest child. 
        “His tutors hear about you from him at least a dozen times a day 
        and every night at dinner he asks if you will be home soon.” 
      
        “We used to worry about him not talking,” Chrístõ 
        noted. “Now we can’t shut him up.” But he didn’t 
        mean it. It was satisfying to know that Garrick was over all of the emotional 
        issues that had held him back for so long. He put his arm around the boy 
        as he sat close up to him. He thought about the years when he had felt 
        estranged from home and family and sighed happily. Home and family were 
        the most important things any man could have.  
      
        He glanced at Cal and felt a little guilty about his own satisfaction. 
        They both lived as exiles from Gallifrey. But while he had a loving family 
        and a warm and welcoming home to return to when he chose, Cal had a dark, 
        closed up mansion and an uncle who lived in seclusion at the top of a 
        forbidding mountain. Of course, he was a welcome guest at Mount Lœng 
        House, but that wasn’t quite the same.  
      
        “It’s all right,” Cal whispered. “I don’t 
        need a mansion and servants, and limousines. I mean, granted, the limousine 
        is rather handy tonight, seeing as we’ve got such a long journey 
        and it’s dark and cold out. But I don’t need it. I do want 
        to learn how to be a Time Lord. But I don’t want a Time Lord life. 
        I don’t want to live in a mansion on Gallifrey and command the people 
        of my demesne. I want to live on Beta Delta IV, where I am old enough 
        to marry Glenda when she is ready for that, and live a quiet, simple life.” 
      
        “Then we’ll find a way for you to do that, boy,” Lord 
        de Lœngbærrow told him.  
      
        “How?” Chrístõ asked. “Surely he has to 
        go to the Academy if he wants to be a Time Lord? When I was younger than 
        him, I pleaded with you to let me leave that damn place. I begged Maestro 
        to let me stay with the Brotherhood and learn what I needed to know with 
        them… in peace. You both told me the only way to become a Time Lord 
        was to attend one of the Academies until I was a hundred and ninety… 
        if they didn’t kill me first. And… you know damn well that 
        they tried…” 
      
        “Chrístõ, please don’t use profanities in front 
        of Garrick,” his father said calmly. “Maestro and I both lied 
        to you. It was for your own good. You wanted an easy option. You wanted 
        to run away and hide from your troubles. If we had let you, do you think 
        you would be the man you are now? Would you have been the one who saved 
        Julia’s life on that ship of death? Would you have led the fight 
        to free Gallifrey from its enemies? Would you have been the son I hoped 
        you would be? A fitting heir to the ancestors who have gone before you?” 
      
        “I… might have had a happier time of it,” he answered, 
        though he knew his father was right. Learning to face the bullies who 
        hurt him when he was a boy had made him strong. It was a bitter pill he 
        had swallowed, though.  
      
        “There ARE other ways to become a Time Lord than through the formal 
        education system. After all, there were Time Lords before there were academies. 
        It suits our society to make it seem as if there is only the one route 
        to that goal. But look at what the Sisterhood of Karn have achieved without 
        our sanction. Their powers are formidable. And who knows what Cal might 
        be able to achieve with our help. He has already set himself on the path 
        yesterday when he went with Maestro to the Untempered Schism.” 
      
        Cal shuddered.  
      
        “That… was the most terrifying experience of my life,” 
        he said. “I can’t believe you put eight year old children 
        through that.” 
      
        “Nevertheless, you faced it well, and you are ready to take the 
        next step tonight, when you go with the other young Time Lord candidates 
        to be dedicated to Rassilon.”  
      
        Lord de Lœngbærrow smiled indulgently at Cal. Chrístõ 
        noted the smile and remembered that his father had smiled at him that 
        way when he had taken part in his Dedication ceremony on the Winter Solstice 
        of his 80th year. He had been proud of him as he embarked on the second 
        great step to becoming a Time Lord.  
      
        In a few short years, Garrick would follow in his footsteps. He would 
        face the Untempered Schism. He would go to the Academy in his turn and 
        he would be Dedicated when the time came. Eventually, he, too, would Transcend. 
        His father would have every reason to smile about that. He knew he would 
        be proud, too, on that day.  
      
        In the meantime, he was proud of Cal. He had taken on a great deal of 
        parental responsibility for him. He was helping him to manage the financial 
        affairs of the Oakdaene estate and introducing him to those sections of 
        Gallifreyan society that he would need to understand as the patriarch 
        of one of the Oldblood Houses. He had taken a keen interest in Cal’s 
        informal education as Chrístõ’s apprentice. He had 
        arranged for him to make his journey to the Valley of Eternal Night where 
        he faced the Schism and proved himself worthy of being a Time Lord. His 
        father had arranged for Cal to join the young Candidates from the Time 
        Lord Academies in this Winter Solstice ceremony.  
      
