Susan Campbell was preparing vegetables for the evening
meal when she was startled, though not entirely surprised, by a noise.
It was one she had been familiar with for much of her life. She looked
around as a TARDIS materialised in her kitchen, disguising itself immediately
as a fridge freezer. She smiled as the door opened and her second born
son stepped out.
“Chris,” she said as she reached to hug him. “I’m
honoured by your presence in my kitchen. But you could have used the door,
you know.”
“Mum,” he answered, kissing her cheek. “Can you…
come into my TARDIS for a little while. I need to talk to you about something
very important. And there is somebody I need you to meet.”
“I’ve got to make dinner,” she protested. “I can’t…”
Then she laughed softly. “Oh, of course I have time for you, Chris.
You’ve been away for nearly two weeks. We’ve missed you. Your
father and I. And Davie and Sukie, too.”
“I know,” he told her. “And that’s why I need
to talk to you. Please, mum, come inside. Never mind vegetables. I’ll
take everyone out to dinner later. I think I should, anyway. But come
on.”
He grasped Susan’s hand and drew her into the fridge freezer. Once
across the threshold, of course, it was the Gothic TARDIS with its stone
walls and vaulted ceiling. The modern console in the centre of it always
looked rather incongruous, but Chris seemed to like it that way –
like a technological cathedral.
Then her gaze fell upon the sofa against one of the walls. There was a
young woman sleeping on it. Susan stepped closer. She noted that the woman
– hardly more than a girl, really - was very pretty, with dark hair
and the kind of complexion usually called ‘mocha’. She had
very long eyelashes. Susan recalled when she was a teenager in the 1960s
that it took several coats of mascara to create what was natural to her.
“Who is she?”
“She’s… my wife,” Chris answered as he gently
touched the girl’s face. She opened her eyes and looked up at him
with a smile. She sat up and embraced him before she saw Susan and drew
back nervously. She spoke to Chris. Susan knew that she had spoken in
a foreign language, an extra-terrestrial language. But she heard her words
in English. She had asked Chris if she was his mother.
“Yes,” Susan said, reaching out and touching the girl’s
hand. “Yes, I am. But I am afraid he has told me so very little
of what is happening in his life lately. I don’t even know your
name, my dear.”
“I am Carya,” she answered, still in her own language. She
looked nervous. Her brown eyes turned back to Chris questioningly. He
gently ruffled his hand through her hair. That seemed to reassure her.
“Well…” Susan managed to say. “Carya… I…
Well… I’m pleased to meet you, and I think I should hear the
whole story. But let’s do it in comfort. Chris, bring your wife
to the living room. I’ll make coffee and there’s some cake…
and you can tell me everything.”
Chris looked relieved. He took Carya’s hand and led her out of the
TARDIS. She was surprised by the modern kitchen of his parents’
home and even more so by the living room. She stared around at the modern
furnishing, the wafer thin video screen on the wall and the collection
of microdiscs, the plate glass French window leading out into the garden
where his father’s roses were in full bloom. This was a very different
kind of house than she had been born into, or those on SangC’lune
where she had lived since her exile.
“Why is she so frightened?” Susan asked her son.
“She’s very shy,” he answered. “And a lot has
happened to her in a very short time. Besides, she still doesn’t
understand a lot of English. The TARDIS is translating everything for
her, but we have rather strange accents to her,”
Carya had a strange accent when she spoke, too. She was puzzled by the
taste of coffee and didn’t quite know what to do with chocolate
cake. Chris sat close to her. His arm slipped around her waist, hugging
her gently. Susan noted the gesture. Yes, he was in love with Carya. But
how did this relationship come about? Chris had sworn that he had no interest
in romantic love. He had told her many times that he saw his future as
a mentor to the others, without personal attachments to distract him from
his work. She had thought of it as if her younger son had become a priest.
And she was very proud of him. There was no doubt about that. She was
proud of both her boys.
But both seemed determined to spring surprises on her every time she set
eyes on them.
“It’s a long story, mum,” Chris said. “It started
three months ago when I took some of my students on a field trip…”
He carefully related the sorry tale of his own misunderstanding of the
marriage rituals of Cíeló, of the painful death he and Carya
were condemned to, and how he had cheated that death and saved her life.
