Grace Holloway pulled off her hat and gloves as she slid into a window
seat in a warm café. The Doctor went to the counter to order coffee
and sandwiches. They looked, for all the world, like two ordinary people.
She looked out of the window at a cold but cheerful looking city. London,
England, on New Year’s Eve.
New Year’s Eve, 1999, to be precise. The big advantage of travelling
with a Time Lord was that opportunities were never lost. The Millennium
Eve first time round had been a terrifying experience. She had even ACTUALLY
died briefly. Getting to live through the big night again without having
to prevent the end of the world was a mind-blowing thing.
“We’re eight hours ahead of San Francisco,” she said
as he sat and the clock over the coffee machine said it was midday. “So…
it’s still four o’clock in the morning, there. You and I haven’t
actually met. At least… not this version of you. And I suppose I
can’t really say I MET the version of you that died on the operating
table.”
“Sadly, no,” The Doctor admitted. He did have a very hazy
memory of blue eyes above a surgical mask, but no, they had not really
been introduced.
“Do you… feel anything?” she asked. “Being here
on Earth at the same time… you know… as your regeneration….”
“No. I’m fine. I thought I might, but there’s nothing.
I think the eight-hour time zone difference is protecting me.”
“Well, that’s ok, then. If it was a problem for you, we could
give up the idea.”
“I’m fine. I’m trying not to think about it too much.
The Master… he’s already murdered the paramedic, Bruce, and
taken over his body. But even if he hadn’t, I can’t change
any of those events. There was already a potential rip in the fabric of
space-time. Adding a paradox wouldn’t be a good idea.”
“Yeah, I couldn’t help wondering if I ought to ring myself
up and… I don’t know… tell myself to be nicer to the
weird guy in the elevator.”
“That’s the very definition of a paradox. Let’s just
let our earlier selves sort out the end of the world. You and I are just
going to see in the New Year and the New Millennium together.”
The waitress brought their order. For a few minutes they ate and drank
quietly. Grace looked outside at bustling London. Traditionally, the sales
didn’t start until tomorrow, but there was a lot of shopping going
on. There were a few people who had already started drinking in the New
Year, weaving along the pavement and occasionally into the traffic.
The sheer normality of it all was enjoyable. She had spent so many days
with The Doctor on strange planets or exotic parts of Earth. They had
spent Christmas in Tudor England wearing amazing clothes and eating unbelievable
amounts of roasted meat and too few vegetables. To actually be somewhere
as normal as London in her own lifetime was refreshing.
Not that she minded all those wonderful places, but it WAS refreshing.
“I never realised how much had changed since the Millennium,”
she remarked. “Fashions, cars, the size of cell phones… the
way people use cell phones… to make calls, still, not living their
lives through social media. All that is to come, yet. And a lot of bad
stuff. Even after we stopped The Master from wrecking the world, human
beings have had a good try at messing it up by themselves.”
“It’s still a wonderful planet full of amazing people who
do remarkable things,” The Doctor told her. “The amazing people
will always outnumber the ones with blackness in their souls.”
“Your faith in the human race is never dented,” Grace answered.
“That’s what is totally amazing about you.”
He smiled widely and accepted the compliment. He refrained, as always,
from telling her that she was only twenty years away from a Nobel Prize
for medicine and three hundred years away from a space borne hospital
ship named after her. She WAS one of the amazing humans. She just hadn’t
realised it herself, yet.
Grace looked out of the window again and savoured the ordinariness of
the post-Christmas scene.
Then something extraordinary startled her. She turned her head, quickly,
wondering if anyone else had noticed, then back again to the window.
Everything was as it should be. The thing she saw – or thought she
saw – was gone.
The Doctor had obviously seen nothing.
She decided not to mention it.
She didn’t want strange things happening. She wanted ‘ordinary’
to continue. Telling The Doctor would only acknowledge that something
was happening. They would have to pay attention to it.
Another Millennium Eve with something distracting them.
No. That wouldn’t do. She had to ignore it. She had to stick to
the ‘ordinary’.
The Doctor seemed to be of the same mind. After their café lunch
they headed for the West End and the matinee performance of The Snowman
at the Peacock Theatre. What was more ‘ordinary’ than that?
Except….