        It was more than that, though. In his way, Chrístõ knew 
        that his father had offered Cal a kind of parental love. He let the boy 
        know that he was there for him if he needed him. Cal had not really needed 
        him in that way. He was too independent for that. But he respected Lord 
        de Lœngbærrow and was grateful for his kindness.  
      
        And Chrístõ wasn’t jealous. He had made that mistake 
        before when Garrick was born, believing that his father’s love for 
        him would diminish now that he had his full-blooded Gallifreyan child 
        instead. He had let himself imagine all kinds of resentments, and he had 
        been wrong. His father’s love encompassed him and his half brother. 
        It had encompassed Penne when he was far less sure of himself than he 
        was now and needed somebody to advise him.  
      
        And now it encompassed Cal.  
      
        Chrístõ was aware of another reason for that, of course. 
        His father had always felt a deep sense of failure about Epsilon. As the 
        executor of Lord Oakdaene’s will, and trustee for his son, Lord 
        de Lœngbærrow had tried to reach out to the fatherless boy. He had 
        wanted to care for him alongside his own son. But Epsilon had rejected 
        him and become more and more twisted and bitter as the years went by. 
         
      
        Cal was his second chance to do right by the House of Oakdaene.  
      
        He understood that motive perfectly well. Epsilon’s fall disturbed 
        him, too. They had never really been close friends, but he and his cousin 
        by marriage had both stood apart from their peers. They both resisted 
        being moulded to the exact model that their tutors at the Academy had 
        wanted. Strict obedience to tradition and law didn’t sit well with 
        them. Both had sought the freedom of the stars rather than remaining on 
        Gallifrey and taking up responsible jobs. They had more in common than 
        anyone realised, and the fact that one of them was now a shamed and disinherited 
        prisoner of Shada was a cause of sorrow.  
      
        Cal gave him that second chance, too. He could be his friend as he never 
        could have been Epsilon’s friend.  
      
        “We both need to remember one thing, my boy.” Chrístõ 
        looked at his father’s deep brown eyes as he heard his voice in 
        his head. “Cal knows his own mind. Neither of us can mould him to 
        be what he doesn’t want to be, either. And it would be dangerous 
        to try. But so far, I think we’re on the right track. He is proving 
        to be a smart young man. We can both take pride in that.” 
      
        “Yes,” Chrístõ replied.  
      
        “As for you, my first born son… you’ll always have my 
        love and my pride. You could never disappoint me. And if Garrick grows 
        up emulating you, as he seems to be trying hard to do, then I won’t 
        be disappointed in him, either.” 
      
        The exchange was a private one, but Chrístõ felt Garrick’s 
        small hand slip into his and his half brother smiled at him. He squeezed 
        his hand gently and again counted himself lucky that he had learnt to 
        appreciate having a younger sibling.  
      
        “This is exciting for you because you get to stay up all night,” 
        he said to his half brother. “Or at least as long as you can manage. 
        I wasn’t very good at it when I was your age. Maybe you’ll 
        have more stamina than me.”  
      
        Garrick laughed. Cal smiled nervously.  
      
        “I wish I was just a spectator, too,” he sighed. “I’m… 
        a little bit scared. Yesterday at the Schism… at least it was just 
        me and my uncle, even if it was terrifying. Today… I will be meeting 
        far more Gallifreyan people than I have ever met before… and a lot 
        of them will be my age… only they will have gone to those Academies 
        you set such store by. I wonder how they will receive me.”  
      
        “You’ll be all right,” Chrístõ assured 
        him. “I’m going to be your mentor tonight. All the kids at 
        the Academies are in awe of me… The one advantage of being a war 
        hero… I finally got the respect I never had before when I was just 
        the notorious Prydonian half-blood.” 
      
        His father nodded gravely. He knew his son wasn’t being deliberately 
        flippant about events that had scarred the very soul of Gallifrey. But 
        he had found his own way of dealing with those memories just as everyone 
        else who lived through it had. 
      
        “Just remember that the sons and daughters of Gallifrey who look 
        up to you are unaccustomed to being known collectively as ‘kids’,” 
        he said. “You really should curb your use of Human slang. It doesn’t 
        really befit a Time Lord of Gallifrey.”  
      
        “It befits one who has travelled beyond Gallifrey,” Chrístõ 
        argued. But the point was taken. Then he nudged Garrick who was drowsing 
        at his side and drew Cal’s attention to their destination.  
      
        It was a splash of light in the featureless, snow covered southern plain. 
        An arena had been marked out. Chrístõ couldn’t help 
        mentally measuring it in football pitches, another Human habit he had 
        picked up. It was as big as two Wembley stadiums, anyway. The boundaries 
        were marked with flaming torches on high, slender poles. Inside the arena, 
        the snow had been swept or melted away. A rime of frost was all that covered 
        the sparse winter grass.  
      
