Donna was having a good time - the sort of good time that
made her so glad she had taken that one in a million chance and gone travelling
with The Doctor. They were on a planet called Ux-Pa-Ly. It had a sky that
looked like blue and white marble – not cloudy, just naturally that
way. The only city was entirely built of opaque crystal glass and populated
by people with green and orange marbled skin and no hair, whether male
or female.
For the past couple of hours she had been wandering around
an open air market in a huge marble-flagged square overlooked by glittering
glass buildings. The stalls all had glass roofs, too and they sold everything
from shining exotic fruits of all colours and shapes, to an array of mouth
watering cheeses, dresses made from amazingly beautiful cloth, shoes,
hand made costume jewellery to die for, everything she loved to buy when
she had money to spare.
And The Doctor had made sure she had money. He had given
her a cloth bag full of various sizes of thin silver discs that were the
local currency and told her to go mad with it while he checked out the
nearby library where there was a rare book collection he was interested
in.
Donna wasn’t a total shopaholic, but being let loose
with what she soon found out was quite a lot of spending money, she was
in her element. She picked out two dresses she just couldn’t walk
away from, and a belt, handbag, shoes, earrings to go with them. She found
a perfume stall with fragrances so powerful they almost physically knocked
her down. A very small bottle would last her a year. She bought a whole
basket of the exotic fruits and a bag full of the cheeses. She had a sudden
moment of doubt when she wondered if The Doctor liked cheese. For all
she knew, cheese could be a deadly poison to Time Lords. If so, she’d
be eating it herself for a month. But it just all looked so good.
She went a bit mad in among the jewellery stalls, too.
She liked fashion jewellery, bright, bold things like dangly earrings
and necklaces, sparkly bracelets and all of that. The craftpeople here
were able to do amazingly creative things with coloured crystals and some
bits of silver and gold for fastenings. She could have bought a whole
stall full if there wasn’t a limit to the currency the bag could
hold.
She remembered The Doctor, too. She bought him a present
of a pair of cufflinks and a tie pin with deep blue rectangular shaped
costume jewels that reminded her of the TARDIS. She had never seen him
wear cufflinks and the only tie pin he ever wore was an old pink girl’s
hairslide that looked like it had seen better days, but maybe they could
go somewhere posh sometime and he would wear them.
Then, when the money bag was really feeling light and
her shopping bags quite heavy, she spotted the necklace. It was hanging
from a frame on a stall full of glittering, pretty things, but it stood
out because it wasn’t just pretty, but really beautiful. The chain
was twisted silver links, nothing showy, but the pendant was quite unusual.
It was a single crystal, long and thin, tapering like a carrot or…
what were the ones that hung down from cave roofs… stalactites.
It caught the light and refracted it into a spectrum of twenty different
colours, some of which Donna had no name for.
“Oh…” she whispered as she touched the
jewel and searched for the little price label on the chain. “Oh,
I wish I had a hundred uxits left to buy that.”
Then she felt something heavy in her pocket and found
it was a hundred uxit coin. She was sure she only had a few of the smaller
uxis left. But…
She handed over the coin and the stall holder put the
pendant into a paper bag. She held it in one hand and her other bags of
shopping in the other and manoeuvred her way through the crowds to a wooden
bench on the edge of the market, next to a children’s play area
where youngsters with marbled skin and no hair were behaving just like
every child she had ever seen in a playground.
She unwrapped the pendant and put it on.
“Oh,” she said to herself. “This old
blouse looks so dull. I wish I could change into the blue dress I bought.
It would look so good.
She blinked. She was wearing the blue dress, and the belt
and shoes that went with it. And it looked sensational. She briefly wondered
how come she had instantly changed her clothes in broad daylight, outside,
without anyone pointing fingers at the interim point where she was in
her underwear but dismissed it as irrelevant. The important thing was
that she looked and felt fantastic.
She heard somebody sobbing. She looked around and there
was a woman standing there, looking distraught. She was trying to explain
to somebody on the other end of a communicator shaped like a seashell
that she had lost her money. The whole one hundred uxit coin must have
slipped out of her bag. She couldn’t buy any food for the week.
Donna felt a bit guilty about having spent so much on
a necklace when, in the local economy, that was a week’s food.
“I wish I had some money left,” she whispered.
Then she looked into the cloth bag. It didn’t have a hundred uxit
coin, but there were a lot more of the small ones left than she thought.
“Excuse me,” she said, and pressed the bag
into the crying woman’s hand. “Please… take this. Don’t
cry…and…look, I know it’s charity and I’m probably
offending your dignity and all that kind of thing, but if you need to
buy food…”
The woman looked into the bag and managed a watery smile.
She took the money and thanked her for her kindness before heading towards
a cheese stall. Donna felt she had done her good deed for the day.
She went to sit down again and was aware of a noise in
the playground that had nothing to do with play. A tall girl who was probably
too big to be using the swings anyway, had pushed a smaller one off and
taken her place. The small girl was crying. Donna’s sense of natural
justice stirred. She hated bullies, especially playground ones. Some things
about the universe never changed.