Susan looked at her son in absolute horror. She knew that Davie got himself
into all manner of trouble when he travelled offworld. But she thought
Chris’s adventures were of a gentler sort. She reached out and stroked
his face. He was still her little boy somewhere inside. But here he was,
having gone through a terrible ordeal, having been so very brave. Here
he was with a woman at his side, a grown man, making his own future for
himself.
“I had to take her away from her home, her world,” Chris continued.
“I took her to SangC’lune, because they’re good people
and their way of life is not far different from her own. They took her
in and looked after her. But she wasn’t happy.”
“Why weren’t you happy?” Susan asked the girl.
“Because I missed my Chris,” she answered. “I tried
not to love him. He told me not to. He said he just wanted to be my friend.
But when he left, the sky seemed dark to me. Food had no flavour, drink
did not quench my thirst. The people were kind to me, very kind. But I
longed only for Chris to return.”
“This I heard from the women of the village,” Chris confirmed.
“This sad child was pining for me. She had sat patiently each day
at a weaving loom, doing her share of the work, and she ate well enough
with the family who took her in. She took part in the evening rituals
with everyone else. She slept at night. But she did it all without any
joy.”
“Oh, poor thing,” Susan said in sympathy. “Chris, how
could you not have realised…”
“I knew she had some affection for me. But I hoped she would forget
about me once she settled down on SangC’lune. But when I returned…”
It was one of his regular visits to SangC’lune with some of his
Gallifreyan students. The plan was to spend the weekend up at the old
ruined temple, practicing some of the longer and more complex rituals
and meditations that the Time Lords of Gallifrey used to perform. The
young Gallifreyans, Cól, Brón, Shone and Daryl, all a little
bereft without their Human partners, made up his party, Time Lords in
training.
As a matter of courtesy, of course, they came to the village first and
greeted the elders as well as the friends they knew from past visits.
And Chris had been startled by the dark haired whirlwind who launched
herself at him. He hardly recognised her at first. She had changed a lot.
The ‘darkening’ was now complete. Her hair was jet black and
her eyes a deep brown that reminded him of his mother’s eyes. Her
skin was the colour of rich milky coffee and even her lips seemed to be
brown rather than pink. She looked beautiful. Chris had an urge to clothe
her in something like a traditional Spanish dress with a mantilla over
her hair or even something north African with a gold-embellished headdress.
Nothing extreme that covered her face, though. That was too lovely to
hide.
Then he remembered she was not his to dress in any way. He wanted her
to be free.
“My Chris,” she said, dispelling that hope at once. She put
her arms around his neck and kissed him on the lips. He drew back from
the kiss with a deep blush on his cheeks.
“You really shouldn’t do that,” he told her. “Though
I am very glad to see that you are well. It is good to see you, Carya.”
“I have missed you, my Chris,” she said in reply to him. “I
have wished to see you so much.”
“You weren’t supposed to miss me,” he answered her.
“You were supposed to be happy here on this beautiful, blessed planet.
I know it is very different from your home. There are only two moons here,
and they have never used glass in their homes. But they are good people.
And I am sure some of the young men must have talked to you by now…”
“I am well here,” she assured him. “I am not scared.
But I wish you could be here.”
She slipped her hand in his. He hadn’t the heart to say no to her.
She clearly had been waiting for him to return.
“All right,” he said. “But you will be utterly bored
up at the temple. Everyone else will be in deep meditation for hours.”
Before they went to the temple, Chris and his students shared the Daygone
ritual with the people of SangC’lune. In his case, as the only fully
transcended Time Lord among them, that meant that he was taken into the
Great Hall and dressed by three SangC’lune attendants in the full
regalia of a high born Gallifreyan, including the stiff, elaborate collar
and headpiece. He didn’t mind that very much. He was proud to be
a Time Lord and the fantastic costume was a part of it. Nor did he mind
that he was given a place of honour on the veranda of the Great Hall.
The Doctor had taught him from an early age to respect the traditions
of the SangC’lune people. And regarding him as a living god whom
they worshipped was a part of that tradition. He had learnt to offer them
a simple blessing when they brought their children to him or when young
couples about to be married presented themselves. He wondered if they
knew he had no real power to bestow such blessings. After all, he sat
with them and ate like any ordinary mortal. He often toiled with them
in their fields along with the students he brought with him. They knew
he was a man just like they were. Many of them, after all, had known him
as a boy, had seen him grow to manhood. But all the same, at Daygone,
he was their godhead, and he was always careful not to let them down.