        The torchlight spoiled the night vision, so it was difficult to see beyond 
        it. But Chrístõ was born and raised on the southern continent 
        and he knew the plain well. He knew, even if he couldn’t see it, 
        that the mountain called Melchus Bluff rose up only a quarter mile from 
        this spot. It was one of those unexpected mountains that stood alone in 
        the middle of the plain, nowhere near any range of hills. Among more fanciful 
        people than the Time Lords of Gallifrey there would probably be legends 
        about it being placed there by giants or some such thing. Chrístõ 
        didn’t know any legends about Melchus Bluff, and the geological 
        explanation for it was almost as dry as the plain in high summer. But 
        he knew it well. He had climbed it as a boy, alone and in the company 
        of friends from the Academy. And it had been the place of his Dedication 
        to Rassilon, as it would be for Cal tonight.  
      
        A double line of torches led from the empty arena to a large marquee set 
        nearby. Lights from within made the canvas glow invitingly as the chauffer 
        brought the limousine to a stop beside the car containing the female half 
        of the family. The ladies pulled their lapin fur coats around themselves 
        as they found their partners. Glenda was wearing such a coat for the first 
        time. She had protested at first, until she was assured that lapin, like 
        the virtual reality one that always gambolled at Garrick’s feet 
        when he played, were not killed for their fur. They regularly shed their 
        coats to grow new ones and the discarded fur was collected and treated 
        and made into the warm coats that were a necessity as well as a fashion 
        item in a Gallifreyan winter.  
      
        Inside the marquee it was warm enough to discard the coats and beneath 
        them the women were all in fine gowns. Tight waists and wide flaring skirts 
        were in vogue this winter. Julia didn’t favour the style as she 
        wasn’t really tall enough to carry it off, but with a pair of silver-trimmed 
        high heeled shoes she made up for the disadvantage and beamed happily 
        as the eldest daughter of Lord Patrexian complimented her and Glenda on 
        their gowns, made, of course, by the chief dressmaker to the Imperial 
        Court of Adano Ambrado.  
      
        The marquee was beautifully decorated for the formal ball that preceded 
        the Winter Solstice ceremony. There were chandeliers hanging from the 
        ceiling and the floor was polished wood. Silver and gold streamers were 
        hung from the supporting pillars and the stage where an orchestra played 
        soft music was bedecked with winter grown flowers. There was a buffet 
        feast for those who wanted to eat and liveried waiters served champagne. 
         
      
        “Chrístõ, good to see you,” said a familiar 
        voice. He turned to see Paracell Hext with his wife at his side. “And 
        I’m delighted to see you at this event, Lord Oakdaene.” 
      
        He bowed formally to Cal, and Savang curtseyed. Cal seemed surprised. 
        He knew them both as friends. He wasn’t expecting to be addressed 
        by them in such a way. 
      
        “It is your right to be addressed that way, Cal,” Hext told 
        him. “We are leading by example, lest anyone here forget that you 
        are, indeed, the lawful and rightful patriarch of that Noble and Ancient 
        House.”  
      
        That was perfectly true, of course. But Cal still wasn’t expecting 
        it. Chrístõ saved him from the struggle to find something 
        else to say by asking Hext how things were at The Tower. Valena drew Savang 
        into the female conversation and the Director of the Celestial Intervention 
        Agency told his friend as much as he was able to say openly.  
      
        “We have the second sons and minor lords of several Gallifreyan 
        families under lock and key at the moment,” he said. “Those 
        who were too closely linked with the Demantur affair. Your uncle, Lord 
        Lessage, isn’t one of them. He turned informant and traded a great 
        deal of information for his freedom. Personally I would have preferred 
        to bury him up to his neck in the Red Desert and leave him for a week. 
        But those kind of punishments just aren’t done in these enlightened 
        days. Two of those he identified committed suicide before we could interrogate 
        them.” Hext grinned a cold grin that made Chrístõ 
        shiver slightly. His father met the young Director’s expression 
        with one that matched it.  
      
        “If anyone questioned your ability to run the reformed Agency effectively, 
        those two suicides put paid to such doubts. Mere anticipation of arrest 
        by your men was enough. Don’t be ashamed of it. You are a sharp, 
        clean knife slicing through the diseased flesh of our society. Never flinch 
        from the work. But remember, when it is done, and you walk away from it, 
        your soul is clean, your conscience clear. The corruption does not touch 
        you. Dance with your lady and hold your head up, Paracell Hext. As you 
        deserve to do.”  
      
        Hext nodded and bowed his head reverentially towards the man whose name 
        was well known among the agents he had trained. The Executioner’s 
        deeds were the stuff of legend.  
      
        “And if half of them are true, then there is a security leak somewhere,” 
        Lord de Lœngbærrow said with a good-natured smile. “Tell your 
        agents from me to make their own legends.” 
      