“I wish you’d get a taste of your own medicine,”
she said.
Then she, and the children in the playground, all stared
as the bully began to scream and cry and beg somebody to stop kicking
her. She held up her hands as if to ward of blows and ran from the playground.
The others watched her run away into the press of people in the market
and then went back to their play.
“Well, that was odd,” Donna thought. “Did
I… no… I couldn’t have… could I?”
She put her hand on the pendant thoughtfully. Then she
looked at the bench she was sitting on.
“I wish this was a garden swing seat with a tasselled
canopy over it,” she said.
“Wow!” She looked up at the canopy and swung
the seat experimentally. “Wow. I wonder…”
She thought of a few more frivolous uses she could have
put this sudden gift to, but then decided against it. Maybe there was
a limit on the wishes and she didn’t want to waste them. She could
do better than that.
She thought of some big wishes. A million pounds in the
bank. No, that was just greedy. And end to world hunger, no more wars?
Then again, which world? If there were people on this planet who went
hungry for losing the price of a fashion necklace, then all these sparkling
glass edifices hid an uncomfortable reality. And how could a wish just
end a war? What if the war was necessary to get rid of a tyrant who tortured
and hurt people?
The big wishes were good. But she wasn’t sure she
was ready for them. Maybe she should get in some practice first with smaller
things.
She spotted The Doctor coming from the library. He looked
pleased with himself. He was probably going to go on for hours about some
dull old manuscript he had seen until she might as well not even be there.
She could sit a Donna clockwork doll beside him and have it make interested
noises every so often.
She wasn’t criticising him. But sometimes, it would
be nice if he would be a bit less of a Doctor, and a bit more of a man.
She wished he would come up to her now, when she looked and felt fabulous
and tell her that she looked fabulous.
“Oh,” she murmured. “That was a wish,
wasn’t it. I wonder…”
“Donna!” The Doctor smiled brightly. “That
is an absolutely fabulous dress. You look sensational. Did you get it
in the market? Nice shoes, too.”
“Thanks,” she relied with a smile.
“Strange kind of park bench,” he added. “You
didn’t buy that, too, did you? I’m not sure it will fit through
the TARDIS doors.”
“No, I didn’t buy the seat,” she answered.
“I got loads of cheese, though. You do like cheese, I hope?”
“Love it,” he replied. “Shall I help
you carry some of those bags? We’ll leave the cheese in the TARDIS
fridge and go and have tea in the revolving restaurant at the top of the
Ux-Pa-Ly sky tower.”
“Lovely.”
The revolving restaurant gave all round views of the crystal city and
of the plain that surrounded it. Donna found that fascinating as she ate.
It was like looking out at a city floating on an ocean, because the plain
wasn’t grass. It was, as The Doctor explained, covered in crystal
formations, most no more than grains, so that it was like a blue sandy
desert. Others growing like geometrical trees, some actually big enough
to be marked on maps as a hazard to navigation or a tourist attraction.
There were some pictures on the restaurant walls of some of the more famous
of them.
“We can go see it all later,” The Doctor said.
“I can put the TARDIS in hover mode and we’ll skim across
it. We’ll head south, towards the setting sun. It’s very spectacular
at sunset.”
“Yeah, that would be nice,” Donna replied.
“We see a lot of sunsets, don’t we? I think I’ve seen
about fifty sunsets on alien planets with you. All of them fantastic.”
“You’re not…” The Doctor looked
doubtful. “You’re not saying you’re bored with sunsets
are you? I mean… we don’t have to do that if you’d rather
not…”
“No, not at all. It’s a great idea. I was
just… commenting… that we see a lot of sunsets.”
“It’s me. I like looking at them. Because…
because… most planets with oxygen-rich atmospheres have blue skies.
It’s a physics thing. My home, Gallifrey… you remember the
yellow-orange sky. When I look at a blue sky turning red and orange at
sunset… it reminds me of home… in a good way.”
“Doesn’t seem good. The look on your face
right now,” Donna said. “I’m sorry. I… oh…
I wish I’d never said anything about it at all.”
Donna blinked. She looked at The Doctor.
“Sorry… I was miles away. What did you just
say?”
“I said that the crystal plain is spectacular at
sunset. The sun… reflects off the sky and off the land, too. The
blue sky, the blue land, both turn wonderful shades of red. It’s
really beautiful.”
“Wonderful,” Donna said enthusiastically.
“You always think of the best things to show me. I am having a wonderful
time as your secretary. You’ll have to give me some typing to do
some time, so I can earn my keep.”
The Doctor laughed. They both knew he didn’t need
a secretary. But in a million years she would not have accepted if he’d
said ‘come and be my travelling companion’. Secretary made
it respectable, made her more than a hitchhiker.
The sunset on the Crystal Plain was spectacular. They
both enjoyed it, standing outside the TARDIS in the shadow of one of the
really big crystal outcrops called ‘the long man’ for reasons
that would have made some of Donna’s friends in Chiswick giggle
and her mum get very prim and proper. But they weren’t looking at
him, or any of his dimensions. They were watching the sky and the land
turn golden as the sun dropped lower.