Tonight was different in only one respect. He found that he had a goddess.
He looked at Carya in the dying sunlight that shone through the open door
into the Great Hall. She had been attended to, and now wore a silver gown.
Her long black hair was braided with silver threads and fastened up on
her head like a crown. There was silver in the mascara and lip colour
and on the highlights of her cheeks, too. Set against her dark complexion
it was very striking.
“I am your consort,” she said.
“Did you tell them that we were married?” Chris asked. “The
people here, I mean.”
“No,” she assured him. “But they sensed it. They knew
I was special to you.”
Chris nodded. Of course, the people of SangC’lune were all very
slightly telepathic. There was a background psychic on the planet that
they had all absorbed for generations. They had seen, not so much that
Carya was special to him, but that he was special to Carya. She still
thought of herself as his wife, joined by the rituals of her own people.
And the SangC’lune folk saw that and honoured her alongside him.
Could he dishonour her by refusing to accept her?
“Come on then,” he said. “By day a humble weaver of
cloth. By Daygone, the consort of a living God.”
He took her by the arm and stepped out of the Great Hall. Two chairs had
been set, covered in silks. He took his place and Carya beside him. The
simple ceremony to bid farewell to the day and greet the coming of night
and the end of the day’s toil got under way. He and Carya had no
part to play except as a presence at the ritual. Afterwards, he did his
share of blessings upon the people. So did Carya. Even though they had
taken her in a month ago as a frightened refugee without a roof over her
head or anything more than the borrowed clothes that she wore, they now
came to her and asked her blessing as the consort of their god.
And shyly, but with a happy smile on her face, she did what they asked.
Anything to please him, Chris realised. Anything except accept that she
couldn’t be his wife and that they were not meant to be together.
“Are you sure about that, Chris?” Cól Vaehn asked him
telepathically as he divested himself of the headdress and gold robe and
put his plain robe back on.
“Sure about what?”
“That you and Carya aren’t meant to be together,” Shone
Drader said, coming in on the conversation. “Chris, everyone else
seems to see it. Why can’t you? The girl is stuck on you. And you
obviously care about her.”
“I care about her safety and her happiness. But I don’t want
a wife. I don’t need one. I have no desires of that kind.”
“And that’s my point,” Cól added. “Are
you SURE about that?”
“I’m sure,” he insisted. “Come on. I want to reach
the temple before midnight.”
He wasn’t annoyed with them. He didn’t get annoyed with his
students. He was meant to teach them to be calm of thought and purpose.
But he did wish they would stop going on about it.
Carya had changed, too. Her dress was a simple white one that contrasted
with her black hair combed out loose down her back. She came to Chris’s
side as soon as he emerged from the Great Hall and again slipped her hand
into his.
He could have said no. He could have forbidden her from coming with him.
He could have been firm, even angry with her. He could have destroyed
her simple faith in him with harsh words. He could have brought tears
of anguish to those lovely eyes that way.
But he didn’t.
“You will be really bored,” he told her. “I mean it.
All the exciting stuff is going to be going on inside our heads. And you’re
not telepathic. You can’t share in it. All you’ll see is five
of us sitting really still for hours.”
But as long as she could sit still next to him, it seemed as if Carya
was happy with the arrangement.
She walked beside him up the hill to the ruined temple. As ever, when
he came close to the broken pillars and remnants of walls, his imagination
repaired the building and restored it to glory. He imagined stepping into
it and seeing the walls lit with flaming torches, the altar stone, the
palette where he had slept when he came there that fateful time, and where
a gentle woman had lain beside him and made him consider whether his vow
of celibacy could be foresworn.
His students vaguely knew there was something special about the stone
with the High Gallifreyan markings that Chris stopped and knelt beside.
Cól gently but persuasively held Carya back this once. Their leader
needed his moment of private reflection.
His students reflected upon the meaning of the inscription on the slab
that had lain there for so many thousands of years.
“Here lies the handmaiden of a Lord of Time. She was the passion.
He was the flame.”