        “I will, sir,” Hext answered him. “Thank you. I think 
        we should find our ladies, now. My father is almost ready to make his 
        entrance.”  
      
        The mingling and chatter ceased and the Lords and Ladies of Gallifrey 
        formed up in front of the stage leaving a processional aisle between them. 
        Presidential guards in burnished breastplates and helmets took up position 
        and there was a fanfare from a liveried man with a long traditional instrument. 
        The official called Gold Usher entered first, followed by the Chancellor 
        and Premier Cardinal in their finest regalia, and then the Lord High President 
        himself, Lord Hext, Paracell’s father. He walked proudly, his head 
        held high. The Lords and Ladies of Gallifrey knelt as he passed. They 
        rose again as he stood on the stage, flanked by the other great leaders 
        of their world. The orchestra began to play the Gallifreyan national anthem 
        and everyone proudly sang, the men placing their right hands over their 
        left hearts by tradition. Julia knew the words to the anthem, of course. 
        Glenda had never heard it before. It was relatively new to Cal, too. Loyalty 
        to Gallifrey was new to him, for that matter. But he stood proudly with 
        his friends and felt their patriotic fervour overtake him.  
      
        “You DO belong to Gallifrey,” Chrístõ told him 
        telepathically as the last strains of the anthem died away. “And 
        I am glad of it.” 
      
        “Me, too,” Cal admitted. Then they both gave their attention 
        to the President’s speech. He welcomed them all to this Winter Solstice 
        celebration, and spoke of the hope for the future that the Candidates 
        represented. His emphasis was on the future all through his speech. Chrístõ 
        recalled when he was a Candidate, and several times since when he had 
        attended the ceremony as a mere observer. He couldn’t recall a speech 
        that hadn’t spoken of the unbroken line of tradition that they, 
        the young Candidates, were upholding.  
      
        But the line had been broken. The ceremony had not taken place for several 
        years because of the Mallus invasion. Families had been broken up. The 
        Academies had been damaged. It had taken a year of peace for them to get 
        back to this point, where they could hold the Winter Solstice again as 
        a time of joy and hope. And looking back to the past was no good this 
        time. They had to look to the future. 
      
        The scars would heal, of course. But it would take time. Perhaps as long 
        as it took these Candidates to complete their education and become Time 
        Lords. Until then there would be a hollow place in everyone’s souls 
        and celebrations like this would be tinged with sorrow.  
      
        But Lord Hext did not let anyone dwell on the sadness for too long. He 
        brought his speech to a close with an injunction to eat, drink and dance 
        until it was nearer to midnight. The orchestra began to play again and 
        the Lord High President stepped down from the stage and walked towards 
        his son and daughter in law. He smiled and bowed to his son and then took 
        Savang’s hand as he led her out onto the floor. Savang, who had 
        once been the loneliest and most shunned woman on the planet, smiled joyfully 
        as the most powerful man on Gallifrey danced with her. Of course, she 
        longed for the dance to be over so that she could have the next one with 
        her husband who she adored. But she drank in the moment when all eyes 
        were upon her and all of them admired her.  
      
        “She deserves it,” Chrístõ whispered. Julia, 
        at his side, was the only person who heard him, and she squeezed his hand. 
        When other couples joined in the dancing, of course he led her out, holding 
        her in his arms as they moved around the floor. Cal and Glenda made another 
        pretty pair. He saw his father with Valena, looking happy together. The 
        year of peace and healing had been good for them, too. He glanced around 
        and saw his half brother sitting on Paracell Hext’s knee as he waited 
        without a dance partner for now. This was Garrick’s first Solstice 
        ceremony and he was determined not to miss a moment of it. 
      
        Garrick was still awake at twelve, an hour to the Gallifreyan midnight, 
        when the orchestra stopped playing and everyone made their way outside 
        to the arena. In the centre of the wide, cleared area there was a huge 
        bonfire waiting to be lit, and a grand firework display set up ready to 
        delight the eyes of all. There was music, too, though not the refined 
        string orchestra this time. The outdoor music of Winter Solstice was of 
        a much more primitive kind. Drums were beating out a rhythm that matched 
        the double heartbeat of a Time Lord. The sound reverberated in their very 
        souls as they watched the flames of the solstice fire rise up.  
      
        “It’s time,” Chrístõ said as the midnight 
        hour approached. They both hugged and kissed their girlfriends and then 
        joined the group that was forming up ready for the most important part 
        of the Winter Solstice. There were twenty young Candidates this year, 
        all between fifty and eighty. They and their mentors, mostly fathers or 
        older brothers, formed up in a crocodile ready to begin the journey of 
        a little over a half mile in mere distance, but far more than that in 
        their personal journeys of life.  
      
        The President himself was leading them. A torchbearer walked at his side 
        as they set off. The path was dark, but there were beacons set out every 
        few yards and as they reached each one it was lit. On their way back, 
        the beacons would lead them down the Bluff and back to their loved ones. 
         