As it slid fully below the horizon, Donna heard The Doctor
sigh a little sadly. If she hadn’t heard him talk about Gallifrey
earlier, she probably wouldn’t even have noticed. As it was, she
looked at him and thought his eyes seemed deeper and darker than usual.
“I wish he would let me comfort him,” she
thought before she remembered she had used the words ‘I wish’
again. A moment later she was too busy hugging The Doctor as he turned
to her and put his head on her shoulder, crying softly. It was the sort
of moment that Hollywood moguls called a money shot, the spectacular sunset
and a man with the universe on his shoulders unburdening himself to her.
But it was wrong. The Doctor wasn’t like that. He
bore his burdens quietly and without tears and drama. And maybe that was
wrong. Maybe he ought to book himself into a good therapist and get some
post-traumatic stress relief. But it was how he chose to deal with his
problems and this wasn’t right.
“Ok, I wish we could roll things back a bit here,”
she said. “To just before the sunset.
It didn’t ‘roll back’ as such. It was
more like a jump back. They were watching the sun disappear and The Doctor
sighed once again, but Donna ignored it. And a moment later he turned
and grinned at her and suggested cocoa and biscuits before bed.
“Tomorrow, let’s make it a literary day,”
he added as they went back to the TARDIS. “How about… I don’t
know, breakfast with W.B. Yeats, lunch with Agatha Christie, tea with
Tolkein, supper with HG Wells. Herbert is always glad to see me. I inspired
some of his best work.”
“Do you mean all of that or do I pick?” Donna
asked.
“All of them. That’s what being a time traveller
is for. Watch out for Yeats. He’s a bit of a ladies man. Keep his
hands where you can see them.”
“He’ll get a slapping from me if he tries
anything,” Donna answered. The Doctor laughed and went to set their
co-ordinates and make the cocoa. Donna sat down on the sofa in the console
room and thought about what had happened in the past few hours.
“I can make things come true just by wishing! Even
if I can’t do the world hunger thing, I can still wish some good
stuff for myself. A nice house, a car, a man… a future husband.
Need one of those.”
At least she always thought she did. Every office she
stepped into as a temp she had hoped that somebody with prospects would
smile at her and maybe ask her if she was doing anything Saturday night,
and she would be on her way to domestic bliss.
It never happened.
But funnily enough, right now, she didn’t need that.
She had everything she wanted right now. She had travel in time and space,
sunsets on fifty different worlds – fifty-one now. She had The Doctor.
She didn’t want to marry him. She didn’t see him as the man
she kept house for in the leafy suburbia of her dreams. But he was the
best friend she had ever had and he could take her to places beyond her
imagination.
“Ok,” she thought. “But one day I’ll
have to move on. I can’t stay with him forever. Maybe I can use
the wishes as a sort of short cut to meeting the man of my dreams and
him realising I’m the woman of his dreams. They’re my fall
back, for after this is over.”
The Doctor brought the cocoa and they sat together drinking
and talking quietly as the TARDIS slid through the time and space vortex.
Presently Donna said she would go to bed.
“Goodnight, Donna,” The Doctor told her. “Sleep
well.” As she disappeared through the inner door, he watched thoughtfully.
“Take care, please, Donna,” he said in a quiet voice. Don’t
let the power go to your head. Control it, and it will be all right.”
In the morning, the TARDIS had landed in Dublin in 1910.
They had breakfast in a café called Bewleys that made very aromatic
coffee and excellent food with the poet and writer, William Butler Yeats.
Donna might have heard of him if she had paid attention to English literature
instead of Colin Fisher, the boy who sat two seats away in class. He and
The Doctor talked enthusiastically about books and poetry and the news
in the day’s papers. Donna ate her breakfast, noting that cholesterol
and calories didn’t seem to something people worried about in 1910
and wished she could eat what she wanted without putting on weight. Then
she felt the belt on her dress slacken suddenly and noticed that she was
a good inch thinner than she was before.
“Ok, that’s good,” she thought. “I
mean, I didn’t wish to look like a supermodel, just to be able to
eat a fried breakfast without feeling guilty. I mean, it’s ok, isn’t
it?”
She certainly hoped it was ok. Because she seemed to find
herself eating nearly all day. Breakfast in Dublin took until ten o’clock,
with several rounds of fresh toast and gallons of coffee. And then they
travelled to London in 1937, where they attended a literary luncheon in
Mayfair to celebrate the publication of Agatha Christie’s latest
novel, Death on the Nile. Donna found it hard to remember they were talking
about a new book, and not the latest TV adaptation of it and concentrated
on the food instead of talking to people.
Tea with Tolkein was in a country pub that he claimed
inspired the one where the Hobbits stayed the night in Lord of the Rings.
Donna was happy to believe that. It looked a bit like the one in the film,
only quieter.
Finally, they had a huge home made supper in the little
lodge by a Scottish loch where Herbert George Wells greeted The Doctor
as an old and trusted friend and was thoroughly charming and gentlemanly
to Donna. She was pretty sure the wish was working, though. She didn’t
have to adjust her belt after the fourth big meal of the day.