They had all seen it before. They all speculated on what the word ‘handmaiden’
actually meant in that context, and having quite a bit of worldly knowledge
before they joined Chris’s sanctuary they drew certain conclusions.
The allusion to flaming passion clinched it.
They all knew, without ever being told, that Chris was the Lord of Time
whose handmaiden was immortalised in those words. He had never told them
how or why. And they had never questioned how flaming passion ever featured
in the life of their celibate and ascetic spiritual leader.
After a quiet minute Chris stood and turned. His eyes were glassy in the
light of the flaming torches on long poles that illuminated the sight.
But he smiled brightly. He held out his hand and Carya moved as if she
was on a tightly wound spring that had been held back until that moment.
Again he let her walk with him as he turned and headed towards the entrance
to the cavern below the temple.
“We’re going below?” Brón asked. He was remembering
the last time they had been down there, fighting the Followers of the
Master.
“It is ours,” Chris said. “A place for the Lords of
Time to perform their mystic rituals in the rarefied atmosphere of SangC’lune,
the blessed planet. We are the new Lords of Time and we will use what
is ours. The contamination of evil minds will have long dispersed.”
Thus reassured they followed him down into the tunnel. Carya, at his side,
was the only one unnerved by it. She was from a people who worshipped
the sun. She had only just become used to sleeping under a wooden roof
where she couldn’t see the stars at night. Now she was going into
the belly of a hill. In the light of the flickering torches carried by
her companions she looked up nervously.
“If you would rather stay above ground…” Chris suggested.
“No,” she assured him. “I will stay with you.”
And that settled it. She was scared. She was experiencing something she
scarcely imagined possible in her former life. But she was at the side
of the man she loved and she would not be parted from him.
They emerged from the tunnel on the gallery above the great cavern and
went single file down to the huge circular floor. There, the last time
they were here, the adherents of the Master had been attempting a ghastly
ritual that would have brought doom not only to SangC’lune and to
Earth, but to many other worlds, too.
This time, they didn’t know what was going to happen. As far as
their research had gone, nobody had tried this ritual for something like
fifty thousand years – more than a hundred generations of Time Lords.
But they knew it would be interesting and instructive.
The floor of the cavern was a natural rock, something like obsidian. It
was very hard. Chris’s young Gallifreyans smiled at each other and
thought longingly of the silk covered beds they had foregone in order
to spend the night in this ritual.
“I have trained you not to heed personal comfort while we are in
group meditation,” Chris told them.
“Yes, you did, Chris,” Brón answered him. “But
that doesn’t mean soft beds aren’t tempting.”
“Resist the temptation,” he answered them. “Come on,
form a circle.”
They knelt in a position he had taught them when they first came to his
Sanctuary, with their backs straight and their legs crossed in front of
them. Carya sat that way, too. She made herself a part of the circle,
sitting beside Chris.
“You won’t be able to sit still in that position for long,
sweetheart,” Chris told her. “Not on this surface. It takes
practice.”
But that didn’t move her. She maintained the position along with
the others as they cleared their minds and began to drop down into deep
trance states.
This was a level four trance according to Chris’s personal scale.
It was above the level where their bodies went rigid and cold, but deep
enough for them to be largely unaware of their physical environment, including
how cold and hard the floor was. Their Gallifreyan hearts were slowed
down. Their blood circulated slowly. Cramp and stiffness of limbs was
not an issue for them. They breathed once every ten minutes or so. Their
slowed bloodstream needed no more oxygen than that.
And their minds were free to reach out beyond their physical bodies and
create a mental plane where they planned to meet. That was the idea of
this experiment.
It was something like the virtual reality created by the Amplified Panatropic
Computer Network on Gallifrey. Except that was much bigger, much more
complex. The biological imprints of all Time Lords living or dead, stored
in an extradimensional framework of trillions of electrochemical cells
allowed a world to be created that was almost indistinguishable from reality.
The world they created with their five young Gallifreyan minds wasn’t
going to be quite so well developed as that.
But it wasn’t bad, Chris admitted as he looked around the landscape
they had created. It was a beach, a somewhat tropical beach, with palm
trees growing down to the high water mark and water that was several shades
of aquamarine and turquoise. He looked down at the fine white sand and
saw his own bare feet. He gave it a little more concentration and he could
feel the warmth of the sand. That wasn’t bad at all. This was merely
a psychic projection of his own body within the virtual landscape, but
he could feel heat, he could feel the texture of the sand between his
toes.