      
        Julia and Glenda were among those who stayed the longest watching the 
        beacons light up, marking their progress. Both of them were excited and 
        nervous.  
      
        “There are hot drinks inside,” said Lord de Lœngbærrow, 
        putting his hands on their shoulders in a fatherly way. “It’ll 
        be a long time until they return. Most people come inside and keep the 
        vigil quietly.” 
      
        “They will be all right, won’t they?” Glenda asked. 
        “Cal was a bit scared earlier. He tried to pretend he wasn’t, 
        but I knew he was. I could feel it even though he’s very good at 
        hiding himself behind mental walls. It isn’t dangerous, is it?” 
         
      
        “Not at all. It’s a bit daunting. But nothing that could harm 
        any of them. I am so proud that Chrístõ is Cal’s mentor. 
        He’s young to take on that role. But he’s grown up so much 
        in the past few years. He’s fully capable of guiding him all the 
        way through to Transcension. Still, it only seems like a few years ago 
        that I was walking up the Bluff with my own son. He was eighty when he 
        was presented as a Candidate. He worried about not being accepted by his 
        ancestors because he was half Human. But he was ready to stand tall before 
        them.” 
      
        “Cal is half Human, too.” 
       “And he is as proud and stubborn as Chrístõ. 
        He will be fine. Don’t either of you fret. Your sweethearts are 
        having an exciting time. You come and have a warm, comfortable time until 
        they are with us again. 
        
      They were having a cold time of it. And it wasn’t 
        easy walking in the deep snow. But nobody minded. They were looking forward 
        to the ritual ahead of them. The procession was not meant to be solemn. 
        They talked among themselves, both out loud and telepathically. Chrístõ 
        found himself at the centre of a small group who wanted to ask him questions. 
        He was relieved to find that they didn’t ask him about the war. 
        Mostly they wanted to know about his travels. Few of the youngsters had 
        ever left Gallifrey for anything more than short trips to Karn or Polarfrey. 
        They wanted to know what it was like to be a Time Lord who had travelled 
        so widely as he had. 
      
        “I’ve not travelled THAT widely,” he pointed out. “I 
        spend a lot of time on Earth or the Beta Delta system.  
      
        But even that sounded glamorous to them and he was glad to talk to them 
        about life under other skies and other suns. He noted that one youngster 
        seemed keener than any of the others to hear about other worlds. Chrístõ 
        asked his name.  
      
        “I am Cinnamal Hext, sir,” he replied. Chrístõ 
        was surprised.  
      
        “Paracell’s younger brother?”  
      
        “Yes, sir.”  
      
        “Why isn’t he your mentor?” He noted that the boy was 
        walking with a teacher from the Prydonian Academy.  
      
        “I didn’t want him to.” 
      
        “You don’t get on with your brother?”  
      
        “Yes, sir. But… he’s… important. So is my father…” 
         
      
        That was stating the obvious, of course. But Chrístõ wondered 
        why it bothered Cinnamal. 
      
        “I want to be me, not the son of the President or brother of the 
        Director of the CIA.” 
      
        “Ah.” Chrístõ smiled. “I can understand 
        that. Living up to other people’s expectations is hard work. You 
        be yourself. Your father and brother will respect you for it.” 
      
        “Thank you, sir. I hope I will prove myself worthy. When I am old 
        enough to be a traveller, like you… I would like to explore the 
        universe. I would like to make a difference, the way you have.” 
         
      
        Chrístõ was on the point of responding to that when he felt 
        another voice touching his mind. It was Cinnamal’s father, the President 
        himself. 
      
        “Don’t encourage him, too much, please. Remember, our official 
        policy is one of non-interference in extra-terrestrial affairs. You have 
        always been allowed a certain leverage, but we do not foresee a future 
        in which young Time Lords are running around the galaxy righting perceived 
        wrongs. It would change, completely, our position as a neutral and peaceful 
        world.” 
      
        Chrístõ was surprised. It was a long time since anyone had 
        reminded him of that policy of non-interference. It really hadn’t 
        applied to him since he first set out in his own TARDIS. And he really 
        thought the Mallus invasion had made it impossible for Time Lords to continue 
        with such a deliberately neutral position, anyway.  
      
        “Besides, we are nearly at the foot of the Bluff,” Lord Hext 
        added. “As we climb, the thoughts of the Candidates should be on 
        their Dedications. They should reflect on the heritage Rassilon has given 
        to us and consider why they deserve the privilege of being on of his Time 
        Lords.” 
      
        He repeated that injunction to them all, and the chatter quietened as 
        they gave their thoughts to that question. Chrístõ couldn’t 
        help noticing that Cinnamal Hext’s reasons still had a lot to do 
        with wanting his own TARDIS to go exploring in. That wasn’t exactly 
        the right answer to the question. Even though exploration had been his 
        deepest desire when he was as young as Cinnamal, his reasons for wanting 
        to be a Time Lord were more than that.  
      