“And just where do you put it all?” she asked
The Doctor as they finally got a bit of exercise, waking along the loch
in the dying hours of the day. “You’re as skinny as a rake,
but you eat just as much as anyone else.”
“Makes no difference to me,” he answered.
“This isn’t the body I was born with. What I look like is
completely coincidental to anything I do with it. I could eat like a pig
and never put on a pound. The only way I could get fat is to regenerate
into a fat person.”
Herbert George Wells took that idea philosophically. As
far as Donna knew, he had never incorporated it into one of his stories,
but obviously the Time Machine and War of The Worlds owed a lot to evenings
by the fire chatting to The Doctor.
“That’s not something I ever want to see,”
Donna said. “I mean… not you regenerating as a fattie, but…
but you regenerating at all. It’s just too much. I can’t imagine
seeing you as… somebody else… but… still you…
only not you…”
That made absolutely no sense, but The Doctor smiled and
assured her that he would not regenerate while she was travelling with
him.
“I wish I had that in writing,” she said,
without thinking. The Doctor looked at her oddly and then reached into
his apparently endless pocket for a notepad and pen. He proceeded to write
in very small, neat handwriting what must have qualified as the world’s
tiniest legal document. He signed it and got Wells to countersign it.
He passed the page to Donna. She read it.
“I promise, unreservedly,
not to go through bodily regeneration while Donna Noble of Chiswick
is travelling with me.
Signed
The Doctor. Inverness, 1899.
Countersigned
Herbert George Wells, Inverness, 1899.
“Ok,” Donna said, folding the sheet of paper
and putting it in her pocket. “That’s sorted. Now… Inverness?
We’re in Inverness?”
“Well, just outside it,” Herbert corrected
her. “By the Loch….”
“You mean… Loch Ness!” The scenery took
on a new meaning as she looked around at on of only two Scottish Loch
she had heard of – the other being Loch Lomond, which there was
a song about. “Wow. Herbert… have you ever seen the monster?”
“Well, as a matter of fact…” Herbert
began, missing the frantic signals to change the subject that The Doctor
was making behind her back. “Yes, I have.”
“Oh, that is so amazing. I’d love to see it.
I wish I could see the Loch Ness Monster.”
“Oh dear,” The Doctor groaned. “We’re
in trouble now. He knew what was coming next. “All right. But don’t
make too much noise. You’ll scare the poor beast.”
He brought her by the hand down to the loch side. She
watched as the still, mirror-like water was disturbed by sudden ripples
before a large reptilian head rose up, followed by a long neck. She had
the impression of an even bigger body still beneath the surface, but when
the creature turned its head and an eye the size of a soup plate looked
directly at her that was more than enough. She didn’t know whether
to be glad or sorry when it dived back down into the deep water and the
ripples slowly dissipated.
“Me… scare… that…” Donna
stammered. “I mean… wow. That was…”
“That was the Loch Ness Monster,” The Doctor
said. “Now, let’s go and leave it in peace. It doesn’t
usually do command performances. Besides, we really should be off now.
Herbert, it’s been a marvellous evening. Good to see you again.”
Donna thought he was a bit abrupt about their leaving.
Herbert didn’t seem to mind. He walked with them to the TARDIS and
said goodbye effusively.
“He’s nice,” Donna said as she watched
him waving to them on the TARDIS viewscreen. “Really nice.”
“He’s another ladies man,” The Doctor
pointed out. “But… yes, nice is a good description of him.
I’ve always found him ‘nice’.” She watched him
set the TARDIS into orbit above planet Earth, and then went to sit down
on the sofa. He didn’t ask Donna to join him, but she had the feeling
she was supposed to.
“Tell me what happened in the market, yesterday,”
he said. “Every little detail.”
Donna told him. He listened. He didn’t say anything
for a long time. Then he spoke very quietly and softly.
“I'm a scientist,” he said. “I believe
in rationality, order, in things happening for a reason – cause
and effect. I don’t believe in magic, in spells and charms, magic
rings and other occult jewellery. I don’t believe in crystals that
can grant wishes.”
“Then what is it?”
“It’s not magic. It’s… it’s
a kind of technology. It’s science. The crystal has certain properties
that influence reality. It changes reality, according to the desire of
the person it has bonded with. Hence the wishes.”
“Well… Ok. I mean… I don’t really
care if it’s magic or not. I like it. It worked. I wasn’t
going to do anything bad with it. Nothing… nothing greedy.
“I know that,” The Doctor assured her. “And
I suppose you’ve thought it through by now and realised that trying
to feed the world or curing all diseases in the universe are impossible.”
“I thought they might be.”
“Too much reality to change at once.”
“Are you mad at me? For… buying the pendant…
for using it.”
“Why should I be mad? It’s not your fault.
Did it have a sign on it saying ‘Legendary Pendant of Princess Massaria,
grants wishes. Warning, persistent use could seriously damage your health?”
“No, it didn’t,” she answered.
“There you are, then. Not your fault.”
“What do you mean, ‘could seriously damage
my health’?”