He was wearing a pair of shorts and a loose cotton shirt, unbuttoned to
the waist. It felt strange not to be wearing a robe.
He looked up at the sky. Of his students, all of Gallifreyan descent,
only Darryl had ever seen Gallifrey, and then only when she was a child.
To them, skies were blue – or sometimes grey. They imagined a blue
sky and a yellow sun that was starting to drop towards the horizon. It
would be sunset in a few hours. He wondered what kind of stars they might
conjure when darkness fell.
He was also wondering where the rest of his friends were. The plan was
for them all to try to appear in their created world.
“Change of plans, Chris,” said a voice he recognised as Brón’s
internal telepathic voice. It was distinctive because he always spoke
in Gallifreyan telepathically, but English when he spoke orally. The others
all used English in both forms of communication.
“What do you mean, change of plans?” he demanded.
“We’re going to concentrate on maintaining this little piece
of paradise, and you’re going to enjoy it, along with a little bit
of company.”
“What company?” Chris asked. Then he felt a soft hand touch
his. He looked around and saw Carya standing beside him, also barefoot,
and clothed in a bikini top and sarong.
“How can you be here?” he asked. “You’re not telepathic.”
“She’s been living on SangC’lune for a month,”
Brón told him. “She’s absorbed enough of the background
psychic for us to help her project into the reality.”
“And what do you lot expect us to do?”
“Do we need to draw you a diagram?” Shone’s telepathic
voice was giggly as she cut in. “Chris, she was married to you,
even if you didn’t think so. She’s kept the flame burning
for you. It’s time you accepted it. And it’s well past time
you had a honeymoon.”
“No!” he protested. “No, stop it now. That’s not
what this experiment was about. What do you think the old Time Lords of
Gallifrey would say? Using one of their rituals for… for…”
“We’re not going to break the ritual until morning,”
Darryl said. “So make the most of it, Chris. We’re not going
to look, or listen. But you’re there with a beautiful girl who adores
you. Stop worrying about everything else and enjoy yourself.”
He felt their voices fading away. He knew they were telling him the truth.
None of them would be watching. He was alone with her.
She was real. At least as real as he was, anyway. In truth, both of them
were kneeling silently in the great cavern. But their minds were here
on this beach together.
“All right,” he conceded. “Let’s go for a walk.”
He held her hand as they walked along the beautiful beach. At first they
didn’t talk. And it was Carya who opened the conversation.
“It’s because you still love that other woman… the one
whose grave you knelt by.”
“No,” Chris answered. “No, it isn’t that. I don’t
think… I…” He looked at the girl by his side. She was
different physically from Firinne. But they were the same in another way.
Their sweet devotion to him.
“Firrine would smile on you,” he admitted. “She would
think you quite suitable for me.”
“But you don’t,” she added. “Chris, I loved you
from the first moment I saw you, when you came to my village. I felt that
you were as good inside your soul as you were beautiful to behold. My
only fear was that my father would not give me to you. When he did…
I was overjoyed. But… but you… did not understand that I loved
you. And then… then… But you saved my life… you protected
me… and you took me away with you… into the sky… like
a god.”
“I’m not a god, Carya,” he told her. “I am really
not. If I were, I would be even less able to love you in the way you want
me to love you.”
“Why did you leave me on this world, Chris?” she asked. “Was
it to test if my love was true? If so, what more must I do to prove it?
Please, please do not reject me again. I think I would rather die than
live without you.”
“Don’t say that. I don’t want you to die. I care about
you. I truly do.”
He stopped walking and turned to her. The sun was dropping lower in the
sky. It was a very fast afternoon rapidly turning to evening. In the slanted
rays her dusky skin seemed an even deeper hue, and he was struck yet again
by her beauty. But he had seen beautiful women before without being moved
by them. She distracted him, certainly. He noticed her. If he closed his
eyes he knew he would be able to picture every aspect of her face.
He closed his eyes. And, yes, he could see her face. He could feel her
presence.
He opened his eyes and reached out to her. He vaguely remembered that
none of it was real and that when he touched her, it was just an illusion
of touch. But he stopped caring about that as he held her in his arms.