        “What is the right answer?” He felt Cal’s question in 
        his mind and glanced at him in the darkness. “I don’t know 
        why I want to be one, except that it’s important to people I didn’t 
        know existed until very recently. You… and your father… and 
        Maestro… my uncle who I know even less well than I know your father. 
        You all think this is the most important thing I could possibly do. And 
        I would be glad to do it because it matters to you. But what is my own 
        reason for wanting it?”  
      
        “I can’t help you with that,” Chrístõ 
        told him. “It’s different for everyone.” 
      
        “What was your reason, then? When you did this?” 
      
        “Living up to my ancestors,” Chrístõ replied. 
        “All the great men whose names are part of my name. I had to succeed 
        so that their line would not end in failure.” 
      
        “So… you did it for other people, not yourself, too?” 
         
      
        “It was always my own ambition to be a Time Lord. I couldn’t 
        imagine being anything else.” 
      
        “Is there anything else TO be on Gallifrey? Anyone who isn’t 
        a Time Lord doesn’t amount to much from what I’ve seen.” 
         
      
        That much was true. Perhaps that was the real reason he had never imagined 
        any other future for himself.  
      
        “It’s not too late to change your mind, Cal,” he said. 
        “If you feel you’re not doing this for the right reasons. 
        Although, if you want the truth, just about everyone else here is doing 
        it because they think it’s what their father’s want them to 
        do. It’s not so much different than doing it for Maestro or my father, 
        or even for me.” 
      
        “No,” Cal conceded. “I’m going to do it for myself. 
        Not for your father… or for my father… or for my ancestors 
        who were Time Lords. Or even for my mother, who died alone because of 
        him, afraid of what might happen to me. I’m going to do it for myself. 
        I think that’s the answer to my question.” 
       “I think you’ve got it,” Chrístõ 
        told him. “You’re going to be all right, Cal.”  
        
      Lord de Lœngbærrow again sought his Human guests 
        and found them outside. This time they had at least brought a hot drink 
        with them. But they still looked vulnerable standing beneath one of the 
        flaming torches and looking out into the night. 
      
        “The line has stopped,” Glenda pointed out. “We could 
        see them moving by the beacons, but now it’s stopped. Something 
        must be wrong.” 
      
        “That’s because they’ve reached the entrance to the 
        caves within the Bluff,” his Lordship explained patiently. “They 
        are all inside now, heading through a tunnel to the great cavern where 
        we have conducted this Dedication ceremony for countless generations. 
        There is nothing to fear. And nothing to see for many hours yet. The ceremony 
        will take some time. Each of them has to offer himself to Rassilon individually.” 
      
        “I don’t like that idea,” Julia admitted. “It 
        sounds like they’re giving themselves as sacrifices or something.” 
      
        Lord de Lœngbærrow laughed though not unkindly.  
      
        “Nothing could be farther from the truth. They are merely pledging 
        their hearts and souls to the Creator of our race and promising to live 
        by his guidance. It is their second great step towards being a Time Lord. 
        After the presentation at the Untempered Schism, the Dedication comes 
        next. And after that, when they are old enough, the Transcension, when 
        their very DNA is changed in the most important ritual of all, and they 
        become Time Lords, with the whole of the universe within their souls, 
        all of time in their hearts.” 
      
        “That doesn’t happen until they’re nearly two hundred 
        years old,” Glenda pointed out. “He’s only forty-six. 
        That means… I won’t see him become a Time Lord. That will 
        be long after I am dead.”  
      
        “Chrístõ’s mother faced that reality, too,” 
        Lord de Lœngbærrow said with a soft sigh. “Julia will, in her 
        own time, when she has a child that she won’t see become a man by 
        our definition. That is the price a Human has to pay for the love of a 
        Time Lord. It’s difficult for you. It’s difficult for us, 
        too. My dear Marion and I made the choice, so have Chrístõ 
        and Julia. It seems that you and Cal intend to follow our lead. But joy 
        is tempered with sadness for us all.” 
      