“Every wish you make, it has consequences. You might
not notice. The consequences might be very small. And some of them might
not affect you. They might affect other people. People you don’t
even know…”
“What people…”
“The one hundred uxit coin…. You found ne…
that lady had lost one. I’m not saying it was… I mean it could
be coincidence. But there are only so many one hundred uxit coins in circulation.
You didn’t make it appear out of nothing. So maybe it came from
somebody else’s purse… someone it meant much more to than
you….”
“Oh!” Donna was horrified. “Oh, Doctor.
I mean… I never…Oh, I am so sorry. I… I didn’t…
Oh, God, it feels like I picked her pocket.”
“You, yourself, would never knowingly take somebody’s
food money. I know that. YOU gave the poor woman the money you had left.
You tried to help. That’s my Donna. The one who does the right thing.
But do you see what I mean? Consequences. Some of the other wishes…
the consequence of wishing to see the Loch Ness Monster… a bad time
for sports anglers after the lake was disturbed and all the fish hopped
it. As for some of the other things you wished for… compassion isn’t
a finite resource, unlike money. All those little rewinds you wished for,
because you thought you’d hurt my feelings….” He smiled
and looked at her face. “I’m a Time Lord. It’s not just
a phrase we made up. We have mastery over time. I know when it’s
being interfered with. I feel it in my bones.”
“Why didn’t you tell me?”
“I… was touched by your reasons. You wanted
to save me from unnecessary heartsache. That’s what I mean about
compassion. For what it’s worth… it’s ok. I’ve
lived with my grief for a long time now. When I get a bit sad watching
a sunset… it’s not a bad thing. It’s a reminder that
I am alive and I do have feelings. I need that now and again. And maybe
I need a shoulder to cry on sometimes, too. And I think you’re a
good candidate. But… let me decide when I need it in future, won’t
you?”
“What about the pendant? Are you going to take it
away from me?”
“There wouldn’t be much point. You see…
it doesn’t just work when you’re wearing it. it linked with
you psychically the first time you touched it… or possibly the first
time you made a wish while touching it. But now, even if you take it off,
it will still work. You’re connected now.”
“Really? Seriously?”
“Put it down and go across the room. try wishing
something completely trivial and harmless but obviously not a coincidence.”
Donna took off the pendant and left it on the sofa before
walking to the inner console room door. She made a wish and turned to
see if it had worked.
The Doctor looked extremely disconcerted.
“I’m glad Captain Jack can’t see me
now,” he said. “You actually wished to see me in a sequined
ball gown? You actually think these arms are made for spaghetti straps?”
Donna giggled.
“It seemed like something totally trivial and harmless.
I mean… unless you get to like the look… I mean there can’t
be any consequences of that, surely?”
“If the dress came from the wardrobe, we’re
all right,” he said. “But if Shirley Bassey stepped out on
stage in front of a thousand adoring fans wearing a crumpled brown pin
stripe suit….”
“Should I wish this one back?”
“Please, do.”
“How far away do you think it would work?”
she asked once The Doctor was dressed in his more familiar attire. “I
mean, what if we leave it somewhere and go…”
“Even if you left it on a number nine bus to Hammersmith
and made a wish on Assinta Minor, it would still work. Anyway, just leaving
it somewhere is too dangerous. It might just decide to fix on some other
poor innocent. That’s probably how it got in the market in the first
place. Looking for a soul to latch onto.”
“You make it sound evil,” Donna said. “It
isn’t? Is it? I mean… if it is…”
“No, it’s not evil. It’s not sentient
enough for that. It’s…”
“Where does it come from? You said something about
a legendary Pendant of Princess Missie….”
“Massaria.”
“Yeah, her…. So…. Were you making that
up or….”
“It’s a very sad and tragic story. And I’d
rather not scare you with it,” The Doctor answered. “But what
we’re going to do… you’re going to hold onto it. You’re
going to try very hard not to use it anywhere that other people could
get hurt by it, or I could end up wearing women’s clothes. Did you
have to include the underwear, by the way? basques and suspenders are
not me.”
“I didn’t wish for the underwear,” she
answered. “Maybe that was YOUR idea.”
“I don’t think so,” he replied, laughing
with her at the absurdity of the whole thing. “Let’s call
it a night. You’ve had a long day. Cocoa and bed. And tomorrow,
first thing, we’ll test your pendant out in a place where it can’t
have any consequences at all. I want to measure the energy it uses to
change reality and see if it is finite after all.”
They were still in orbit around Earth the next morning
when she woke. The Doctor made breakfast and afterwards he brought her
to a room in the TARDIS she had never seen before. When they walked in,
it was just a big empty room with a light fitting in the middle of the
ceiling and one plain looking chair directly underneath it.
“This is the ‘in potentia’ room, he
said. “It’s…” He struggled for a second or two
to find a way to explain it. “Star Trek… you’ve seen
Star Trek, haven’t you. The holodecks…”
“Yes….”
“This is a bit like that. Only… different.