“My friends are making this illusion very good,” he said.
“This feels so nice.”
“You are beautiful, my Chris,” she replied, pressing her body
even closer than it was already.
“I think I am supposed to say that to you,” he answered. “Because
you most certainly ARE beautiful, Carya. And I….”
He caught his breath. His virtual reality breath. He pressed her close
to him again, her head resting on his shoulder. His mind was reeling.
He felt as if he wanted to let go, to give in to the emotions crowding
into him. But something still held him back. Part of it was his own inner
voice telling him that he would be a failure if he broke his vow of chastity.
But that voice was getting more and more difficult to hear, and the reasons
why he ought to listen to it seemed harder to grasp.
“Let’s walk a little more. The sun is setting fast. We should
see if my friends considered the possibility of shelter.”
The sun set splendidly, colouring the sky the burnt orange of the Gallifreyan
sky. But when it did, it got cold very quickly. And neither of them were
wearing very much.
“Well, I don’t think my friends intended for us to freeze
to death in this virtual world. We are bound to find shelter, soon.”
“What’s that, ahead?” Carya spotted it before Chris
did. There was a glow of a camp fire and a dark bulk of something behind
it. They hurried towards it. Chris laughed when he saw it. The fire was
burning very nicely, and there was a pile of nicely dried driftwood to
stoke it with. The dark bulk turned out to be a rough shelter made of
brushwood and palm leaves. Inside was a low palette made of more flotsam
and jetsam and beside it a bottle of wine and a basket of what proved
to be bread, cheese and fruit.
“I think this is our honeymoon suite,” Chris sighed. “They’ve
really set us up. Well, a picnic by a warm camp fire under some very impressive
stars isn’t a bad idea. Are you hungry?”
“A little,” Carya replied. She sat by the fire as Chris brought
the food and wine. They drank and ate. Chris looked closer at the stars.
They didn’t seem to correspond to any constellations he recognised.
“They are the stars that shine on my home world,” Carya said
with a catch in her voice. “I never thought to see them again.”
“Either my friends were very observant when we were there, or they
have used the memory from your mind. But if you want to see those stars,
we can do this again. The ritual is complicated, but not arduous. I am
sure we can recreate your sky if you want.”
“I don’t care what stars are over me as long as I am with
you,” she replied. “Chris…”
“Don’t say anything,” he told her. “I’ve
been coerced into this. First your father and his rituals, now my own
students conspiring against me. But… but I think… maybe…”
He didn’t say anything else for a long time. It wasn’t the
first time he had kissed her. But it was the first time he had done so
for no other reason than that he wanted to kiss her.
“Carya,” he said when he remembered that she came from a race
that didn’t have the ability to recycle their breathing. “I…
I think I do love you. And… I want you… to… I want…”
He glanced at the bed within the shelter. It was wide enough for two to
sleep comfortably, or to engage in any other activity that went on in
a bed.
But it wasn’t a real bed, and neither of them were really there.
He had forgotten that several times in the past hour. He remembered it,
now.
If he brought Carya to this bed, in this unreal world, and consummated
their ‘marriage’, would it still be binding upon them when
their minds returned to their bodies in the cavern where they were both
kneeling in silent meditation?
He stood and piled more wood on the fire, then he reached out his hand
to her. He brought her to the bed.
“My wife,” he whispered as he kissed her again and reached
to loosen the scraps of clothing that she wore. She gasped happily, if
nervously, and trembled in anticipation of what was to come.
He trembled, too, as he embarked upon a turning point in his life as significant
as the day he transcended.
But one that was far less painful, and far more pleasurable.
Afterwards, he gathered her in his arms and held her close. His double
hearts slowed to their normal syncopated rhythm as his body cooled.
But his mind was running ahead.
“When I leave SangC’lune this time…” He felt her
catch her breath. “No, my love. This time you’re coming with
me. To Earth. It will be a bit of a shock to you, I’m afraid. It’s
very different from your home or from SangC’lune. But we’ll
live in my Sanctuary most of the time. It’s peaceful there. I’ll
show you London when you’re ready. You’ll meet my brother,
though. And my little sister. She’ll be so excited. Mum and dad….”