        “Then how do any of us bear it?” Glenda asked. “I really 
        do love Cal. We’ve talked about the future together. I know he is 
        my first proper boyfriend, and some people think I’m too young to 
        know what I really want. But they’re wrong. I do. I love him. And 
        I want to be with him. And on Beta Delta is seems easy. There it’s 
        easy to think of him as an ordinary man. But here on Gallifrey.. .when 
        I see how different he is… it all gets a little scary.” 
       “You answered your own question, Glenda. You love 
        him. The rest doesn’t matter.” He put his arms around the 
        two young women reassuringly. He knew exactly how difficult it was for 
        them to come to terms with being the future wives of Time Lords. He remembered 
        when Chrístõ’s mother had found out that he was more 
        than just a professor of English literature who liked to wear tweed jackets 
        and do the Times crossword. She had asked all the same questions and she 
        had been plagued with all the same doubts and fears. But love had overcome 
        all of the obstacles in their way. His Marion had become a Gallifreyan 
        lady as he knew Julia would in time. She was already halfway there under 
        Valena’s guidance. Glenda and Cal would live differently. They had 
        to. Cal was still classed as a minor here on Gallifrey. He couldn’t 
        get married according to the law here. And having lived as an adult in 
        the Human colonies, expecting him to spend a century and a half being 
        treated as a child would be counter-productive. Their life together would 
        be on Beta Delta IV. But Cal would still be a Time Lord candidate and 
        the heir to the House of Oakdaene. His heritage and his birthright would 
        remain intact.  
        
      The tunnel was dark ahead, but the torches made it bright. 
        There was nothing for anyone to fear. They were glad, in any case, to 
        be out of the cold night. There was less talk now. Their voices sounded 
        so strange in the confined space and their telepathic thoughts were dampened 
        by the tonnes of rock above and around them. Besides, the anticipation 
        of what was to come weighed on them all more and more now.  
      
        They came, at last, to the Great Cavern. And it lived up to its name, 
        fully deserving the capital letters. It was wide and high. It had obviously 
        been a natural cavern originally, hollowed out by the action of water 
        inside the Bluff over millennia. As the torchbearers lit the standing 
        torches set around the cavern the great high roof became visible to the 
        Candidates. They looked up at a hundred thousand stalactites like glistening 
        stone daggers pointing down at them. Around the edges of the cavern stalagmites 
        rose up from the floor, and there was a vast wall of that geological feature 
        called ‘organ pipes’ where the accretion of thousands of years 
        had formed a ridged pattern. But some engineering had also been involved, 
        too. The vast floor of the cavern was smooth and a perfect circle. In 
        the centre of the circle was a huge carved stone table. It, too, was a 
        perfect circle and the Seal of Rassilon was embossed in the top of it. 
        The Candidates and their mentors formed a circle around it, standing a 
        few feet away from each other. There was a solemn silence for a few minutes 
        before Lord Hext began to recite the ritual of Candidacy in Ancient Gallifreyan. 
        All the Candidates but Cal had begun to learn the Ancient form of their 
        language and had a vague understanding of what was being said, but only 
        the mentors, who had graduated already, fully knew the meaning.  
      
        It didn’t matter if they knew the words or not. They understood 
        that the Ancient Rite of Dedication was happening. They all felt deep 
        in their souls that they were in the presence of their ancestors. They 
        all knew, of course, that when a Time Lord died his body was cremated 
        in an open pyre. But unless circumstances prevented it, the sum of his 
        mind was added to the Matrix, the repository of all Time Lord knowledge 
        and wisdom. The Matrix was both a physical thing, a work of Time Lord 
        engineering, maintained by a huge server unit in a sealed room beneath 
        the Panopticon, and a mystical thing that no science could completely 
        explain. Because what for convenience could be called the soul of the 
        Time Lord remained and could, with the right form of words in the right 
        place, at the right time, connect with his living descendants.  
      
        Each of the Candidates connected with his or her ancestor in turn. The 
        first, by random selection, was a girl called Selena Amycus in the short 
        form of her name. She stepped forward. 
      
        “I am SelenaFarahGenessa Amycus, Daughter of Gallifrey. I seek the 
        wisdom of my ancestors.” 
      
        To the rest of the Candidates and Mentors, nothing appeared to happen 
        except, perhaps, the light in the cavern flickered and changed a little, 
        as if a presence had disturbed the flaming torches. The expression on 
        Selena’s face, though, was one that, on worlds where a deity was 
        believed in, was called religious ecstasy. When she stepped back a few 
        minutes later and knelt reverently, nobody doubted that she had experienced 
        something deeply personal.  
      
        Another eight Candidates stepped forward and received the same gift of 
        deep, abiding joy before it was Cal’s turn. He stepped forward and 
        it seemed as if all eyes were on him, the unknown quantity, the one who 
        was not a product of the Academies, the one who was a half-blood, and 
        an illegitimate one, at that, who had arrived from somewhere in the Human 
        colonies to claim inheritance of an almost defunct Oldblood name. 
      
        “I am CallanIlaganAmbisieKragLojaliteitKoschei Lupus de Oakdaene, 
        Son of Gallifrey. I seek the wisdom of my ancestors.” 
      