It’s a room that can be whatever you want it to be. If you’re
quarantined on board the TARDIS with the measles and want some fresh air
it can be a riverside walk on grass that feels as real as grass has a
right to feel. If you want a 1970s disco – though why anyone would
– then it can be one. It responds to your desires. And everything
that is created, comes from the TARDISes energy generators. It will take
nothing away from the outside universe. If you ask for food, it won’t
leave somebody else hungry. If you ask for clothes, nobody else will be
suddenly naked. This is a safe, self-contained place to try out those
wishes. And while you’re doing it, I’m going to be using this…”
He held up something that looked like a transistor radio
with its insides on the outside. It had the hand made look of something
a six year old would bring proudly home from school to show his mum. The
Doctor looked quite proud of it. His inner six year old was grinning maniacally
and obviously waiting for her to ask what it was.
She asked. She felt he would be disappointed if she didn’t.
“I call it a reality slide rule. It will tell me
how much reality is being altered when you do your stuff. So…go
on… do your… stuff.”
“I can just… wish for what I want?”
“As long as it’s not George Clooney naked
- or any other film or television personality in any state of undress
for that matter. The in potentia room only does things, not people.”
“I wasn’t thinking on those lines,”
she assured him quickly. Then she looked at the chair he was sitting on.
“Let’s start with a wider seat so I can sit down, too. And
she wished for an old fashioned park bench with wrought iron legs and
arm rests and varnished wooden seat. She sat down next to The Doctor and
carefully envisaged the rest of the park. A fountain, for a start. She
wished for a big old fashioned one, with mermaids and fish spouting water
into a pool.
She smiled widely as the parkn took shape around her.
The fountain, lawns and flower beds, paths between them, more benches
for people to sit, playing fields further away, a children’s playground,
a long avenue of trees and a river beyond that marking the boundary of
the park. There was an old fashioned bandstand. Music came from it even
though there were no bandsmen.
“If I invented an ice cream van…”
“It would be self service. But the ice cream would
be very nice. Synthesising food is easy enough for the TARDIS. You want
ice cream?”
“Yeah. I mean… ice cream in the park. It’s
what it’s all about.”
The van looked as if it had always been there. The Doctor
opened the side door and went inside while Donna stood by the hatch. She
watched as he expertly scooped a double cone of vanilla and put a long
piece of chocolate flake into it and a sprinkle of nuts before passing
it to her. He did a second cone for himself and joined her in a walk along
the river bank enjoying the park Donna had wished into being.
“It’s too quiet, though,” she said after
a while. “What use is a park without people in? There should be
kids riding their bikes along the paths, people walking their dogs, emo
teens with their skateboards around the fountain, old fogeys moaning at
them, lads playing football. Even a fight or two.”
“Not quite so charming, but much more realistic,”
The Doctor agreed. “Sorry. But that has always been the limit of
the in potentia room. No people.”
“I wish we could be in a real park then,”
she said. “With people.”
“Oh!” The Doctor groaned as he looked around
at the public park, quite obviously somewhere on planet Earth, most likely
England, maybe March or April, with daffodils on the grass verges.
It was not unlike Donna’s vision in many ways. But
the fountain was in desperate need of a clean up. There were wasps buzzing
around overfull waste bins and the grass was littered with the rubbish
people hadn’t even bothered to bin. There was a noisy argument between
the skateboarding ‘emo kids’ and the dirt bikers and the bandstand
hadn’t heard a note of music for thirty years. But there were people
walking their dogs and pushing prams and pushchairs. There were children
running and playing. There were ad hoc games of football. It was still
exactly what either of them expected a park to be.
“Ohhh. I’m sorry, Doctor,” Donna said
as she realised one thing was missing. “The TARDIS.”
“It’s ok,” he assured her. “The
TARDIS has a built in fail safe. If we’re zapped out of it for some
reason and it’s adrift, it will land on the nearest source of gravity
– in this case, Earth. I’ll just… let her know where
we are. Don’t want her landing in Zambia. Too far to walk.”
He reached into his pocket for the sonic screwdriver and aimed it into
the sky for a minute or so. “That’s it. She’s got the
signal. She’ll be here in a half hour or so. Meanwhile, it’s
not a bad looking place. Is that a mobile café up there? A couple
of Styrofoam cups of well stewed tea could be good right now.”
He started off up the path, but Donna wasn’t following
him. He looked around. She was looking at her mobile phone.
“A load of text messages from mum. She’s annoyed
because I didn’t remember the anniversary of my dad’s death.
She said I could have sent something from Interflora even if I’m
in Mauritius or wherever. She thinks I’m… too busy gallivanting
to care.”
“I thought she wanted you to get a job and make
something of your life,” The Doctor commended. “Can’t
win with your mum.”
“Yeah… well… maybe she’s right.
I should have remembered.”
“You didn’t forget. In your personal timeline,
it’s still January. You wanted a park full of people so you wished
it on a sunny spring day a couple of months after your dad’s anniversary.
Once we get the TARDIS back… we… can…”
He stopped talking. There was nobody listening. Donna
didn’t need the TARDIS when she had the pendant to wish her there.
She was gone already.
“Oh, Donna,” he groaned. “Just be careful,
please. Don’t do anything you’ll regret before I can catch
up with you.”