She was waiting in the busy foyer while The Doctor collected their tickets
from the box office and bought a big box of chocolates for them to share
during the performance. She wasn’t really paying a lot of attention
to anything,
Then she looked at a woman who walked past carrying a copy of the glossy
show programme.
The woman was….
No, it was all right. The woman was quite ordinary. She joined a perfectly
ordinary man and carried on towards the steps to the Circle.
Grace shook her head firmly and then adopted an unconcerned smile as The
Doctor returned to her side.
“Shall we go in?” he asked.
“Yes, let’s.”
Inside the theatre her only problem was the one any adult couple had going
to a Christmas show of any sort. They were outnumbered by children of
various ages and various levels of fidgeting, rustling sweets and needing
the toilet in the middle of the performance. Nevertheless, Grace enjoyed
the live production of Raymond Briggs’ famous illustrated book and
the later animation. The music and dancing and the spectacular wire work
that reproduced the flying scenes kept her attention and stopped her brooding
upon what she had thought she had seen twice, now.
Three fun-filled hours later they emerged into a London that was now dark
but thoroughly festive with lights and decorated shop fronts. It was cold
but not bitterly so. They walked amongst the crowds in the West End where
a buzz of excitement was beginning to build.
Grace would have enjoyed it much better if she didn’t keep seeing
strange people everywhere. They were never in groups, just individuals,
but she had counted a dozen of them between Shaftesbury Avenue and Leicester
Square where they listened to the starlings in the trees still making
more noise than the gathering crowds of revellers.
She had seen a dozen more before they reached Trafalgar Square where they
intended to see in the Millennium. By now, she was starting to wonder
if was hallucinating, or just going crazy.
And if she wasn’t, what was she seeing? What were these people?
Was there an alien invasion going on?
Could it be that?
If so, it was the strangest invasion she had ever heard of. These seemed
to look like ordinary people, moving amongst humans in ways that attracted
no attention at all. Only in brief moments, out of the corner of her eye,
did their true forms appear, and then they looked normal again.
She looked closely at the people around her. They were all very different
ages and social classes, men and women in equal numbers. They were enjoying
music and other entertainments and buying hot food to help keep them warm
as the night deepened.
And they were all, apparently, human.
But when she wasn’t looking closely, when she looked quickly, when
she turned her head and glanced at a group of revellers…
... Then she saw something completely different… something that
didn’t belong here in Trafalgar Square, in London, on planet Earth.
“Are you all right?” The Doctor asked as he handed her a small,
pointed paper bag that was warm through her gloves.
“I’m… fine,” she answered. “What is this?”
“Hot chestnuts, good old-fashioned English winter food. Think Mary
Poppins. I’ve bought hot chestnuts at all the great Frost Fairs
of the nineteenth century. I’m so glad they still do them.”
Grace tried a hot chestnut. It was a new flavour to her. They really didn’t
have that sort of thing in San Francisco. She liked the taste. She liked
the crumbly texture. She liked the warmth of this strange street food.
The Doctor smiled widely at her American appreciation of this peculiarly
English tradition and took it with a very misplaced sense of pride. Being
with Grace reminded him how strange it was that he identified with Britain
more than any other part of Earth, considering that he came from a planet
a very long way off.
“I should take you to a Frost Fair, sometime,” he continued.
“I think you’d love it.”
“I would love it with you,” Grace answered. “Though,
of course, it would have to be with you. Who else would take me to the
nineteenth century?”
She was rambling, trying to keep up the conversation and keeping her mind
off the thing that was bothering her so much.
She was still seeing aliens, or maybe demons or…
… or something.
What was happening around her? And why hadn’t The Doctor seen it?
“Maybe I AM going mad,” she thought.
And that was the most terrifying thought. Her intellect, her skills as
a surgeon, were the things she expected to stay with her when the physical
attributes of youth had faded. They were the most precious things she
had.
What would happen to her if she couldn’t rely on her mind? Her job,
any prospects of academic publication…
What about The Doctor? He wouldn’t abandon her, of course. But their
relationship had always been more or less that of intellectual equals.
Granted, he knew more about alien worlds than she did, but he never treated
her as less than his soul mate.
She didn’t want that to change. She didn’t want to be dependent
on him in any way. She didn’t want him to be tied to her, looking
after her as she sank deeper into oblivion.
She didn’t want him pitying her.