        Cal’s full Gallifreyan name was not given to him at birth. Indeed, 
        it had never been heard by anyone before this day except Cal himself. 
        His uncle, the son of the Oakdaene family known as Maestro ever since 
        he renounced his title and became a Brother of Mount Lœng, had created 
        the name for him after he had returned from the Valley of Eternal Night. 
        Ilagan was the name of his great-great grand uncle. Ambisie meant ‘ambition’ 
        in an obscure and rarely used southern dialect of low Gallifreyan. The 
        same dialect provided Krag, meaning ‘strength’ and Lojaliteit 
        meaning ‘loyalty’, all of which seemed appropriate characteristics 
        for him. Koschei was the name of his paternal great grandmother, whose 
        House was equal to Oakdaene, so her name had been given to all of the 
        sons and grandsons of the family, since. Lupus, of course, was the Human 
        surname he inherited from his mother, and he was adamant that nobody was 
        going to take that from him. And finally, of course, he acknowledged his 
        biological father’s surname by taking it for himself.  
      
        Chrístõ was thinking about the etymology of Cal’s 
        formal name when he felt the stirring of psychic forces. He was surprised. 
        This was Cal’s moment to connect with his ancestors. He wasn’t 
        supposed to know anything about it.  
      
        But after all, one of Cal’s ancestors was his other uncle, the man 
        Chrístõ had known as Mai Li Tuo, but whose birth name was 
        Lee Koschei Oakdaene. And Li’s soul wasn’t part of the matrix. 
        It was part of Chrístõ’s being since they were joined 
        in the Rite of Mori.  
      
        He felt Li’s soul reach out to the nervous boy who suddenly wasn’t 
        sure if he was worthy, after all.  
      
        “Yes, dear boy, you are worthy.” He heard Li’s voice 
        clearly in his own head, but he knew he wasn’t speaking to him. 
        He felt Cal’s surprised response. “Come with me, now.” 
      
        Chrístõ didn’t hear or feel any more. He knew he wasn’t 
        supposed to. But Li’s spirit had taken Cal by the hand, figuratively 
        at least, and smoothed the way to the ancestors they shared.  
      
        When it was over, Cal’s face was a picture of bliss just like the 
        others. He knelt and waited until the next candidates stepped forward. 
        Kneeling for all that length of time wasn’t comfortable, especially 
        for those who were first. But they were too full of joy to care. Finally, 
        the last Candidate stepped back and knelt and the mentors joined with 
        Lord Hext in the closing words of the ritual.  
      
        The Candidates stood as the last words faded into a receding echo in the 
        Great Cavern. Then the torchbearers went before as they formed into their 
        line again. They walked out of the Cavern. Behind them, the torches went 
        out by themselves – or perhaps it was the spirits of their ancestors 
        still moving.  
      
        Nobody spoke while they were in the tunnel. They still felt too close 
        to what had happened to them. When they emerged into the biting cold of 
        the Solstice night, though, they found their voices. As they descended 
        the Bluff, putting out the beacons as they went, the Candidates talked 
        among themselves, and with their mentors, about the ancestors they had 
        connected with, the messages of goodwill they had received.  
      
        The only one who didn’t talk much was Cinnamal Hext. He seemed lost 
        in thought, still, and his mentor left him to his musings.  
      
        Cal was reluctant to share his thoughts with the other Candidates. He 
        found them all too noisy.  
      
        “They’re all much older than me, and yet they seem like kids,” 
        he complained. “Just a bunch of kids.” 
      
        “That’s because here on Gallifrey, they ARE kids. Your life 
        is different from them. But you still did all right. You made contact, 
        didn’t you?”  
      
        “Yes, I did,” he answered. “With somebody called Ilagan 
        Oakdaene. He… was kind. He told me I was the hope of my ancestors 
        – because I would restore the line. He knew I wasn’t happy 
        about that. All this destiny stuff scares me. He told me a joke. It was 
        a really silly, stupid joke. It wasn’t even really funny. But… 
        my ancestor… who has been dead for six thousand years… told 
        me a joke. Can you believe that?”  
      
        “Yes, I can,” Chrístõ answered with a smile. 
        “After all, our ancestors were once boys who went through this, 
        too. They’re not meant to scare us. They’re meant to make 
        us feel worthy and ready to follow in their footsteps to our calling.” 
         
      
        “I’m ready,” Cal told him. 
      
        “Good.” Chrístõ looked down the hill. The arena 
        was a patch of brightness ahead of them. The bonfire would be relit soon 
        and fireworks would burst in the sky to welcome their return. Then there 
        would be hot drinks and food and hugs and kisses from their loved ones 
        and a chance to rest before they went out again to greet the solstice 
        dawn.  
      
        “Glenda is waiting for me down there,” Cal said.  
       “So is Julia,” Chrístõ added. 
        “I bet they’ve both been worried about us. You know what they’re 
        like. The only danger we were ever going to be in tonight is of being 
        suffocated by two over-enthusiastic women in lapin fur coats who over-estimate 
        the power of a Time Lord to recycle his breathing.”  
        
      
       
      
      
      
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