Donna looked around and sighed. A cemetery on a cold, grey
February was a stark contrast to the sunny park. And the sad memory this
one invoked for her made it seem even colder.
Her mum and granddad were coming up the path towards her.
She waited for them.
“Hello, love,” her granddad said. “Glad
you could come.”
“So, you turned up then,” her mum said coldly.
“Managed to remember you’re a part of this family.”
“Mum…” she began.
“Couldn’t be bothered to bring flowers, though,”
Sylvia Noble continued. “You’re supposed to be making good
money from this new job of yours. But you couldn’t be bothered to…”
Donna wished. A big funeral bouquet appeared in her hands.
There was a card on it that said ‘Remembering mum, with love,”
for a few seconds before it changed to ‘Remembering dad, with love.”
“I’ll make this right, later,” Donna
promised. “For whoever these really belong to.”
Her mum wasn’t moaning, at least. But they walked
to the grave in stony silence. Donna put her flowers down. Mrs Noble laid
down the wreath she had brought. Wilf Mott bowed his head respectfully
then reached out his hand to his granddaughter. His daughter just stood
there by the graveside, expressionless.
“It wasn’t so bad before dad died,”
Donna thought. “Mum didn’t nag as much. He would stop her.
I wish he was alive.”
It wasn’t the first time she had made that wish.
But it was the first time it was granted. Donna looked at the hand held
in hers and at her father’s tired but resigned face, and her mum,
still standing by the graveside.
“Well… then… who…” she looked
down at the memorial stone. “Oh, no. Not granddad.”
“Consequences,” The Doctor had said. Everything
had consequences. She got her dad back but her granddad was dead.
“Its not fair,” she said out loud. “It’s
just not fair.”
“It’s all right, love,” her father said.
“I know you miss him. But it was a relief after his illness.”
“Granddad wasn’t ill,” she answered
him. “He was… he was full of life. He was fitter than men
half his age. He was…”
“What would you know?” her mother snapped.
“You haven’t been here all year. That mysterious job of yours.
Off all over the world. Never even a postcard. He worried about you, to
the end.”
“No, he didn’t,” Donna snapped back.
“It wasn’t like that. It wasn’t. Oh, it’s not
fair. Why did it have to be him? Why… why couldn’t it be you?
I wish you were dead instead of him.”
“Donna, love,” Her grandfather put his arm
around her shoulders she broke down in tears at the graveside. “It’s
all right, love. I’m here. So is your dad. It’s all right.
I know you and your mum had some problems. You said things you wish you
hadn’t. And then she died and you didn’t have the chance to
say sorry. But it’s all right. She knows you’re sorry. It’s
all forgiven now. It’s all right.”
“Oh, gramps,” she sobbed. “Oh, it’s
not. If only you knew… Dad…” She turned to her father
and he, too, reached out to hold her, perplexed by the sudden tears.
“Donna…” Another man’s voice called
out to her. She looked around as The Doctor came forward. She saw the
TARDIS parked by the bins where the old flowers were discarded. She ran
to him. He opened his arms to her and hugged her gently.
“You need you own quiet time,” The Doctor
said to Geoff and Wilf. I’m just going to take Donna for a little
walk until she feels better.”
The two men nodded gratefully. They both knew The Doctor
could be trusted to look after Donna when she was in one of her funny
moods.
He walked with her down a quiet path between rows of graves
until they came to a rather nice little memorial garden for people without
graves for various reasons. He sat her down on a bench with a plaque dedicated
to someone who had died on that sad September day The Doctor had often
wished he could have done something about. Donna cried until she ran out
of tears then looked at him, hiccupping now and again and blowing her
nose on the handkerchief he quietly handed her.
“I’ve done a terrible thing,” she said.
“Yes, you have,” he answered. “You’re
not the first. That story I said was too harrowing to tell… Princess
Massaria… She was a very beautiful if spoilt young woman. She was
the only child of a king who loved her dearly and gave her everything
her heart desired. One day he gave her a pendant that had been specially
made to bend reality and grant her wishes instantly. I suppose it saved
on transport costs. The princess loved being able to wish into existence
all the gold and jewels and beautiful clothes she wanted, and the finest
foods, sweet meats and treats whenever she wanted. Of course, the things
didn’t come into existence instantly. The king spent half his time
placating goldsmiths and fashion designers and cake makers whose wares
suddenly vanished from their shops. But he continued to indulge her every
whim.”
“Then one day – nobody knows why – the
king and the princess had an argument. It was probably some small thing
just like any family argues about. Something that started as nothing and
blew out of proportion.” Donna nodded. She knew all about that.
“Anyway, it got really bitter, and then the princess said something
utterly horrible and unforgivable. She said to her father ‘I wish
you were dead.’.”
“Oh…”
“Exactly.”
“But she could have wished him alive again, couldn’t
she? She could have made it right?”
“She could. But she didn’t. She saw her father
lying there, dead. And she said something that made it impossible for
her to take it all back. She said “I hate my life. I wish I had
never been born.”
“Oh….”