He wasn’t sure what he was going to say to his parents about this.
Of course, he was old enough to take a wife without anyone’s permission.
But it was going to be a bit of a shock to them.
“I just want to be with you, Chris,” she told him.
“You will be,” he answered.
A stray thought crept into his mind, reminding him that he had made plans
like this before, with Firinne. He had dreamt of a life with her by his
side, working with him in the Sanctuary, learning and growing together.
And that dream had been ripped apart.
Chris did something he rarely did. He had learnt that he could do it when
he was very young, before he even fully understood his mental powers.
And what he saw so often frightened him that he stopped doing it.
But he wanted to be sure his hearts wouldn’t be broken again.
So he reached and held her hand between both of his and closed his eyes.
He found her timeline. It was slightly fractured because she had travelled
in the time vortex when he brought her to SangC’lune.
But he saw enough to be sure that history would not repeat itself so cruelly.
“You’ll love living on Earth,” he told her. She murmured
a drowsy reply. He kissed her cheek and watched her fall into a blissful
and satisfied sleep before he closed his own eyes, wondering if going
to sleep in a virtual reality, when he was already in a deep meditation,
was even possible. Perhaps it was virtual sleep to follow his virtual
lovemaking.
But he slept, anyway.
It was near dawn in the virtual world when Carya woke and sighed happily
to feel Chris’s arms around her. He was her husband, now. She, too,
knew that this was not the real consummation she still waited upon, but
it had felt real enough. It still did.
Then she heard something that she never expected to hear in the peaceful
place that they were in. Somebody was calling for help. She turned and
looked at Chris. He would help anyone who needed him, of course. But he
was sleeping. She kissed his cheek and slid from the bed, wrapping the
shirt he wore last night around her slender body as she stepped onto the
beach.
The voice was louder now. It was in very great distress. She looked around
in the pale morning light. Then she began to run towards the incoming
tide.
There were two people there, some dozen yards out in the water. They were
clinging to a piece of wood and being pushed first closer to the beach,
then swept back again as the tide receded. They were obviously too weak
to help themselves.
Carya had never seen an ocean before. She had never learned to swim. But
she didn’t think about that as she ran into the water. She was engulfed
almost immediately by a wave, but kept to her feet and pressed forward
towards the two stricken people.
The next wave did knock her off her feet. She closed her eyes and mouth
and held her breath as she struggled upright, and as she did so, she felt
something hard by her shoulder. She grabbed at the piece of wood and then
grasped the boy who was clinging to it. He wrapped his arms around her
neck in his panic. She reached out and grabbed the hand of the girl and
turned to move back towards the shore. The water was up to her shoulders
even when it was receding, and twice more she and the two victims were
engulfed by incoming waves. But the force of the tide pushed her a little
closer to the dry land. She found her footing again in the sand and the
water was only waist height. She managed to get the girl to stand up in
it and urged her forward as she held on desperately to the boy.
They were almost there when another powerful wave pushed the abandoned
chunk of driftwood towards them. Carya cried out as it struck her on the
head. It stunned her and left her feeling dizzy and sick, and for a moment
she wasn’t even sure which way she was trying to go. Then she redoubled
her effort and struggled through the tide until she reached the shallows.
The girl ran ahead onto the soft dry sand. The boy let go of her and stumbled
onto the wet sand that the tide was starting to claim.
Carya sank to her knees. Her vision was blurred and she felt as if the
ocean was screaming in her ears. She was fighting to stay conscious.
Then a pair of arms were reaching for her. Chris lifted her from the water,
holding her close to his chest. She managed to say his name before everything
went black.
She woke in darkness, lit by flickering torchlight. She was puzzled at
first before she realised she was in the cavern underground. The unreal
world of the beach and the sea, and the shelter where she had lain with
Chris through the night was gone now.
But Chris wasn’t. He was sitting on the obsidian floor, holding
her in his arms. She reached out and touched his face and he smiled at
her.
“It doesn’t hurt now,” she said.
“When you fell unconscious in the virtual world I brought you back,”
he told her. “I mended the wound with my sonic screwdriver. I am
so glad you’re all right. When I saw you were gone from my side
I was so worried. Then I saw you in the water… My dear, you were
so brave.”