She didn’t even realise it at first, but tears were running down
her cheeks, mingling with the cold flakes of rather soggy snow that were
coming down on the undaunted revellers.
“Grace, what’s the matter?” The Doctor asked, brushing
a cold tear from her cheek. “Why are you crying?”
“Ohhh!” She couldn’t explain, not just then. She just
pressed her face against his chest as he folded her in his arms. She cried
for a long time while he held her tight. It felt, to her, as if it might
be the very last time he held her at all. Once she explained….
“It’s all right, whatever it is,” he assured her. “If
its San Francisco… that’s all in the past for me and you,
even if it’s still the future…. I mean… really, it’s
all just fine.”
“It’s not that,” she managed, then in a muddle of not
quite coherent sentences she talked about her fear of losing her mind
and all the horrible consequences, especially for their relationship.
“But, why do you think you’re losing your mind?” he
asked her.
“I keep seeing… creatures… inhuman… things…
all around me. I mean… they look human… but they’re
not.”
“Here? Now?” The Doctor was puzzled. He glanced around at
the festive crowds. Then he understood.
“These creatures… are they more or less human except that
they have two faces, front and back of their heads?”
“Y…yyyes,” she stammered. “What… you can
see them?”
The Doctor turned and touched the shoulder of a man wearing a warm woollen
scarf and hat.
“Excuse me, sir,” he said. “Might I introduce my very
special friend, Miss Grace Holloway of San Francisco, California.”
The man turned and smiled warmly. He shook hands with Grace. She reciprocated
a little nervously, because now it wasn’t just an uncertain glance.
Now she knew she was shaking hands with a man who had a second face at
the back, slightly hidden by the hat.
“Happy New Year,” he said to her. She managed to stammer a
reply.
“Happy New Year,” The Doctor said to the two-faced man. “Thank
you for your time.”
The man tipped his hat politely and moved away. Grace watched his second
face wink at her in a friendly but still rather disconcerting way.
“Coffee,” The Doctor said. “Let’s warm you up
and I will explain.”
“Yes… but….”
He held her hand as they wove through increasingly dense crowds to a van
selling hot drinks. She tried not to be unnerved by the fact that the
coffee was served by another two-faced man.
“You’re not going mad,” The Doctor assured her. “There
really ARE people with two faces all over London. They’re all over
the world, actually. If you look at the tv coverage of the celebrations
in Sydney or Rio, Paris, New York… now you know they are here you’ll
spot them in all the crowds.”
“I don’t understand.”
“They’re called the Children of Janus. Like the Roman god
of doorways. They… as you have seen… have two faces. It’s
quite normal for them. They can see where they’re going as well
as where they’ve been. They came to Earth a couple of centuries
ago after their world was rendered uninhabitable by a comet strike. They
liked humans. They still like you, despite certain characteristics such
as being scared of the unknown. They use a sort of perception filter to
appear ‘normal’ to you all, of course. They’ve lived
that way for generations, quietly, unobtrusively….”
“No, that’s the Borrowers,” Grace answered him, managing
a laugh despite herself.
“Yes, them, too,” The Doctor agreed. “The Janus are
among humans, but they mean no harm. They just want to get on with their
lives.”
“So why have I suddenly seen so many of them tonight?”
“Partly because you have been in the TARDIS so much, you are starting
to see through perception cloaks. You can probably spot magicians tricks,
too. Your eyes are accustomed to seeing what is REALLY there.”
“Ok… and…”.
“And there are a lot of them about because the Janus love New Years’
Eve. It’s the one human celebration that resembles their own. They
come out in force to celebrate. In fact, it’s the Janus who first
started the idea of these street parties, like this, really. Humans just
joined in with them.”
“Seriously?”
“Seriously. You should have seen New Years’ Eve on their world.
It was even louder and more colourful than anything you humans could devise,
even for this Millennium celebration.”
“Well, why didn’t you tell me?” Grace asked. “I’ve
been so worried all afternoon. I thought… I thought all sorts of
things.”
The Doctor smiled and hugged her tightly. Grace sighed and let all of
her anxieties drop away. Around her, humans and Janus, and one Time Lord
were ready to celebrate the New Year.
What was there to worry about?
“Happy Millennium, Grace,” The Doctor whispered in her ear.
“Happy Millennium, Doctor,” she answered.
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