“And of course, she wasn’t. The servants found
the king dead and a strange pendant lying on the floor beside him. The
people mourned their king and the fact that there was no direct heir to
the throne. He had died childless. And then, even before the official
mourning period was over, two rival claimants to the throne emerged. The
next thing, civil war, millions dead, a civilisation destroyed.”
“That really is a consequence,” Donna said.
“That’s how come the pendant was there… on that stall?”
“It got passed around and caused a whole heap of
trouble for other people first. All sorts of time anomalies, people dying
or not dying when they should. We… my people… when they existed…
we sent agents out all the time to clean up the mess and put the time
lines right. But they couldn’t trace the pendant.”
“So… when I got it… you knew all about
it. You didn’t stop me.”
“I thought… maybe… with my supervision…
it could be controlled. I thought it could be neutralised eventually.
I thought… if you had it, at least I knew where it was. And you
could be trusted… not to do the kind of terrible things the princess
did. I was wrong. Not that I’m saying I don’t trust you. Believe
me, I do. But I should have realised that it was too easy to get into
the sort of problems we have now. I shouldn’t have left you with
the responsibility. Goodness knows, I’m not sure I could have resisted
the temptation myself. I could have wished my planet, my people, back
into existence. I’m not blaming you, Donna. Anyone could have made
the same mistakes. But… now, at least, you have a chance to put
it all right.”
“Me? I’ve got to? I thought… you’re
the Time Lord. You said it… it’s your job. Your people…”
“No. You’ve got to put it right. It’s
up to you. You don’t really want your mum dead, do you?”
“I loved my dad. And my granddad. More… I
never… never argued with dad. He never pushed me around the way
mum does. But… this isn’t right, is it? It feels as if…
as if I killed her. I did it. and… that’s a horrible feeling.
I know I can’t leave it like this. I have to let dad go… put
things right.”
“Yes. But it’s got to be the right way. You
can’t just reverse the last wish. You’ve got to find a way
to end it once and for all.”
She thought for a few moments and then she nodded.
She stood up.
“I wish I had never touched that pendant and made
that first wish,” she said.
At first it didn’t look as if anything had happened.
Then she noticed that the pendant was gone.
“Did it…”
“Come on, let’s go and see.”
He took her hand and they walked back towards the place
where Donna’s dad was buried. Donna gave a sob as she saw her mum
and granddad beside the grave. Yes, everything was as it should be. Her
dad was dead.
“He was supposed to be dead,” The Doctor reminded
her. “It’s just the way life is. You can’t change it.
I can’t. Nobody can. Nobody should. You just have to accept it.”
“I know,” Donna said with a sigh.
“I'm sorry we’re late,” The Doctor said
as they approached. Mrs Noble looked about to say something cutting, but
he got in there first. “It’s entirely my fault. Donna told
me time and again that we had to be here. But I delayed us. And then I
got us lost in the cemetery. I’m afraid we didn’t even have
time to go to the florists. My apologies to you all.”
For a moment it seemed as if Sylvia might be cutting to
The Doctor, anyway. Then her face softened and she almost smiled at him.
“That’s all right, Doctor,” she said.
“It’s kind of you to think of us at this time. You only met
Geoff the once, didn’t you?”
“That’s right, yes.” The Doctor made
polite agreeable conversation for a minute or two. Then he stepped away.
He watched from a distance as Donna and her family had their moment of
remembrance at the graveside. When they were done, Donna hugged her mum
briefly, and her granddad a little less briefly, and then hurried away.
“Thank you,” she said to The Doctor. “For
what you did. For everything you’ve done.”
“All in a day’s work. Speaking of which, we
have some loose ends to tie up.”
He didn’t explain what he meant. Donna didn’t
dare ask. He had not yelled at her once for being so stupid as she had
been. And he still wanted her with him in the TARDIS after all the trouble
she caused.
She wasn’t going to rock the boat.
She was a bit surprised, all the same, when the TARDIS
materialised beside the market square on Ux-Pa-Ly.
“It’s a couple of hours before we were here
the first time,” The Doctor explained. The best way of making your
last wish come true is to make sure the thing isn’t there to tempt
you. Ah… there we are.”
It was hanging there among the other trinkets. The Doctor
picked it up carefully, by the chain, never touching the crystal for a
moment. He let the stall holder put it in a paper bag and then held that
very carefully as they returned to the TARDIS.
The next stop was a perilous one. Donna looked at the
viewscreen and saw the TARDIS hovering over the caldera of an active volcano.
She wasn’t sure if it was on Earth or some other planet. She followed
The Doctor to the door, but kept back, holding onto the handrail as he
dropped the paper bag out. The paper turned to ash long before the pendant
fell into the magma below.
“That will do it?” she asked as he closed
the door and turned to her. “It won’t turn up in a thousand
years when some fossil hunter chips open a bit of rock?”
“No. The heat will have shattered the crystal into
millions of pieces and melted them. It’s over.”
“Thank goodness for that. Still… I wish…”
The Doctor put his finger over her lips, cutting off the
wish.
“Just until we’re out of this galaxy, let’s
try not to use the ‘w’ word. To be on the safe side.”