“Where are they?” she asked. “The boy and girl…
are they…”
“They are quite all right,” Chris answered. “Look.”
He turned with her in his arms. She gasped as she saw two figures standing
nearby. They were the boy and girl she had rescued. But they were strange,
almost see through, and shining with a blue-green light that came from
within them.
“They are îngeras?” she asked. Chris wondered why the
word she knew for ‘angels’ didn’t translate, but it
was a pretty good description of the beings that had come out of the virtual
reality with them.
“They are called malokhim,” Chris said. “They are appearing
now in the form that you saw them so that you can understand that they
are alive and well. You did save their lives, Carya. But their true form
is as pure energy. They move through the universe, indeed, through dimensions
between universes, for the same reason I do – to learn and to meet
new beings and be enriched by those meetings. They came to SangC’lune,
attracted by the natural background psyche. But they were accidentally
caught up in our experiment. In the virtual world they took on humanoid
form, but they were caught up in the sea, and they would have died if
you hadn’t helped them. When they take on a corporeal form they
are subject to the weaknesses of that form. They were drowning. But you,
my dear, saved them. And they want to thank you.”
The malokhim moved closer. Chris held Carya in his arms as the entities
became much brighter and their light shone upon both their faces. They
gradually lost those humanoid forms and became more like two very bright
lights. Then they rose up towards the roof of the cavern, and melted into
it as if it was as insubstantial as they were. Tons of rock and earth
were no barrier to beings like them.
“That was a blessing on the both of us,” Chris said when they
were again in the flickering half dark. “The malokhim think you
and I are meant to be together, too. I think I know when to take a hint.
Come on, sweetheart.”
He stood, drawing her up with him. They walked up the steps to the gallery.
Chris turned and snapped his fingers and the torches in the cavern went
out. As they walked along the tunnel to the open air the torches went
out behind them until they emerged into a bright SangC’lune morning.
Carya gasped in surprise as she looked at the tent of silk satin cloth
that had been erected a short walk from the temple. She looked at Chris
for explanations.
“The villagers did it, instigated by my conspiratorial friends.
“It’s… for us. It’s… so that we can continue
for real what we began in the virtual world.”
“Oh.” Chris smiled as she blushed, deepening the colour of
her cheeks delightfully. “Then…”
“Like I said, I can take a hint,” Chris said as he brought
her to the tent and found the preparations much as they were in the virtual
reality. A low bed covered in more silk and satin and soft pillows was
the centrepiece. There was a basket of food for their breakfast and a
cool flagon of goats milk as well as wine for later.
They ate some breakfast, then they lay down together on the bed. Chris
reached and kissed her tenderly.
“In my culture, a wedding lasts for twelve hours and we make lots
of solemn and binding and utterly irreversible vows,” he said. “It’s
a huge, important day for everyone. But we’ve already gone beyond
that point. You’re my wife, Carya. I accept that. And I love you.
If I ever doubted it before, waking to find you gone from my side…
I felt so bereft. And when I saw you in the water… when I thought
you might be killed… as my poor Firinne was… my hearts almost
broke. I couldn’t bear the thought of losing you, too. I love you,
Carya. I will love you for all your life long.”
She said nothing. She closed her arms around his neck and surrendered
to his kisses and the passion of a man and a woman that came with the
kisses. They had both experienced it before in the virtual world. But
this time it was real.
This time Chris really did give up his ideas about celibacy. And there
was no voice in his head to tell him he shouldn’t.
“So…” Susan smiled at her son. “You’ve
spent the past fortnight on your honeymoon… on SangC’lune!”
“Yes,” Chris answered. “The villagers brought us food
and goats milk and lots of wine every day and left us to our own devices.
My students carried on with their rituals without me, and did very well
in them, in fact. And we…” He looked at Carya and smiled warmly.
“We lived in a universe of our own with just two people in it. And
it was wonderful. But… sooner or later I knew I would have to come
home and face the music. I’m sorry to spring this on you, mum. And
I don’t know what dad will say. This is not exactly what either
you would have expected…”
“Your brother is going to have the huge Gallifreyan wedding when
he marries Brenda next year,” Susan said. “We can forgive
you for cutting a few corners. And your father will be as happy for you
as I am. But you’d better let me explain it to him.”
Chris happily agreed with that idea.
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